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possession horror where the thing possessing the autistic character causes them to behave in a more neurotypical way. autistic possession horror where the thing inside you is easier to communicate with than you are, the thing inside you doesn’t have a flat affect, the thing inside you doesn’t let your body stim, the thing inside you is how you were told to behave and you can only do it when you are no longer you. autistic possession horror where you will never forget that everyone liked it better than you before they found out something was controlling you. autistic possession horror where they know what’s inside you isn’t you and debate whether it would be easier for everyone to leave you like this anyway. you agree. reblog.

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When your tarot cards are overtly negative but you still feel optimism.

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Just feel like it's now or never at this point.. And I just beg it doesn't take a long time to tell if it's never. Just say that now if that's the case. Don't have me waiting for a denial

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I feel like Divine Timing has been stringing me along for 11 years

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Like when I think about how long I've already been waiting, and then realize the messages are all still the same like "In a few weeks... in a few weeks... next year..." like OMG I'm ready to be in the throes of it NOW.

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Everything is taking so long...

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I look forward to being human again.

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This is how you get Friends with Benefits and situationships, and it's why a lot of people are struggling with intimacy and commitment now. Platonic romance and relationship romance are inherently different, and that's okay. We need these distinctions to fully identify what we want.

romance is a type of friendship and im sick of people pretending like they're two seperate categories. your romantic partner is Supposed to also be your friend like at the very least why are we pitting romance AGAINST friendship when they r intertwined???? romantic partners are also friends and u can have romance with ur friends stop acting like these bitches are seperate forces

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... Maybe I'll just *make* them fire me

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... You really can't get unemployment if you quit?

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when you accept that you will never be normal about anything you like you'll be free

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Can we please normalize reassurance? Because most of the time I really don’t know if everything’s okay.

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All I ever want in life is my loved ones -- family and friends. The rest of the world is just unnecessary

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Maybe it's my 12th House Moon, maybe it's my mental health, maybe it's just my nature, but something about being around people sends me into a tailspin. It's like asking a fish to breathe air

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Depression turns gratitude into a cruel joke.

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That's the dying optimist in me though. Because the harder these days get, the more I don't believe that and would just rather quit altogether.

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On a good day (which is rare) I think that maybe I'm just supposed to sit and wait for something to shift in my favor. Like maybe this isn't a time for me to "do" something, but maybe to wait for something to find me instead. It'd explain why I can't move, or quit, or pivot in any way. I'm literally in one place (physically, mentally, and spiritually) for an extended amount of time so something good can catch up.