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Every time someone’s leaving me i know i can’t stop them. I don’t have the right to convince them to stay in my life when all they want is to leave. But sometimes i can’t help but to think, am i not worth it? I’m used to it, but it’s still hurts knowing someone wants to leave you. And i can’t help but to feel upset, thinking i don’t need them anyways. Thinking, if ever they’ll come back i am no longer the same person they left. I’m better off without them.

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The fact that you’re struggling doesn’t make you a burden. It doesn’t make you unloveable or undesirable or undeserving of care. It doesn’t make you too much or too sensitive or too needy. It makes you human. Everyone struggles. Everyone has a difficult time coping, and at times, we all fall apart. During these times, we aren’t always easy to be around — and that’s okay. No one is easy to be around one hundred percent of the time. Yes, you may sometimes be unpleasant or difficult. And yes, you may sometimes do or say things that make the people around you feel helpless or sad. But those things aren’t all of who you are and they certainly don’t discount your worth as a human being. The truth is that you can be struggling and still be loved. You can be difficult and still be cared for. You can be less than perfect, and still be deserving of compassion and kindness.

Daniell Koepke  (via wordsnquotes)

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Good Morning! :)

Saya mag soundtrip kapag puro OPM. Yung tipong mga Silent Sanctuary, Callalily, Parokya ni Edgar, Eraserheads, etc hindi yung mga Daniel Padilla, Gimme 5, at yung mga kapit sa auto tune. HAHAHAHA HATER ALERT.��

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friends can break ur heart too

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I thought the most painful feeling is loving someone who can’t love you back, but i was wrong. To be loved by someone you can’t love really hurts. Seeing that person making an effort to make you happy, to show you how important you are to them and as much as you want to do the same, you just can’t cause you don’t feel the same. I don’t think i deserve it. Being in love is one of the most wonderful feeling human could ever feel. You’re not that hard to love but i just can’t love you just because you love me. Sometimes when you love, you’re taking a big leap of risk. And i have to leave because i don’t want to hurt you even more. I can’t give you something that you deserve. There’s actually nothing wrong with you, in fact you’re someone worth to be loved but it isn’t just me who’s capable of doing it. I know there’s someone out there who can love you more than you loved me. I know i’m such a jerk for saying this. But i don’t want to be selfish, as much as i love the feeling you’re giving me i just can’t hold you tight when there’s no feeling involve. I’ll just hurt you even more. I’m afraid that I might only give you sadness instead of making you smile everyday, that I might just shatter your heart into pieces. I don’t want that to happen. You’re so fragile. You’re so important to me. I seriously want you to be happy because you deserve it. You’re kind and nice and I’m not just worth it. You don’t deserve any of this because I know you have been through a lot of pain. It hurts to see you hurting because of me. That’s why i chose to leave to save you from pain. I want you to know that you’re worth it, it’s just me who’s not worthy of the love you’re giving me.

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not killing myself is a personal achievement but you cant really brag about that at dinner parties

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One month na lang pasukan na namin! Yeaaaah! Kaya lang di na ako masyadong excited. Hahaha naiisip ko kasi yung mga nangyari sa batchmates ko. Yung isa kong kaibigan, masyadong inookray nung blockmate niya. Hindi niya alam na nasasaktan na yung kaibigan ko kasi di siya sanay na ginaganon sa school namin noon. Lalaki pa mandin yung nang ookray tapos babae yung kaibigan ko. Hays. Yung isa ko namang batchmate nasabihan ng plastic. Pero sa totoo lang, yung batchmate ko na yun ay isa sa nga pinakatotoong taong nakilala ko. Buhay nga naman. Sana di ko maexperience yang mga ganyan sa college life ko at baka makasapak ako. HAHAHA joke lang.

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Pinanood ko yung TomasinoWeb Valentine's Day Special last 2014, tapos ayon kinilig lang ako ng bonggang bongga. Hahahaha shems simple lang naman yung video pero kinilig talaga ako. Sagad. Ang cute kasi ni ate at ni kuya. Hahaha k bye.

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It’s ironic how our hearts can still get hurt by something we’ve seen coming.

krccL  (via wordsnquotes)

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Why do people think being with someone is the answer to everything?

Elizabeth Scott, Love You Hate You Miss You (via wordsnquotes)

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How to be productive?

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Just because I don’t talk about it, doesn’t mean I forget.

Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility (via wordsnquotes)

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Midnight letter

Dear P, Okay lang na iwan mo na ako. Okay lang kung ayaw mo na sa akin. Hindi ako magagalit. Hindi na rin ako masasaktan. Oo, hindi na ako masasaktan. Wala na kasi akong nararamdaman. Manhid na nga yata ako. Kaya naman wag mo nang alalahanin kung dadamdamin ko ba ang pag-iwan mo sa akin. Alam mo P, masyado na kasi tayong nagkasakitan noon. Kaya sana palayain mo na ako. Sana iwan mo na ako. Sanay na sanay naman na ako sa ganoong sitwasyon. Yung palagi na lang iniiwan. Ako na yung nakikiusap sa iyo na sana tuluyan ka nang lumisan sa buhay ko. Na sana pabayaan mo na ako. "I'm better off without you" ika nga. At kung iiwan mo na nga ako, sana wala kang ititirang bakas ng kahapon. Dahil di rin naman makabubuti para sating dalawa kung may matitirang alaala. Isipin mo na lang na hindi ako nag exist sa buhay mo at ganoon din ang gagawin ko. Narito ang aking huling nga salita para sa iyo: "Tangina mo pimples. Masyado mo na akong sinasaktan sa pagtubo mo sa mukha at likod ko. At balak niyo pang magtayo ng bansa ha. Hahaha. Iwan mo na ako please, minahal naman kita e." Hanggang dito na lamang. Paalam, P. Sincerely Yours, Jae

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Bloggers

May finafollow akong blogger na kakilala ko talaga sa personal. Yung bata palang ako kilala ko na siya. Hahaha. Mas matanda siya sakin pero di ko matandaan kung tinatawag ko ba siyang ate noon. Same school din pinapasukan namin noong elementary kami. Tapos pumupunta pa kami noon sa kapitbahay nila na pinsan niya yata. Pero ni isang beses di ko siya kinausap. Kahit anon, ayoko rin. Saka baka hindi na rin naman niya ako natatandaan. Pero masaya naman ako na nakikita ko siya sa dash. Hahahaha unexpected lang na may makikita akong blogger na kilala ko na before pa siya mag start dito sa tumblr.

May isa pa uli akong kilalang blogger. Pero hindi sa personal. Hahaha. Nakilala ko lang siya dahil sa group namin noon. Secret na kung tungkol saan. Di kami close pero finafollow namin isa’t isa sa instagram. Hahaha. Matagal ko na siyang di nakakausap. Ewan ko rin kung natatandaan niya pa ako. Pero itong isang to, di ko finafollow. Ini-stalk ko lang. Hahaha wala lang. Di ko rin ineexpect na may mga ganoon din pala siyang problema. Mukha kasing masaya yung buhay niya. Rich kid pa. Hahaha. Tapos ayon ingat na ingat ako na wag siyang mafollow or malike yung post niya. Ayoko lang na malaman niya na may ganito rin ako kasi wala lang.HAHAHAHA

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I won't cheat on you.

Ulul wag ako, iba na lang

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I understand that nobody understands me, but I can’t be someone I’m not.

Audrey Tautou  (via wordsnquotes)