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shit i keep forgetting to post what my new blog is aaargh im an idiot

it’s @caurae

go follow me there

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the only attention im going to get is at my funeral

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HMMMM THIS IS ####INTERESTING

APPARENTLY GREY OR WHATEVER THE FUCK TERRAEFORM GOES BY NOW DOESN’T FUCKING CARE ABOUT ANY SEMBLANCE OF TRUTH

WHAT?????

I REMEMBER HIM SAYING THAT HE’S A FUCKING ANGEL

NOT THAT HE WOULD LIE AND TWIST MY WORDS AROUND

I WAS JELAOUS BECAUSE I HAD A FUCKING CRUSH

AND I WAS AFRAID OF “STEALING HER AWAY” FROM THE PERSON SHE WAS DATING AT THE TIME

DONT PLAY COY, YOU INSENSITIVE, DISGUSTING ASSHOLE AND DONT YOU DARE BRING MY GIRLFRIEND INTO ANYTHING EVER AGAIN

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I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.

All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.

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dunno if it even matters anymore bc there are so few strings holding on to me to keep me from not slitting my throat

I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.

All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.

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I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.

All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.

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I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.

All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.

[jeancrocker-blog]

I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.

All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.

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Not every dog can maneuver a peanut butter jar using just his head.

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im gonna go to sleep

i might be better in the morning

i should talk to someone about this tbh

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ive already gotten all the accomodations i can get i have to take my finals because i was in recovery the week of the finals

i cant miss any more school

i wonder if swallowing glass would be an effective and fast way to die

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i feel so isolated all the time

my parents are always pissed at me

my brother thinks that im retarded (his own words, mind you) and that i have no talent

my whole family knows im trans because my aunt couldnt keep a promise and everyone thinks im a freak

i have 2 irl friends and one of them barely talks to me

i need more than online friends because humans crave face-to-face interactions and i dont have that

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“Undertale is by far the best thing Toby Fox has ever made”

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if i tell my parents or my social worker, they wont believe me

if i call a hotline, theyll put me in the hospital. i cant go to the hospital because i have so much schoolwork i need to catch up on that i missed when i had my surgery in december

i wonder if swallowing glass would be an effective and fast way to die

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I hate that mental disorders have turned into a competition. you cant discuss eating habits without someone saying how they survived off green tea for 3 weeks and weighed 4 stone. you can’t discuss your depression because another person has already tried to commit suicide 8 times and theyre only 12. you cant discuss self harm because you punch your leg till it turns purple whilst they slice their arm to the bone. you cant talk about addiction because someone else will talk about facing their crack addiction for 18 years. every god damn time you even come close to wanting to reach out you know theres no point because in other people’s eyes you’re never sick enough. there’s always someone worse off. that’s the problem with attitudes to mental health. this ‘oh suck it up you’re not as bad as me/them’ HAS to stop. you have no idea how much a problem affects a person because, okay it might seem like nothing to you but to them their entire world is breaking down and they just have to wait till they either figure it out on their own, or become so sick that people can’t deny it any more. and by then its usually too late.

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its funny bc my mom and my social worker both say that my mom has depression and she knows what it feels like

uh huh honey keep telling yourself that, especially when you equate sexual dysphoria to gaining baby fat and not working it off because it involves hating a part of your body

ive been thinking of effective and painless ways to commit suicide because there are fewer and fewer ropes left tying me to not going through with it

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its fucked up that random people on tumblr are more willing to help me than my parents and social worker, who just tell me to get over it and forget about the person

ive been thinking of effective and painless ways to commit suicide because there are fewer and fewer ropes left tying me to not going through with it