jedocide

[jedocide]

I am so broken, my wounds are open

For the world to see

That I am unclean

I'm dirty

I'm unworthy

Turning, fire's burning

I hate that you hurt me

I'll take what you've done

I hate that you're happy

I thought you were the one

I hate that I still want you

And miss your smile

I hate everything about you

I hate myself for hanging on

My eyes are distorted

From the lies that you've spoken

I scream

But I feel nothing

It's unreal

Dirty, I'm unworthy

Turning, fire's burning

I hate that you hurt me

I'll take what you've done

I hate that you're happy

I thought you were the one

I hate that I still want you

And miss your smile

I hate everything about you

I hate myself for hanging on

Breathing's not a part of healing

It doesn't mean I'm alive inside

Just because my heart's still beating

It doesn't mean I don't wanna die slow

I hate that you hurt me

I'll take what you've done

I hate that you're happy

I thought you were the one

I hate that I still want you

And miss your smile

I hate everything about you

I hate myself for hanging on

I hate that you hurt me

I'll take what you've done

But I hate everything about you

I hate myself for hanging on

Hate myself for hanging on

[jedocide]

Melinda was mine

'Til the time that I found her

Holding Jim, loving him

Then Sue came along, loved me strong

That's what I thought

Me and Sue, but that died too

Don't know that I will

But until I can find me

The girl who'll stay

And won't play games behind me

I'll be what I am

A solitary man, solitary man

I've had it to here

Bein' where love's a small word

Part-time thing, paper ring

I know it's been done

Havin' one girl who'll love me

Right or wrong, weak or strong

Don't know that I will

But until I can find me

The girl who'll stay

And won't play games behind me

I'll be what I am

A solitary man, solitary man

Don't know that I will

But until I can find me

The girl who'll stay

And won't play games behind me

I'll be what I am

A solitary man

Solitary man

Solitary man

[jedocide]

Dead as dead can be

My doctor tells me

But I just can't believe him

Ever the optimistic one

I'm sure of your ability to become

My perfect enemy

Wake up

And face me

Don't play dead

'Cause maybe

Someday I will walk away and say

You disappoint me

Maybe you're better off this way

Leaning over you here

Cold and catatonic

I catch a brief reflection

What you could and might have been

It's your right and your ability

To become my perfect enemy

Wake up (why can't you)

And face me (come on now)

Don't play dead (don't play dead)

'Cause maybe (because maybe)

Someday I'll (someday I'll) walk away and say

You disappoint me

Maybe you're better off this way

Maybe you're better off this way

Maybe you're better off this way

Maybe you're better off this way

You're better off this

You're better off this

Maybe you're better off

Wake up (why can't you)

And face me (come on now)

Don't play dead (don't play dead)

'Cause maybe (because maybe)

Someday I'll (someday I'll) walk away and say

You fucking disappoint me

Maybe you're better off this way

Go ahead and play dead

I know that you can hear this

Go ahead and play dead

Why can't you turn and face me?

Why can't you turn and face me?

Why can't you turn and face me?

Why can't you turn and face me?

You fucking disappoint me

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

Passive aggressive bullshit

[jedocide]

Priest are you there?

Can you hear my voice?

Do you hear my prayers?

Are you out there?

Forgive me priest

For I have sinned (I know not what I do)

Mother I am here, I can hear your song

I can feel your fear, he's done you wrong

Temptation fed, his own desires

In the ring of fire (in the ring of fire)

Tonight

I would've loved you for a thousand years

I would've died for you

I would've sacrificed it all my dear

I would've bled for you

'Til death do us part

You were unholy right from the start

It's a nice night for a black wedding

Yeah it's a nice night for a black wedding

I heard your cry and I just knew

I never meant to forsake you

Mother there's no reason to repent (You know not what you do)

I heard the bells and I just knew

An angel once, now a ghost of you

Deliver me from my own desires

From my ring of fire (the ring of fire)

Tonight

I would've loved you for a thousand years

I would've died for you

I would've sacrificed it all my dear

I would've bled for you

'Til death do us part

You were unholy right from the start

It's a nice night for a black wedding

Yeah, it's a nice night for a black wedding

Nice night for a black wedding

Nice night for a black wedding

Nice night for a black wedding

Nice night for a black wedding

Nice night for a black wedding

Come on!

I would've loved you for a thousand years

I would've died for you

I would've sacrificed it all my dear

I would've bled for you

'Til death do us part

You were unholy right from the start

It's a nice night for a black wedding

Yeah it's a nice night for a black wedding

Nice night for a black wedding

Nice night for a black wedding

Nice night for a black wedding

Nice night for a black wedding

In my name shall they cast out demons

They shall speak in new tongues

They shall take up serpents

And if they drink any deadly poison

It shall in no wise hurt them

They shall lay hands on the sick

And they shall recover

The serpent is only brought into the Holy Sanctum

And only handled

If the Holy Ghost

Of the Holy Spirit

Speak directly to the Disciple

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I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that's real

The needle tears a hole

The old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

But I remember everything

What have I become?

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns

Upon my liar's chair

Full of broken thoughts

I cannot repair

Beneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone else

I'm still right here

What have I become?

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

If I could start again

A million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way

[jedocide]

And In a flash, she was gone.

[jedocide]

Hoping there's someone who wants to chat. I've been falling apart and tonight seems to be reaching a head. I need a distraction. I don't usually talk to guys, just personal thing. It's easier to open up to the opposite sex. But yah, if there's anybody awake, I'd be grateful for the company. 😔