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a Ballum sketch from a while back to cheer myself up

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callum (2018) + them thighs part 2 (for @juguitos​ with thirst)

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Just give him a break!

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You’ve got a second chance at life. Don’t waste it on me. Ben…shut up.

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ben’s family supporting him & coming up with ways to communicate with him

also, stuart:

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Ben: So, Babe, what do you fancy doing during these extra 24 *checks watch* actually, 12 hours of 2020.

Callum: *smirks* Everything…

Ben: *also smirking* Tell me.

Callum: Clean the oven, do some food shopping, and strip.

Ben: *face lights up*

Callum: The bed.

Ben: *frowns*

Callum: After I’ve fucked you relentlessly.

Ben: *mentally orgasms*

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Kathy : Why do you think Callum so into you?

Ben: Well i am unbelievable in bed.

Ben doesnt believ that he can be loved that he deserves to be loved but also he thinks  he`s sexy enough for Callum to stay .So now when he lost his hearing  he thinks it makes him less sexually attractive or not attractive at all.Аnd I think Callum understands it all.Yes, he writes on Ben’s back “I love you” and hears in response “not to waste time on me”. That’s why he says “Hearing or deaf i will still do you in a heartbeat” (same with sexting) and this Ben understands and accepts .

That’s why for me it’s not all about desire or thirst, but about support and comfort.

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When Ben and Callun were flirting and Callum makes a sex joke and Ben can't believe his ears and they're busy being gay and happy and with a (very) healthy dose of sexual tension and it's almost like the sweetest fic ever then 15 seconds later ben is having a breakdown over his hearing loss-

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#gay energy

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Ben&Callum + snuggling on the sofa

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Hello Ballum Fandom! We are really excited to announce that we are looking into doing a Ballum Big Bang this summer, but need to know if there is enough interest in the community, so we can plan the next steps! The Big Bang would include creating art for/writing a 10k fic over a period of time, then sharing here in the community, as a was of showcasing our creativity as a fandom. If you haven’t taken part in a Big Bang before, or are nervous about joining, really don’t worry - as this would be our first year as a fandom, so there’s bound to be some creases to iron out!

So leave a note/reblog if this is something you’d be interested in taking part in, and comment whether you’d want to write, or create art (this can be any form of media, if you have any questions, please ask!) and please note you can also sign up as a beta reader if you’re not sure what to do yourself but still want to be involved, as we’ll need to look into the ratios of fics to betas and art :)

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Ballum + reunion kisses

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So i finally caught up on the last 3 eps...

I-im not okay-

FIRSTLY WTF Daniel is dead??? And there was like nearly no aftermath damn?? Also bruhhh when jean left to get the drinks and me and my mum shared a glance cause we both KNEW he wasn't going to make it...shit hurts

CALLUM! My poor baby he's back and wow i actually thought he'd be in hospital longer but atta boi, he's a fighter!

HHHHHHHHH BEN-

I'M so glad that jay told more ppl about Ben's hearing bc i thought we'd have to deal with more misunderstandings and bs especially from stuart but NOPE ee said nah thats effort and im grateful we didnt have to put up with that

HHHHHH poor sharon i feel for her

UGH dammit whit i still cant believe she didnt go to the fuckitf police first thing we aLL KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN UGh

Mo is hilarious i love her

Did i mention? BALLUM BALLUM BALLUM BALLUM-

Callum tracing 'I ♡ U' on Ben's back hhhhhhhh

BEN'S BREAKDOWN T^T

OK BUT LIKE THE FUCKING KEEGAN AND TIFF SCENE WAS HILARIOUS EVEN IF RIDICULOUSLY CLICHE BUT IDGAF I LOVED IT SO MUCH OMGG

Speaking of (this doesnt count as spoilers if it was in the promo right?) it looks like keegan is gonna have more problems with the police and well as a poc that makes me happy bc that stuff should be addressed ut also frustrated as fuck because GIVE HIM A BREAK

Also tiff telling the police to "get your hands off my husband" We STAN A QUEEn

I dont know if it was just me but the pacing felt kinda...off?

Like idk it was just...it kept cutting of in what felt like the middle of rlly emotional moments to go to something random

Really killed the vibes

dotty is seriously getting on my nerves ugh A) she srsluy cant keep her trap shut and B) way to be insensitive about dennis like i actively hated his face and i was still devastated when he died

WHere exactly is the aftermath of bex? She nearly overdosed and died again and yet its barely been addressed? Speaking of where tf is sonia???? And martin????????

Also with missing characters, i know sharon doesnt wanna see linda but i think it'd be good for her honestly

Istg if gray even THINKS about laying one of his dusty musty grimy ass wife-beating FINGERS on the kids ima bought to throw hands

And lastly, lexi is a damn godsend and BITCH HAS NO CHILL DAMN WTF KID'S A STRAIGHT UP SAVAGE WE FUCKING STAN-