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I haven’t been on here in awhile because I have been eating ALOT the past few weeks. I gave up, I want to get back on track but food is the vain of my exitsnace. I hate it and it ruins me but I still eat it, more than i need and want to.I don’t know how to stop. I need help.

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Every day I wake up hating myself, the way I look, act, how much and what I eat, even the way I sound. I don’t want to be me. I feel empty and sad. I don’t want to be alive anymore.

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Maybe I really don’t have BED, I mean I have all the symptoms and go through everything, but I probably don’t have it, right?

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I asked my mom for help with my binge eating and she said just don’t eat. I tried talking to my best friend about and she said don’t self diagnose. Why doesn’t anyone understand. I can’t control it. I hate myself for it. It makes me want to die.

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things are rough now but soon your jeans will be baggy, your wrists will be smaller and you won’t be the fat one anymore

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note to self:

Food is meant solely for survival - not boredom or emotions

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Me_irl

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it’s my sixth sense (x)

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I see no lie

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Having depression is like being homesick but not knowing where home is

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i can't even walk on the sidewalk without getting anxiety. it has taken over my life. i hate it.

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I wish I had the confidence to leave my house.

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99 Distractions for when you need them

Drink a cup of hot tea

Wear soft, comfortable clothes

Take a bubble bath

Take a long shower

Get a massage

Get a manicure

Read a magazine

Wash your hair

Wrap up in a blanket

Give yourself a facial

Colour a colouring book

Play with Lego

Blow bubbles

Light candles

Read your favourite children’s book

Make a snack

Have a nap

Watch a funny video

Watch a good movie

Read a joke book

Watch the clouds go by

Play with a pet

Drive with the windows down

Braid your hair

Do a crossword puzzle

Research a topic

Complete a maze

Play a word game

Organise something

Listen to a podcast

Visit your local library

Plan something

Write in a journal

Talk a walk

Wash the dishes

Stretch

Dance around your room

Iron your clothes

Water your plants

Go to the park

Cook a nice meal

Hoover the house

Drive to a new part of town

Hula hoop

Practise your yoga

Play tennis

Rearrange your bedroom

Go for a swim

Run through the sprinkler

Wash your sheets

Ride a bike

Go bowling

Weed the garden

Call a friend

Make a gift for someone

Write a thank you note

Write a letter

Meet up with a friend

Visit a nursing home

Message someone you love

Invite someone to go shopping

Bake bread

Send an uplifting, kind anonymous message

Doodle

Invent something

Paint

Play an instrument

Make an instrument

Draw

Create a video

Draw yourself as a cartoon

Visit an art museum

Watch the buskers in town

Do a craft project

Try out a new recipe

Plan a new outfit

Decorate your room

Meditate

Pray

Listen to guided meditation

Download a new game

Level up in an old game

Take photographs

Compliment someone

Call your parents

Play with your siblings

Find new blogs to follow

Give yourself a pep talk

Moisturise

Tidy your room

Update your blog theme

Make a smoothie

Design your dream house

Paint your toenails

Clean your makeup brushes

Write a story

Clean the fridge

Organise your wardrobe

Watch a full season of a new show

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Me after a binge eating episode