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I hope you're doing well

You hurt me but I still care

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Let me tell you a little story about this goddamn horse…my passion for horses has always been there, and when I was finally able to work at a stable mucking stalls and other barn chores in exchange for riding lessons, I was ecstatic. You could not tear me away from my safe haven. I then soon was diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and the development of an eating disorder. It had made me weak, my body was weak, the meds I was put on messed up my head and made me feel empty and as if my safe haven didn’t matter anymore. I was sent to the psych ward for three weeks. Before that happened we were planning on getting me a horse, so when I was in the ward and told about my horse (roger) a sparks lit up, and I had to meet him. I was finally out and able to work again, by that time we had switched barns and was able to focus just on roger..but he ended up having a bad back from a few horrible saddles given to us. We fixed his back and trainer after trainer, broken bone after broken bone, and crushed dreams after crushed dreams, we couldn’t get him to stop bucking. After about a year of him being too dangerous to ride and people telling me he’s going to kill me and to get ride of him, I had had enough, I was beginning to think I’d never ride him again but I promised him that since he helped me get better, I’d help him get better too. So I did, months after months of lunging, free lunging, and just sitting on him bareback with his halter, we decided it was time to get on him, so I did, what’s one more broken bone anyways. Usually getting on him meant he was going to buck and I was going to fall, but not this time, something in him changed, something in our connection and bond had changed, when I asked for his trot he gave me a trot, and he took the bit and he never missed a beat. The proudest moment of my life, being able to ride the horse that saved my life, and to shove it in the faces of people who said we couldn’t, said he was crazy. We’re going places. Never give up on something that means so much to you, even when it seems impossible, even if it takes years

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All my friends are heathens, take it slow (Watch it)

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Those things plus-size girls “can’t do” - Watch more in the full video

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me: *cracks knuckles*

person: you shouldn’t do that! you’ll get arthritis when ur older

me: 

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my horse jumps kinda nicely sometimes I guess

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Dean Creations Challenge | adoringjensen ↳ Prompt: Snapchat

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saw this on twitter

reblog for your Texas #LGBTQ followers who may be going to Houston Pride!

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Pictures Any Dog Owners Will Understand.

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Michael Jung [x]