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this user is/was ruined from years of emotional abuse

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One day I looked up

One day I looked up                                        and there she was      d   n  i   g       a  c  n                                to the tune that                                   hummed                                 in my soul      and I knew she had always been mine    by  theAuthor  Dr John A. King

http://www.drjohnaking.com/poetry-and-art/one-day-looked/

Poetry by Dr John A. King

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what if I told you…..that you don’t have to hate yourself for being mentally ill

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A well-documented feature of trauma, one familiar to many, is our inability to articulate what happens to us. Not only do we lose our words, but something happens with our memory as well… we no longer recognize memories as belonging to the traumatic event. Fragments of memory can become activated later by anything remotely reminiscent of the original experience.

Mark Wolynn, It Didn’t Start With You

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Misty Moore Reviews #dealwithit

Misty Moore reviews  #dealwithit  . I was greatly encouraged by how practical Misty found the book, that was my aim.  I didnt want this to be a book by another Dr Firstname Only that promised you unicorn, butterflies and a quick fix.  I want this to confirmed to you that yes your life suck…but it will get better, here is how I did it and if I can make it, so can you.  You can connect with Misty on instagram @mistymae21  Get the book  #dealwithit  – living well with PTSD  www.drjohnaking.com   #drjohnaking ,  #dealwithit

  #drjohnaking #stress2strength  #dealwithit 

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Experience of living in abuse is one of the constant feeling of being left out. You’re left out of your own family, you don’t feel like you’re one of them, or like everything that’s theirs is yours, or like they want you around. You feel like you’re the extra, the burden, someone who is only a complication to their life. Like everything would be better if only you weren’t around. Abusive parents will often reinforce this feeling and try to convince you that everyone else sees you as burden as well. Friend’s parents giving you a ride? How could you inconvenience them like that. Being invited to a party? How are you going to make up to them for feeding you. Going to hang out at friend’s house? They’re probably tired of you and don’t want you around. It keeps happening until you feel like you’re a burden everywhere you go.

And then you’re always thinking of how to be useful enough, how to do enough to not be considered a hindrance, how to be good enough for something, how to deserve to exist, and to be a part of something. Even your appearance, your tone of voice, your clothing, your manners, everything seems to be exposed to criticism, and not good enough. In your group of friends, you keep analyzing if you do enough to make up for the face they’re keeping you company, you try to not have any needs or desires that would take up their time and energy. You’re always focused on how you might be dragging someone down or slowing them down, or being in their way of something. Making up reasons why you’re not good enough, or why people would probably be happier if only you weren’t in their life.

And there’s always something, maybe you said something that wasn’t the best possible thing to say in that situation, maybe you couldn’t do your best at someting because you felt too depressed or anxious or struggled with executive dysfunction, maybe you didn’t give enough attention when someone asked it of you, maybe you were focused on your own problems for a bit and called selfish for it. It felt dreadful. Like every single rejection, abandonment, betrayal and hurt you experienced could be blamed on you, and you deserved that.

It’s not really the truth. We’re all humans, and we sometimes do things that inconvenience others. It doesn’t mean we’re burdens, or that we don’t deserve friends and company and love and all good things that come from socializing with others. People who would have us believe that every single thing we do wrong means it’s better if we didn’t exist, are people who don’t mind hurting us horribly, in order for us to be more useful to them. Abusers who make us incredibly self-conscious about how much we give to others, are those who want us spending our every minute of the day trying to be more useful to them - trying to make us live our lives for them, and not ourselves. It doesn’t really matter if you sometimes inconvenience others. People are like that. And people are also warm and clumsy and sometimes funny looking and they’re impossible to live without. You are one of those too.

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Fake It Till You Make It

Fake It Till You Make It . Sometimes you just have to get off you butt and drag yourself back on the field of life and play hurt. . You have to fake it till you can make it . Get the book #dealwithit – living well with PTSD www.drjohnaking.com . #drjohnaking, #dealwithit

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Held

the sun peeks through the window  as the world wakes

http://www.drjohnaking.com/ptsd-recovery/held/

By Dr John A. King

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