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Leave.

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Bin eure Lügen satt. Redet von beste Freunde für immer. Familie. Aber agiert komplett widersprüchlich in schlechten Zeiten. Lasst mich fallen. Wendet euch von mir ab. Geht. Geht bitte. Ich halte euch nicht auf. Aber kommt auch bitte nicht mehr zurück. Ihr wisst nicht wie weh das tut und was für einen Schaden ihr in mir anrichtet und hinterlasst - und das gleichzeitig noch von mehreren Seiten und engen Freunden zu spüren zu bekommen. Habt ihr euch alle untereinander abgesprochen? Ihr wisst nicht, wie es ist, nicht den Alltag zu leben, sondern tagtäglich zu ÜBERLEBEN. Ich bin müde. Schon sehr lange. Leider zu lange. Und dennoch bin ich immer noch hier. Also geht. Ihr haltet mich psychisch nur noch mehr auf. Geht bitte. Geht mit Gott aber geht!

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I'm still healing, and when I said I'm still healing I didn't mean healing from painful break ups. I am healing from mistakes I did in the past, from my family issues,friendship issues, from failing myself, from disappointments I received, from expectations I couldn't reach, from traumas I know I don't deserve. When I told you that I'm still healing, this is what I mean. It's not all about love. My soul is still learning to clap för the pieces of myself that nobody wants to clap for. I'm still on the process of figuring things out on my own. I'm still healing silently.

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“Be nice People, cause nobody likes an asshole.”

— Darren Criss

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Can’t wait to meet her (my future self)

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a moment of silence for all us disabled ones who had to watch each of their friends move on with their lives without you and get jobs, go to school, have partners come and go, get engaged and move house etc.

shout out to my fellow struggling people who are still sitting in the same bedroom they grew up in. the ones who can't get a job, can't make new friends, can't find a partner or partners, can't move house and can't go to school.

I hope one day we can all find someone to at least sit with us in our rooms. I see you and I understand... and I'm sorry we can't be that person for each other

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i havent felt this bad in a while

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Look at you, Wiping your own tears With the same hands That long to be held

Ayesha Zahra

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J.R.R. Tolkien, from The Return of the King

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09-22-2024

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“Please stop destroying what is left of your heart by constantly thinking about things that have broken you.”

— Nikita Gill

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“One day, whether you are 14, 28 or 65, you will stumble upon someone who will start a fire in you that cannot die. However, the saddest, most awful truth you will ever come to find - is they are not always with whom we spend our lives.”

— Beau Taplin, Hunting Season

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“It really kind of sucked to be close to someone for so long and then suddenly not be anything anymore.”

— Cecily von Ziegesar, Reckless

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i will never leave this house