jdyriot

[jdyriot]

I was trying to remember my life as a teenager and all I can remember is a creative trying to navigate the world with art as her guiding light.

As a little kid, I didn't remember much, but from what my older cousins had told me, when I am left with a pen, everything was a canvass for me. Even if it meant drawing on my own skin.

There was even a time that I proudly drew Bugs Bunny on MS Paint when I was at my mom's office.

As a little girl, I was focused in competing academically in school. I was always the 2nd but never the first. It never bothered me and I knew I just had to do my best.

Kinder-Prep (4-6), Grade 1-6 (6-12 yo)

As a teenager, this is the phase where family issues were coming in and so at random times I cry in school without telling my friends what it was really about. They know me as a happy-go-lucky girl but in reality, they didn't know how much I was struggling internally. In class, I still excel especially in Math.

I did became a gamer. I was spending time & money on playing Ragnarok and even attended events with my "guildmates"

HS (12-16 yo), College (16-20 yo)

Deciding on what I really wanted as I grew older, I remember getting frustrated not being accepted in the top universities I applied in but I was grateful having a chance in UST as a waitlister for Communication Arts course, my 2nd choice even if my ultimate goal was to enroll for any Math-related course which I knew I was very good at. I was in my 2nd year in college when I finally let go of chasing this goal.

My dad bought a secondhand film camera from his friend. I learned how to use it and instantly fell in love with Photography, learned videography, then became good at editing. I have always been artistically inclined and loved navigating the world visually. I had became fond of sharing my overly edited photos online, sharing my thoughts through a blog, and becoming part of groups to make documentaries.

In our batch I was one of 3 who knew how to edit videos.

TV5 (20-26), AM (27-29), Freelance Editor & Producer (29 onwards)

At first, I thought I'm gonna be a cinematographer then came opportunities for TV Production I became a Tech PA, then Post PA. I was pretty happy with all the TV Shows I became part of.

In general I was really grateful for how I have grown in this industry.

[jdyriot]

Paano?

Hindi ako magaling magkuwento. Sa pasulat man o sa pasalitang paraan. Magulo, hindi malinaw, hindi maintindihan. Kaya sabi ko, posible kayang maging direktor ako? Ang maging isang magaling na direktor kaya? Buong buhay ko, Ang hindi kasiguraduhan ang bumubuo sa aking takot. Ganito ata talaga kapag Capricorn. Bago sumubok ng bago, kailangang sigurado. May patutunguhan. Pero bakit noong una akong umibig, Hindi sigurado, walang sabi-sabi, lakas-loob akong nagmahal. Walang instructions, wala ring structure, Nakapagsulat ang puso ng isang magandang kuwento, Hinding-hindi ko malilimutan. Walang bakit, walang paano, malinaw ang naramdaman. At higit sa lahat, kami ay nagkaintindihan. Paano matuturuan ng puso ang isip? Na magtiwala sa sarili kahit walang planong napagkasunduan, Na magtiwala sa sarili kahit walang naniniwala sa kakayanan, Na magpatuloy mangarap kahit na wala nang patutunguhan… Paano? Marahil... Pag-ibig din ang daan.

[jdyriot]

Realife-ization

Wala talagang perfect sa mundo noh? May masasabi't masasabi tayo. Something negative, something we feel that isn't right at all. Ito kasi talaga ata ang nagpapaikot sa mundo natin. At the end of everyday, we have to learn to embrace it hanggang sa masanay tayo na kung may positive, may negative. Sa hindi karamihang production na kinabilangan ko, mapa-TV, event or film, local man or international, patuloy na umiikot ang mundo ko sa iba't ibang klase ng sistema ng pagpapatakbo nito. May mabilisan, may dumadaan sa trial and error, may straight to the point, may pabago-bago, may strict, may successful, may hindi-ganun-kasuccessful, may trying hard, may masaya, may stressful, may fruitful. Iba-iba. Pero, problema ba ito? Hindi naman. Para sa akin, ito 'yung default setting ng buhay sa mundo na pinili ko. Dadaan ka sa iba't ibang klase ng tao, iba't ibang uri ng atake sa pagpoproduce hanggang sa iba't ibang kultura at paniniwala. Kailangan lang ng tamang mindsetting before working for every project. Tapos sa huli, makapulot ng bagong mga aral na dadalhin sa mga susunod pa. Adiooooos!

[jdyriot]

Si daddy, si Inang… Sa lahat ng bagay na ginagawa ko, sa lahat ng desisyon na hinaharap ko, alam kong parte sila ng blessings na natatanggap ko everyday. Sa trabaho, sa araw-araw na pag-uwi ko na never akong napahamak sa pagsakay ng taxi o pagcocommute, at sa mga dumarating na opportunity… Ramdam ko na palagi silang gumagabay. I feel blessed everytime nagagawa ko ang mga bagay na pinangarap ko nang masaya at may fulfillment sa puso - ang magkaroon ng kotse, magtrabaho para sa telebisyon, at makapagbakasyon sa ibang bansa... Iniisip ko, nasaan na nga ba sila ngayon? Ngayon, na ramdam ko pa rin ang kanilang presensya sa bawat masasayang pagkakataon sa buhay ko. Ang lahat ng pangarap nila para sa amin, nananatiling buhay, at yumayabong sa paglipas ng panahon...

[jdyriot]

Forgot to set my alarm last night but managed to wake up extra early today. Extra early that I was tempted to go back to sleep. Unfortunately, I woke up later than expected. Too late for my 7:00 to 8:00 AM driving session. Sad, but I will try to recover my lost one hour from my next two sessions by arriving 30 minutes earlier than the set schedule.

Reviewing my assessment sheet from my first session, it says that I have to practice more the foot works: clutch, brake and gas. I was having a hard time maintaining the balance between clutch & gas - the timing when you had to release the clutch after applying enough gas. Besides the fact that you also have to consider the environment you're at, (especially here in Manila) everything gets confusing when you're a beginner.

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Driving 101

Earlier, I attended Smart's pre-driving orientation in Shaw. I learned the basics of manual driving. Focused on the basics and step by step learning process that we will have to apply later on in the course, but as the presenter discussed further, from manual to automatic, I got confused with the technics & how-to's of driving. Later at 5PM, I was scheduled for my first hour practice session at Smart, Marcos Highway. I hope to clearly master the basics of driving within the course in as much as I am excited to get my car next week!

[jdyriot]

In an old puzzle of countless dreams, I tried to recollect all the scattered phrases I've left on the floor. Piece by piece, I placed them in my heart's time machine with high hopes of completing one of the dreams.