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REPUTATION: Track 02, End Game.

To my Niki,

Happy 6th monthsary to us!

It always fascinates me how the universe conspires para mag reconnect tayo and chose me to be your partner. And look at us, it’s been half a year already <3.

To one of the bravest girls with a big and soft heart, thank you. Thank you for sticking around and spending intimate and special time with me, though minsan nakakapikon ako huhu— thanks heaps for always putting up with me. You always make me feel loved and cared for, and I honestly couldn’t ask for more, babe. You have no idea how blessed I am to be with you. I know it’s not always easy na malayo us sa each other, but thank you for understanding, and loving me with all that you are. Most of all, thank you for staying. I can’t wait for the day na magkasama na tayo physically, but until then, I will love you the best way I can, no matter where we are.

Know that hinding-hindi ako magsasawa sa’yo and sa atin. I can’t see myself loving someone the way I love you kase it’s you that I want, not anyone else. I always look for you sa lahat ng bagay and no matter how busy life gets, there’s always part of me that longs for you and you lang alone. Please don’t get tired of me ha, kawawa naman ako :(( haha. Kidding aside, I hope your heart won’t grow tired of me. And if it does, I hope you will find reasons to find your way back to me. I can’t afford to lose you, babe, not this time.

Also, I know I keep on telling you this but I won’t get tired of it— I am always proud of you. Always have been and always will be. Proud of you for being so strong and for choosing to be the bigger person always sa lahat ng bagay. I know pagod kana sa lahat lately and it’s okay to take things slowly muna or even mag rest. Sa maraming times na naging extra masipag ka, extra responsible and extra understanding, you owe yourself a pahinga sometimes and that’s okay. You have always been a good ate, anak, and engineer to your workmates and boss. Hays, best girl as always! Kaya it's fine, rest if you must. Take all the time you need until you have the energy again. Baby steps babe, it’s going to be okay soon. I’m gonna pray and manifest that hard for you. I’m here lang ha, and will continue to be your support system. You’ve got this!

Anyway, here’s to six months of love, growth, and happiness, and to many more months and years ahead. I hope you keep touching people's hearts just how you have touched mine since 2020. I'm yours for life, baby.

Mahal na mahal kita. Sobra.

PS: Sorry di ako nakipaglaro kahapon kase ito talaga yung tinatapos ko. Was frustrated kakahanap mabilhan ng bento cake diyan kase wala talaga :< kaya for now, please take this sappy bento cake for our 6th.

[itsleyzuuhh]

RED: Track 16, Begin Again✨

To my dearest Niki,

Honestly, I really don't know how to start this, but I will try my best to convey what I truly want to express. Please understand that this is raw and genuine from my heart. For over 4 years that I have known you, my love for you has never wavered. I thought I was over you; I thought the love had faded the moment we stopped talking. But I realized that it never left. It was still there the whole time, quietly growing, and it grows even more now that you are mine.

Thank you is an understatement of how grateful and thankful I am that I get to call you mine now, finally. To love and to be loved by you is one of the happiest moments that I will forever treasure and that will forever hold a special place in my heart, no matter where I am or whatever the circumstances are.

Thank you for making me the happiest and for making me feel seen and validated. Thank you for the sense of belonging I feel just being loved by you.

I love you, baby.

Thank you for allowing yourself to be seen by me in all that you are. I witnessed somehow how cruel the world is against you, and I somehow saw you in your vulnerable state. I can’t promise I will be a perfect partner for you, but one thing is for sure: I will handle your heart with so much care, patience, and gentleness.

I hope my love will be gentle enough to help you heal, especially from the things you never speak about.

I can't fix everything you're feeling or the things you've been dealing with, but I will hold a safe space for them and for you. I will be your safe space, and you will never be an inconvenience to me, baby.

I love you. I will be with you to provide you with comfort, attention, strength, support, love, care, and all the good things in life. Always remember that you are not hard to love, babe, and you deserve everything, and I am more than willing to give all of those to you in any way I can.

I can’t wait to do those cute things with you too—hold your hands, do the do the photo booth thing, do lots of museum and coffee dates, and the list goes on.

But most of all, I can’t wait to celebrate more wins in life with you.

Please wait for me, baby, until distance is never a problem for us na. So for now, what I have are these words to assure you that I am yours and yours alone, no matter the distance.

You have me—your kakampi, best friend, safe space, and your person.

Again, I love you—warm and all-encompassing.

And you will always be loved by me, in all ways.

Happy 1st Month, baby 🤍

1 month down, more to goooo!!

[itsleyzuuhh]

Speak Now: Track 09, Enchanted✨

Dear Monkin,

Honestly I don't know where to start and there are so many things I'd like to say that it feels like it could not fit into this letter. I have so much in my mind but what I didn’t seem to have tho, are the exact words to say or to use because it seems like I don't know how to put them into words hahahaha char anywaaaay happy birthday to the kindest and supercalifragilisticexpialidocious hooman I know ✨

Thank you. For sharing the good, the bad, the ugly days, weeks and months with me.

Thank you. For staying, despite of the increasing barriers and the distance between us.

Thank you. For trusting me- it really means a lot to me 💖

Thank you. For being patient with me because it feels like I'm so annoying na and for being patient with me being lutang sometimes like nung di pala pwede sumakay ng taxi papuntang mindoro hahaha I'm still shy pag naaalala yun

Thank you. For being supportive, even though I'm the worst joker and the corniest hooman alive hahahah gosh

Thank you. For dealing with my weirdness and all my trip and for sticking with me despite all of that.

Thank you. For being a good listener, For staying up late just to talk to me about stuff – school-related stuff, our families, elementary and high school memories etc.

Most of all, Thank you for existing ✨

Your existence means so much to me. and I truly appreciate everything about you, even the slightest details about you- how you really love coffee and prefer the dark ones, how you don't put sugar on your milo or when you're drinking milk, how you hate hotdogs to the point you immediately utter the words "ew hotdog" hahahaha, how you love shawarma, takoyaki and siomai but you don't eat lumpia hahaha, how you love Taylor Swift so much that listening to Taylor Swift songs reminds me of you and how you say it's your favorite song to every Taylor Swift songs hahahah, how you love the band Michael Learns to Rock and their song "Take Me to Your Heart" because its laging pinapatugtog ng papa mo, how you're not into movies and series but you love Game of Thrones which is ang haba huhu, how you amazed me that we have the same favorite movie- The Notebook, how you are so mapili sa foods but you love Bicol Express and Sinigang and how my lips crack a smile with every jokes and banat na tinatry mong ipasok specially the "wherebro" hahahaha it's my fave tho . I really appreciate all the efforts you exert monkin, whether it’s simply to talk to me or make sabay sa lahat ng trip ko and thank you so much for that.

You know, I always talked to God about you. You’re so kind, gentle and too precious that talking about you was something I was never ashamed of. I would tell Him how kind, and precious you are and how you value everyone who mattered to you and how I talked to Him to guard your heart because you may act tough and you may act like you don't care but I know deep inside, there are still things that affect you and you have your silent battles you don't speak to anyone about.

I apologize for all the things I've caused you- sa mga times na I'm being insensitive and for crossing the line. I'm really sorry, monkin 😔

I know I've been saying this a lot of time, but you deserve all the good things in the world. You deserve the best after going through so much . I'm always rooting for your success and happiness monkin, maybe for now the universe is kinda harsh on you and a lot is going on around you but please keep going, you shed so much blood and sweat for you to achieve your goals, and I am beyond proud of you!

I may not be perfect and I flawed, but I will stay- I will stay despite all those overwhelming highs or even on your depressing lows because when I say I gotchu, I gotchu always ✨

Thank you for making me happy. It was indeed enchanting to meet you ✨ I love you!

Love,

Master ✨