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During the most poor and homeless period of my life, I had a lot of people get angry with me because I spent $25 on Bath and Body Works candles during a sale. They couldn’t comprehend why the hell I would do that when I had been fighting for months to try and get us on our feet, afford food, and have an apartment to live in.

Those candles were placed beside wherever I slept that night. In the morning, I would move them and set them wherever I’d have to hang out. At one point I carried one around in my purse - one of those big honking 3-wick candles. I never lit them, but I’d open them and smell them a lot.

I credit that purchase with a lot of my drive that got me to where I am today. I had been working tirelessly, 15+ hour days with barely any reward, constantly on the phone or trying to deal with organizations and associations to “get help at”. It’d gone on for almost a year by the end of it, and I was so burnt out, to the point that I would shake 24/7. But I could get a bit of relief from my 3-wick “upper middle class lifestyle” candles. They represented my future goals, my home I wanted to decorate, and how I would one day not be in this mess anymore.

When we moved into the apartment, and our financial status improved, I burned those candles every single day. When they were empty, I cleaned them out, stuck labels on them, and they became the starting point of my really cute organization system I had ALWAYS planned to have.

So whenever I hear about someone very poor getting themselves a treat - maybe it’s Starbucks, maybe it’s a home deco item, maybe it’s a video game… I don’t judge them. I get it. I get that you can’t go without anything for that long without it making you go crazy. You need to pull some joy, inspiration, and motivation from somewhere.

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stop playing it cool, just be passionate and intense and insane and whoever sticks around is meant for you

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Unmute !

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Makig a sandwich to bring to school tomorrow can someone reblog with a filling to finish the ssndwich ill go first ok

Bread

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here’s a compilation of different people driving box trucks into a low bridge over and over

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req'd by @quotesandmiracles

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text: Axolotls killed: 1263

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i follow somebody on tiktok who is on a ventilator, has a G tube, J tube, ostomy, port, and stays alive via those and 24/7 infusions. she is at an ICU level of care, at home.

and medical professionals STILL routinely dismiss her symptoms as anxiety.

she said she felt like someone was sitting on her chest and she couldn't breathe - despite the ventilator. they said it was anxiety, until they found all the infected blood clots in her lungs.

i am telling you this because i was both horrified and validated to learn that there is literally absolutely no degree of sick you can be that can prevent doctors from dismissing it as anxiety.

i know how hard it can be to believe in your own experiences and to advocate for yourself, especially if you're not used to how often doctors are dangerously incorrect, or if you have experienced their gaslighting.

but if you feel that something is wrong with your body, you are the one who knows best.

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