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I’m okay. Are okay. Everything’s okay. 7 more days till it happens🥺🫶🏽

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Being in something unhappy just so you can be happy

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I hate to sound negative and like I’m complaining all the time. Then i bottle it up until i can’t deal.

Then i don’t know how to have conversations when i don’t get what i want :/

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I’m angry.

Sometimes I’m so conflicted.

When I get over the anger, I’m okay. But I also feel like I just have to deal with things I don’t like.

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I’m feeling heavy tonight. We got into an argument. Once again i can’t let go of not being able to visit.

I didn’t cross sny lines. But today he did. Then he proceeded to call me not feminine. That blows. No feminine characteristics to be exact. It her hurt my self esteem.

It also hurt my feelings. To be called not a woman bc I’m not acting like a woman should. Wild. I wasn’t mentioning one thing about him but today i got the low blows.

Right now, i don’t want to meet. He wants a feminine girl, he should find one. And good luck finding one.

Im angry. Im hurt. Im sad. Im upset. I want to act out. But i can’t. Im angry and sad.

Im embarrassed. I keep telling myself I’m feminine but his words are getting to me. They’re hurting me.

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I got my feelings hurt today. I just need to go harder. Then maybe he’ll LOVE my body…

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Some days are good. Some days are bad. The bad always stay longer.

I hate fighting over stupid things. I hate the way he thinks sometimes. I wish he’d just stop. I keep thinking things will always be a problem bc he’s old fashioned. That’s the biggest thing for me. He’s always been like that. I know. But today over shorts? Shorts that weren’t even short like that? Wild.

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I’m just not happy

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My heart is breaking again. I think it’s going to be over again.

I hate myself and the emotions I go through. I’m never happy. I can never stay happy. I’m constantly angry

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I’m anxious. I just him to be sure. I just want it all to be real. I’m tired

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I’m so proud of my sister. She’s really grown from a hothead to being such a level headed individual. I pray she can guide me to be that way as well

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I don’t know if this is what I want anymore.

This morning has shown me a lot. I can’t be crying like this anymore.

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I need more confidence in myself. How do i do that

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I’m so angry. He can’t see where I’m coming from. He thinks I’m just upset bc I’m not getting my way when it’s more than just that

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Don’t ask a man to do anything for you. He will never fall through.

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I don’t feel confident. I don’t feel confident in my man. I don’t feel confident about my life.

We’re stuck.

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You start to feel like an idiot after awhile.