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I can’t let you go, for the fear of forgetting who I am without you. You were the kind of friend that had me convinced that without you, I’d be a nobody. It’s pretty ironic, because you always made me feel like a nobody. So I take a leap of faith with leaving my heart behind, I left it behind because you’ve broken it so many times that I don’t think I can even recognize it anymore.

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“By the time we meet again, I hope that you have sorted out your rattling thoughts, and that you have found peace within your bones. I hope by then, I will see a sincere smile on your face, that you will tell me how comfortable you are in your own skin. And I will smile. I will smile the proudest smile as I begin to tell you how I have never stopped loving you all this time.”

— Lukas W. // Till when you are finally happy

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“As the wind blows, I begin to wonder, who are you caring for at this very moment? Is it still me? Is it still us? I do not want to know. I am too afraid to find out.”

— Lukas W. // Do you still care about me?

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“When the time comes, where I end up drowning myself in a bottomless ocean of thoughts, will you be my breath through the journey? Will you stay and guide me, all the way back to the surface?”

— Lukas W. // To the surface

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“But I must admit I miss you terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby.”

— Lemony Snicket; The Beatrice Letters

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Exit in bliss, age old lessons in motion

Hindsight is 20/20.

Bow out when you cash in.

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You were in my dreams again last night, so when you said, “You’ll never see me again,” you lied, for your heart was beating so strong against my chest and with you in my arms, I could finally rest. So if this is the only way to be together, then darling, I will damn well just sleep forever.

// poetry in dreams j.d.m. (via poetryandthesea)

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“Why didn’t you love me?” I turned sharply, staring at his broken face. 
“I did love you, god, I loved you so much it hurt.” He had to have known this. I needed him to know that I’d never loved anyone as much as him. “Then why did you leave me?” “Because it hurt. Loving you hurt like hell, and I wasn’t strong enough to handle the pain that came with a love like ours.”

http://www.writeinmysoul.tumblr.com (via spilledmyink)

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you think everyone has the same heart as you, and thats whats gonna fuck you up

(via neutral)

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Aries:Fighting isn’t always the solution. There is nothing wrong with deciding you need to turn around and run. There is nothing wrong with deciding to hide from this war. It doesn’t feel right but sometimes the right choices we have to make feel like shit. But it’s better than the alternative. Taurus: Forgive yourself. Let what you use to do and who you use to be part of your past. I know the memories haunt you in scars on your skin, but you are more than your tragic backstory or the people who tried to wreck you. Gemini: Put down the knives, the fists, the guns. Put down your weapons. You have been fighting for so long you can’t even see who the real targets are anymore, can you? Give yourself a break to straighten it all out. Cancer: It’s okay to slip up. It’s okay to be sick sometimes. You do not always have to be this perfect person. You are allowed to have flaws and to be damaged. If they don’t like it then fuck them and move on. Leo: You’re taking the hits meant for them. If no one else is saying thank you, I am. You are being a bigger person then the one throwing punches or the cowards hiding in the corner. You’re putting a target on your own back to keep others safe. Thank you. Virgo: If the people in your life can’t handle you when the storms come, then they don’t belong there. If they can’t pick you up at 4 AM off the floor even though you’ve told them a thousand times they might have to, then they are not brave enough to belong with you. Libra: No matter how much you love them, you can’t bring them back. You can’t make them be part of your life just because you are so in love and miss them so much. I wish it worked that way, I’m sorry. Scorpio: There are better days and more sunsets ahead. You just have to hold on for them. I know it’s scary and overwhelming. But there are so much more on the horizon and it is coming, just please hang on. Sagittarius: It’s okay that the sadness comes back some nights. That it gets bad some days. But the way you got the scars the first time was being very quiet and letting yourself get hurt over and over again. If the monsters come back please don’t be silent this time. Capricorn: You are worth more then the bullshit they tell you to keep you around. I hope you open your eyes and see what their doing isnt just selfish it’s almost fucking abusive. Wake up, and run. Run as far and as fast as you can. Aquarius: Put the bottles down. They won’t help you. Hiding behind a vice isn’t going to do any good it’s just going to mask the problems with the marijuana smoke. Time to come out of the shadows and see what we really need to fix. Pisces: Never be scared to tell the truth. As scary as the attacks that may come for you, but it’s better than staying silent and waiting for the next person to get hurt. You know better.

This weeks horoscope (via late-nights-and-daydreams)

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Aries: Sometimes during the holidays you sign peace treaties with monsters. It’s not the end of the world and doesn’t make you the bad person just for trying to keep the peace. You are doing all you can to keep everyone happy. Taurus:  Sit back and enjoy these times with the family you’ve got now. It may not be all who it was last year, but you’ve done all you can. Now just lay back and relish that you built this world for yourself. Gemini: This time of year always brings back memories. I know it does. brings back flashbacks that are not always pretty. But you will make it through this season. You will survive this storm as painful as it is. Cancer:Do not let yourself be silent because it is convenient for others. You should not hide who you are just to make them all feel more at ease with the bigotry. Never be afraid to stand for what you believe in, even if it means walking out. Leo: Give yourself the gift of love. Stop looking in the mirror and running to the scale. Learn to love yourself so much it makes everyone else smile just by seeing how happy with yourself you are. It wont happen over night. But give that to yourself. Virgo: Let yourself become whoever it is you need to be so you can sleep at night. I know it’s hard and the panic of letting go of all you’ve known is scary. Especially around the holidays. But the best gift you could ever give yourself is learning who you really are again. Libra: It’ll sting. It’ll hurt for a very long time. And that’s okay. Let it hurt. Let it cry and let yourself scream as much as you want. It’s okay to not be okay. Especially right now with everyone else’s happiness shoved in your face. Scorpio: Don’t feel guilty for not being happy. Half of their smiles are fake. Half of those pictures weren’t even real memories just broken moments. You shouldn’t feel bad just because you feel like you’re missing out. But at least you are so real and they are paper thin. Sagittarius: It’s okay to not have a normal family this time of year. It’s okay to be hurt that the people who should be there aren’t. It’s okay to be upset. You have all the reasons in the world to be bitter and angry. I’m so proud you aren’t. Capricorn:  You don’t have to tolerate abuse just because it’s Christmas. You don’t have to be around your family if they will only add more scars. Being alone hurts but being abused hurts more. I’m sorry. Aquarius: Know this will pass. Soon you’ll have a routine again. The holiday lights will come down and it will not be so painful. The memories will always be there but they will finally stop being haunting. You just have to get through the next month. Pisces: It’s okay if you can’t make everything you want to happen, happen. You’re still a badass. You are still someone’s superhero. You’re still someone people look up to. You are piecing this together the best you can and it’s honestly all you can do these days. Be proud of it.

This Week’s Horoscope (Holiday Edition)

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Aries: You made it an entire year. You survived and I am so proud of you. No one can take the lessons you learned or the scars you earned away from you now. You are a different person, thank god. You will survive. This year should of taught you that. Taurus: You made it an entire year.  You found your voice and learned to bail when things get dark, not stay till you’re hurt. You know yourself so much better then you use to. You’re going to go so far.  Just keep pushing. WE’re almost free of all of this. Gemini: You made it an entire year. You learned that self love has to come first. And you can survive on your own without anyone. That your survival is not dependent on who they are or if they are in your life. You are so much better then that. Cancer:You made it an entire year. Celebrate. I know this doesn’t feel like a victory right now, but you are killing it. I know it hurts. But it won’t stay this bad forever. This is a season that will pass. Just like all the other old bad seasons. You just need to hang on for the ride Leo: Congratulations, you made it an entire year. Remember not to rebuild old bridges. You can’t keep dragging the same dead bodies of friendships that haven't existed for years into this new future you’ve got. You are so much more lovely then they’ll ever deserve. Don’t you dare settle for something that’s half assed like that. Virgo:You made it another year! You’ve grown so much. It cost a lot. I know it was terrifying. But you are killing it. You just have to keep your head up and keep that smile on. I know sometimes it hurts but you’re getting it. You will go so far I can see the potential bursting inside of you. Just don’t let the flame go out. Libra:You made it a whole year. No more duck and covers. Time to reconstruct your life to be exactly how you need it. I know its scary and I know it’s a massive pile of pain you have to dig through, but you can heal from the damage that this year has caused. Just don’t be scared to get dirty. Scorpio:Congratulations. You made it a full year! You won. You’ve survived everything that has tried so hard to kill you. Not a single thing has won. Remember that the next time you have to pick up your weapon. YOu have a 100% rate of winning. And you will keep that score up. You will not die. Sagittarius:You made it another year! You've finally found your footing here at home. Even if it’s alittle small and full of memories you don’t like, you are thriving. Remember, you can thrive under any circumstances. YOu are just that god damn amazing. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Because you did what no one else thought you could. Capricorn:  YOu made it through another year. I know you have blood on your knees and you’re terrified. But you did it. You're coming out the other side. THe light at the end of the tunnel is finally here and I hope you can see it because I can see it for you. Just please keep going no matter what. This is huge. You are going to be huge. Aquarius: You made it through another year. Congratulations. I know it all didn’t come in to play like you wanted. But doesn’t mean you can’t make something wonderful out of the wreckage. That you are not something amazing just because you feel a little stuck. I’m sorry it had to happen to you. Pisces: Congratulations. You’ve made it another year, against all odds. I am so proud. You are fighting demons no one could even imagine much less see. I am so proud. Just know that even when the next year gets hard, you’ll get through it.

This Weeks Horoscope, New Years edition (via late-nights-and-daydreams)