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A little chat, a bunch of butterfly on my stomach...

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Di aku-kamu in padahal udah ber lo-gue sama dia, is another level of butterfly in my stomach

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I regret my marriage

Being lonely is always better than being with the wrong person.

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Fuck you...

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I'm leaving you

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I am nobody's priority

I am replaceable

I am the last choice when nobody else gives them the time of the day

I am a rag doll that everyone plays with and immediately gets tossed around

I am never good enough for anyone

I am an empty void that gets filled until someone better comes along

I am an addon

I am forgettable

I am just a placeholder and that's how it always is going to be

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...and I dont want the world to see me

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You're not worth any inch of me, babi busuk!!

Apply for that job. Date that person. Buy that plane ticket. Move to that city. Do all the things that scare you, because they’re worth it.

Unknown

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....and you dont deserved me, soon, you son of a bitch!!!

my intentions are always pure so yes i do deserve the best

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Dasar babi, kau

“I hope you fall in love with someone who never lets you fall asleep thinking you’re unwanted.”

— Unknown

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022

Karena tak dapat kuungkapkan kata yang paling cinta

Kupasrahkan saja di dalam dia

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Bercerai

Apa hal yang ingin sekali kamu jalani, tapi kamu juga takut menjalaninya?

Kurniawan Gunadi - Tumbuh Dewasa dengan Segenap Tanya

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Hi eL...

Last night I dreamed of you. Usually even in a dreams, I'm afraid to approach you, or even call your name. Last night, maybe because of the unstoppable feeling of longing, I followed you when you finished shaking hands with....who knows who. Far away I followed from behind. Usually you never look back. Last night, you turned around, stopped, and waited for me to get to you. Unfortunately, when I arrived in front of you, I could only remain silent.

Then the dream story balloon changes to another scene.

In that other scene, we're already chatting. Wow, after all this time, I finally feel like when we were on the 5th floor of your faculty.

Long ago, we believed in one thing. When we are separated, and when one of us is present in a dream, we definitely not fine. Whether you or me have a problem, harbor a longing, sick, or just want to say hello. I still believe in our way of communicating, El. I hope you're fine.

Thank you for coming to my dream last night. You, are still the best one who ever happenes in my 6th floor period.

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I used to ask Allah to give me a husband who didn't act like the men in my family. God didn't give me that man, but He gave me a son...

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My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.

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i'm not fucking 'casual' i want to kill myself with you

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You create a monster. Me.