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[jeanbie]

I just wanted to let you know that I had to ask the people of tumblr to help me find Lessons in Love coz I remember reading it when you uploaded it 4 years ago and it's always been in the back of my mind ever since. I love it so so so much, I hope you'll be able to continue the series one day. No pressure tho xxx <3

hi!! thank you so so so much!

it's wild that you spent so long looking for it!! i sometimes forget about lessons in love, until i discover other fics with the same format and remember it exists. i recently had someone on ao3 discover it, but they said they remembered it from my bts blog which must have been like.....6 ish years ago!!

funnily enough, like all my fics, i had stuff planned for that series; i have at least 3 more stories, i wanted to kinda write one for each character and my couple. now that i know there's at least 1 fan of it, i will definitely push it up my tbw!!!!

[jeanbie]

The Ghostface fanfiction has been in my head for months. M O N T H S. I’d like to read again and more about Connie in that fucking dress!! Anyway girl, I love your writing it's wonderful. I hope you look good, lots of kisses from Italy 💕

hey!! thank you so much!!

i have more in store for connie + his lady, just haven't sat and written any yet. they're gonna get their bed one day!

i also entertained the idea of taking their characters (personality wise) and spinning them into an actual big chaptered fic, but one where he's unbelievably whipped for her (not so far from the truth) and based on a manically long dream i had of him. there's more to come for the ghostface couple!! and im glad you loved it as much as i did <33

[jeanbie]

Hii love your work, I was curious on the ideas you had for norm finding out?

hey, thank you so much!

i've entertained lots of different ideas; him hearing from someone else, an accidental slip up, walking in during the act....lots of different variations but all just sounded corny. i'm leaning towards a slip up/in the act so that i can incorporate the smut element that makes fantasize what it is, but i'm just not too sure. almost everything else is done with fantasize 3 it's just the finding out part that i'm stuck on. i don't want to make fantasize longer than 3 main parts either, so it's just a big old "what will i do" scenario!

[jeanbie]

please take your time! You will find your spark again eventually, I totally get it lol. I am in the same boat with my love of art. I often go through spells of drawing all day everyday and getting very burnt out. My current burn out has lasted about a year. But I’m still finding my footing lol. I’m very glad to hear you are putting your mental health first. It kinda sucks how long it takes to wait for the burnout to fizzle away. if it takes 50 years, I will happily wait 50 years to be fed by your gorgeous work again!!

So please take your time there is no rush at all!💕💕💕

thank you so much! i definitely learned the hard way that i just need to take my time and see what evolves. i hate publishing things i rushed - i only want to share things i feel proud of :)

i can feel my spark igniting again to be honest, i think sometimes having a year off can do wonders for your creativity, and i've read a lot and felt inspired a lot so hopefully i can come back with something exciting for everyone!

and i hope you find your footing soon again too! slow and steady doesn't win the race always but you still get to where you need to be and that's all that matters <33

[jeanbie]

So I just stumbled upon your avatar work, and whole shit that was some of the best work I have read in a long time. You made such a masterful piece of art. Fantasize had me on the edge of my toes the entire time. I can tell you put in so much effort into you writing and it shows. I love it so much!!! I was having a hard day and after reading your work, made my day so much better. I just wanted you to know I adore how much love you and your work. I love the relationship between Jake and spellman!

aw, thank you so much!!! i definitely poured myself into fantasize last year (i found it really addictive to escape my horrible breakup and fantasise about these guys - also writing it as "fantasize" kills me but i gotta remain loyal to the song spelling)

im really so happy that fantasize made an impact on you, so much that you decided to reach out! i love when a piece of fiction connects with me on a low day - and i'm so thrilled that fantasize did that!!! i really appreciate the kindness <33

i love jake and spelly so badly, i always think about them but i just can't seem to get it right in the 3rd part. feeling like grrm writing the game of thrones books, i just can't seem to get it good enough!! but its coming (i just cant say when because i have no clue)

[jeanbie]

what happened where did you go? we miss you!

can't lie guys i just got clinical depression and had to recover by touching grass, losing my mind, playing lots of games and music and enduring some tough times. but i feel inspired lately - i've been reading again, i just want to find my creative spark again. i wanna write for aot again too because i just habitually find comfort in those guys (avatar too but honestly i'll never not put aot first), but i dont really have the pull to write at the moment. definitely in the reading stage. i will produce again soon (that makes me sound like im giving birth) i just wanna......idk. do it when i can!

but as always i love that you guys r so nice and supportive and encouraging even when i am so mean and neglectful. the fact that avatar 3 might genuinely release before i finish fantasize is disgusting but i gotta put me first I have quite literally been in mental health hell

[jeanbie]

Here, Levi looks like an illegitimate prince from a fallen kingdom.

[jeanbie]

jeannn it’s me the writer, came to say I miss you and your works!!! Currently rereading everything on ur page

aww thankyou! i'm working on something right now that i like a lot, it's more of a hobby piece, like nobody asked for it. i'm just trying to find my fun. i've really been sugarcoating just how unfortunate my life has been lately - i've been struggling a lot, emotionally, and haven't been wanting to sit at my computer to write. but i found my creative spark and am just going slow. if you guys are still here to welcome me, then that'll be lovely. for now, i'm just taking it slow and healing!

[jeanbie]

Jean I picked up that pen because life is too short to stop your dreams yk? We go from editing Jake to writing about him. Also your old posts showing up on my feed is a nice little sign that everything is gonna be okay, and I like that. 🫶

yes!!! i'm so happy you are pursuing another potential hobby <33 life really is too short but also...the time will pass anyway, so take your time with it :) back in the day i used to really rush writing and produce slop and i never felt proud of it in the end. write for you and only you, and naturally people will learn to love what YOU create and curate rather than what THEY consume.

and everything WILL be okay!!!

[jeanbie]

"gwoongi"

just a reminder to all that i am, in fact, "gwoongi", aka an old bts blog. you will find that a lot of my fics on here are just reuploads of old works but altered to suit aot rather than bts.

i've actually had more than one message asking why i've plagiarized gwoongi works, and so i'd just like to clarify, i am gwoongi.

"gwoongi" aka "gwen" was just an old blog & alias i have. i was then "magunes" and then updated to "jeanbie". you can just call me jeanbie or jean if you'd like (both are just jean kirstein related lol), but i've decided to just scrap fake names and go by the url instead. it works :)

thank you regardless for your consistent support for my old works - calling me out is behaviour i'd be so grateful to see on other blogs reuploading my stories without permission. but, any blog/url titled gwoongi, magunes or jeanbie is me :)

[jeanbie]

oh jean your amazing writing has influenced me to start editing Jake 🫶 we love u jean we shout

by law this means i must be sent the edits or tagged in them

[jeanbie]

pt 3 anon again hi hello take your time!!! Rome wasn't built in a day and I will learn patience you're doing your best 🙏🏻😭

hahah i know!! dont worry i dont feel any type of way except guilty 😭 i promise i will finish it so soon

[jeanbie]

gnawing at the bars of my enclosure for fantasize pt. 3 😭😭 your writing is amazing take your time but gd I need it lmao

i know i'm so terrible i'm sorry! it will be out before 2025 ends i swear, i just lowkey got stuck halfway through because i keep changing my mind on how Norm should find out. love you all so i will persevere but i know i'm actually so awful it's been forever

[jeanbie]

how are you able to write characters so close to how they're portrayed in their movies or shows? i really struggle

honestly, i have a delusion where i feel like i can just...know a character. understanding a fictional character is so hard because it's open to interpretation from everybody - the way that i read and perceive levi, for example, will 100% be different to how someone else does. but in my head, i feel like i know or at least understand how he behaves and can predict based on what i would do if i were him what he might do/say in fics.

for a modern levi, i just try and apply what we know from aot and put a modern lens on it - i think we over exaggerate his cleanliness sometimes (like sasha and her food, it's funny until it's silly for me), his grumpiness, i think levi can be clean and moody whilst also being compassionate and thoughtful and kind because he's already all of those things if you really analyse him. i think it takes being able to pick apart traits and apply them to humanity to make them real.

for my modern aot fics, i do just have headcanons on who they are and that will definitely differ from writer/reader/enjoyer to the next. they're not real, after all, so they could be anyone you want. it also helps when your audience are willing to roll with your interpretations :)

as for avatar, well, i just feel the same in that i have an idea of who they are and how they might behave, but really there's a little bit of me inside of everyone i write for. i try to think "if i were them, what would i do?" and that may not always resonate with everybody but it works and feels good for me :))

[jeanbie]

Jean I miss u ☹️ Still watering our flower (ive decided it would be a pretty pink one, thoughts?)

pretty pink is ok with me!

[jeanbie]

im screaming because i worked very hard to make that heart shape aaaaaand it turned out like that LOL

LMAO i didn't want to say anything in case it was just my end messing it up 😭

[jeanbie]

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it's gonna be perfect i swear