jannaryca

[jannaryca]

“The Beginning of Janna’s Journey”

Hi, My name is Janna Ryca Dicdican. 17 years old, a senior high school student from ABM strand and this is the story of my life. When i was a kid, i can say that that was one of the best moments of my life. My life back then was just filled with joy and laughter, i used to think that my family was perfect. I used to be very close with my dad and he always take me to his work, he used to be a family/company driver. My mother had to do all kind of jobs to raise me and my 6 siblings. Being a kid, I have seen my parents hardships and suffering just to be able to give us a good life not a perfect life because we went through a lot of problems. Growing up i have realized that life wasn’t perfect, it is sometimes cruel and unfair. I have seen my parents argue and fought just because of money, i have realized that my parents have been struggling to provide us our needs and to send us to school. It always happens again and again and I think i just got used to it. Our house is always so loud even if it’s just early in the morning, you can hear my siblings arguing and fighting, It’s a normal day for my family. When i was in kindergarten my mom used to take me to school everyday, she brings me snacks and pick me up until she got pregnant and from then, it was my older brother that i was with to school and i have learned how to wash my uniform without my mother since she’s busy with her work and with our youngest sibling. When i was in 5th grade,me and my older brother was in charge of taking my two younger siblings to school and taking care of them making sure they’re safe because my mother wasn’t around. Me and my older brother took the place of my mother and father but before, my father used to send me to school with his bike since the school was just near our house. I never cried at school when i was in kindergarten and I always just stare at these kids while they’re crying because their parents had to go. I have realized that i was never a type of kid that cries easily and It was hard for me to show my emotions. Even though i seemed strong and brave on the outside, i was just a kid. My brother was the only one I could rely on. when i feel like everything is too much for me, i cry in front of my brother because it’s the only time where i feel like it’s okay to be vulnerable because whatever happens he’s going to protect me because im his sister even though sometimes he gets mad because he hates seeing my cry. I knew he was strong but deep inside he was just a kid just like me who needs someone to rely on.

Time flies so fast and now i am finally in high school, i still remember the feeling of excitement to go to school. Everything was new to me, i have met a lot of new people and reunited with old friends. The first day was hard since I wasn’t familiar with the place and i had to make a lot of adjustments because elementary days is very different to High school life. Me and my best friend kat was always together ever since we were little, she was always so bright that helped me through my dark moments in life. We were always together doing crazy stuffs and doing everything together. When we went to high school together I immediately saw this guy who caught my eye. I think he was my first love in high school that up until this day i still admire him. I saw him when me and kay were going to the canteen to buy food, he was in a class and he caught my eye, there’s something about him that just caught my attention. I asked kat if he knew this guy and it turned out that he’s name is jc and he was a close friend of kat’s older brother. From that moment, my boring high school life just became really exciting for me. Everyday I would always look for him secretly and it is so annoying because this guy rarely gets out of their classroom. He’s always either at the library or in the fourth floor doing chess. He was my type, tall, handsome, smart and rarely talks at all. I even joined the Girl Scout when I found out he was a commander of Boy Scouts in our school. Im always excited when we do formation after school because it’s the only time where i get to see him finally. I have done a lot of stupid things because of him but I don’t know if he ever noticed me and we never even talked or had a conversation, i added him on Facebook and he accepted my friend request so i took my shot and messaged him but he never replied. Then I found out that he’s already in a relationship and i saw them and they looked great together, they’re the perfect match and I realized he was out of my league. I was still young back then but I knew i had to stop liking him since he’s already had a girlfriend but I still admired him and supported him silently. Finally i have graduated from high school and I never saw him again after that. High school was really fun for me.

I am now a senior high school student, a lot have changed in my life. I have also learned a lot from my mistakes in the past. Senior high school life is about to end, I am so proud of myself for making it this far. For surviving and moving forward even if it feels heavy sometimes. It was never easy but i know this is just the start of my journey to becoming the best version of myself and achieving my goals and dreams. I always think that life isn’t perfect because nothing is perfect even me because life isn’t about finding yourself but rather creating yourself. You sculpt the person you want to be everyday. Once again this is me Janna and this is just the beginning of my journey.

[jannaryca]

“The Beginning of Janna’s Journey “

Time flies so fast and now i am finally in high school, i still remember the feeling of excitement to go to school. Everything was new to me, i have met a lot of new people and reunited with old friends. The first day was hard since I wasn’t familiar with the place and i had to make a lot of adjustments because elementary days is very different to High school life. Me and my best friend kat was always together ever since we were little, she was always so bright that helped me through my dark moments in life. We were always together doing crazy stuffs and doing everything together. When we went to high school together I immediately saw this guy who caught my eye. I think he was my first love in high school that up until this day i still admire him. I saw him when me and kay were going to the canteen to buy food, he was in a class and he caught my eye, there’s something about him that just caught my attention. I asked kat if he knew this guy and it turned out that he’s name is jc and he was a close friend of kat’s older brother. From that moment, my boring high school life just became really exciting for me. Everyday I would always look for him secretly and it is so annoying because this guy rarely gets out of their classroom. He’s always either at the library or in the fourth floor doing chess. He was my type, tall, handsome, smart and rarely talks at all. I even joined the Girl Scout when I found out he was a commander of Boy Scouts in our school. Im always excited when we do formation after school because it’s the only time where i get to see him finally. I have done a lot of stupid things because of him but I don’t know if he ever noticed me and we never even talked or had a conversation, i added him on Facebook and he accepted my friend request so i took my shot and messaged him but he never replied. Then I found out that he’s already in a relationship and i saw them and they looked great together, they’re the perfect match and I realized he was out of my league. I was still young back then but I knew i had to stop liking him since he’s already had a girlfriend but I still admired him and supported him silently. Finally i have graduated from high school and I never saw him again after that. High school was really fun for me.

I am now a senior high school student, a lot have changed in my life. I have also learned a lot from my mistakes in the past. Senior high school life is about to end, I am so proud of myself for making it this far. For surviving and moving forward even if it feels heavy sometimes. It was never easy but i know this is just the start of my journey to becoming the best version of myself and achieving my goals and dreams. I always think that life isn’t perfect because nothing is perfect even me because life isn’t about finding yourself but rather creating yourself. You sculpt the person you want to be everyday. Once again this is me Janna and this is just the beginning of my journey.