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i do as i always do and feel myself sink into the abyss

daily 1200, water, currently meal planning, need groceries (only have rice and ramen), just got my last check from my second job so ill go first thing 2mrw. setting up my workout guide again, volleyball mondays, dance wednesdays, long run fridays, more dance saturdays and on the others its all hi intensity callisthenics.

dont mind me as a public personal diary keeps me in check more than a private one does and is also less accessible to those around me

im stugglebussing ngl

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I'm back like clockwork. Leaving my second job, starting a new sport, trying to eat rounder meals, exercise and improve my general health.

Goals:

UGW: 89

Daily: less than 1200 kcal, fasting between 8pm and 7am, 5 cups water daily, walk 3 miles daily

Overall: balanced meals, less added sugar, almost no dairy (lactose intolerant), low gluten (gluten intolerant), more veggies (i always get tons of fruit at work), fitness i can maintain. Weight I can maintain. All goals I'll update as i go per normal

I'd like to go running again but i live over three miles from my job, have no car, and walk to work in the mornings (at minimum) so at least I always finish my walk goals. Even on days when I take the bus home it's still another mile and some change to the bus stations. so about 4.4miles walking daily. Not including being on my feet all day at both of my jobs. The walking goal is mainly for when I leave my second job and dont /have/ to walk on the weekends cause I could just take the bus. I should still walk. I love running though, it'd be nice to train for a 10k again.

I don't know where entirely my goals are all the time. Because I'm building some muscle, my weight will end up being higher than I think it should, so I'll adjust as I go. I won't completely cut dairy or gluten or sugar cause I'm a baker and have to try my product, but I usually have my coworkers test them, too. I also like yogurt and granola too much. I am still (mostly) vegetarian like I've been for ten years, but I also have been eating fish for 2 for the protein and it helps. I may start taking multivitamins again. I'm working on my insomnia (like always) so I can stop late-night munching and hopefully the fasting restrictions help with that.

I find that putting my goals on here has always held me more accountable than anything else has, even if I've deleted a lot of my past logs. I'm gonna keep going. I'll try and post daily food logs too, to see where I'm at

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I'm back, deleted any posts containing anything of my personal info cause I always have a massive fear that someone I know irl would find me, I'd completely restart but I kept some of my meal logs from last year as inspo and encouragement for me.

CW: 134.4lbs - 61kgs

GW: 120.0lbs - 54.5kgs

UGW: 89lbs - 40kgs

Daily Goal: >1000 cals, walk 3 miles, drink 3 cups water, exercise 30 mins, food between 8am-12pm and 3pm-7pm

Weekly Goal: lose 2-3lbs ( ~1kg), fast once weekly

Gonna do meal logs again maybe idk, this is just for me

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april 14: 700, used: 693

Meal 1: 163

oatmeal, brown sugar, strawberries

Meal 2: 160

Eggs and salsa

Meal 3: 195

oatmeal take 2, brown sugar

Snacks: 175

sf hot chocolate, fiber brownie, outshine smoothie

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April 12: Fasting

So far so good, i still have a third of the way to go but ill be sleeping or at work for most of it (: ive prepped my meal for breaking it though, so wish me luck these next 15 hours

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April 11: 650, used: 647

Meal 1: 278

tomato wraps, beans, sprouts, carrots, egg, mandarin orange

Meal 2: 289

salmon, yogurt with banana and strawberry

Snacks: 80

lemon bar, pickle spear

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April 10th: 700, used: 688

Meal 1: 188

oatmeal with brown sugar snd strawberries

Meal 2: 200

rice noodles, imitation crab, stirfry sauce, mixed veggies

Snack: 300

mini strawberry milkshake (went to sonic w/ my brother, didnt finish my milkshake, its normally 400 in the mini strawberry)

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April 9th: 700, used: 619

Meal 1: 187

tuna, tomato wraps, carrots, sprouts

Meal 2: 372

spicy tuna poke with sushi rice

Snack: 60

pomegranate popsicle

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sw2: 126.0

ugw: 90.0

current fasting time: 5pm-930am daily, plus ~40 hour fast every 2 weeks

i post my weekly goals on sundays with the tag iwontstopmealsweekly

i post a daily food journal with the tag iwontstopmealsdaily if you wanna block it

i post food inspo with tags iwontstopfoodinspo and mealspo

i post low calorie dessert recipes with tags iwontstopsweets and low cal sweets

i post all my original posts (so all those above and extras) with iwontstopme

i don't usually post my workout goals/ plans but if i do they'll also be tagged iwontstopme. i try to walk 3+ miles daily, dance daily, have dance class once a week, and alternate my other workouts

if you're on my blog, cater it to your existence ✌

i list my starting weight as my second one because it was originally 150 but i lost 30 pounds before having a year of recovery, where i only gained a few pounds back. since thats what it is this time around, that's what im saying it is. im a baker by profession so every day is constant struggle. feel free to message me, we're all stuggling out there and im chill with being a shoulder to lean on, though i have a full time and part time jobs and do freelance so i may take a second to get back to you. im in my mid-20s so ppl who may wanna message know.

im very pro-recovery and am also willing to talk about it but will never post about it, so dont send asks but do dm. i will never post thinspo or pictures of anyone who isn't myself.

i wish you all the love and safety on your journey 💛🧡❤️💜

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April 10th-April 16th food goals

fast 5pm-930am

post daily totals at the end of day instead of throughout the day

-Mon. April 10: 700

-Tues. April 11: 650

-Wed. April 12: fast (tues 5pm-thurs 930am)

-Thurs. April 13: 750

-Fri. April 14: 700

-Sat. April 15: 650

-Sun. April 16: special event w/ food. will try keeping calories b/w 600-1000

Last week's (April 3rd-April 9th) weight:

April 3: 114.8lbs

April 9: 112.2lbs

Change: -2.6lbs

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just did 3.5 miles in 45 minutes and its by no means my fastest time ever but its the fastest time ive done in a while so im pretty proud of myself

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was gonna walk to one of my favorite local coffee shops cause walking there and back gets me 3 miles and i can have a coffee but remembered it's easter so they're probably closed :/

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snacks: 188

low cal ice cream, veggie puffs

meals: 363

shrimp, ramen, veggies, sprouts, soy sauce

light greek yogurt, strawberries, banana

i ended up having two bites of cake at my friends house about an hour ago because her husband made a pineapple cake and i couldn't turn it down, but thankfully we all shared a piece so i could get away with it. im gonna take off a hundred calories from my limit tomorrow (so today is kinda 800 and tomorrow is 700) to even it out, especially cause i don't have to be anywhere (/dont have plans with friends who worry about me) so it'll just be me and my plan to go!!

April 8: 700

meal 1: 146, left: 554

oatmeal, yogurt, strawberries, brown sugar

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one of my friends is going through a breakup today so we pushed back when we're hanging out but also like, gosh first me now her :///

looks like im going to my friend's tomorrow, so all 3 of us can hang out before this big event they're hosting, which also means if that's where all my daily is being consumed lmao

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finally have a food scale lmao

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Anyone else have fantasies where they quit work and school and move in alone to a studio apartment with their cat and they can focus on losing weight and being alone and no one bothers them? Or is it just me?

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April 8: 700

meal 1: 146, left: 554

oatmeal, yogurt, strawberries, brown sugar