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Monday, 27 November 2017

This morning I was up looking for cheaper Lego Millennium Falcon sets on eBay. I stumbled across one from a US store that was selling it for what would be a total of $1.7k (including shipping). I jumped at the purchase seeing as I have been eyeing out the sales for the past two weeks. Was hoping to keep it a secret for Aaron but the excitement got the better of me and I ended up telling him about the purchase. I was really excited. Not sure if Aaron appreciated the effort I went into constantly researching to find this set. He seemed happy and wanted to build it as soon as it arrived. I hope he acknowledges that I did all of that to make him happy. All the effort in the world would be worth it just to see him smile.

Anyways, looking forward to the 11th December when the set should arrive. 

Now that this project is going into closure, time to start researching on places to go away for the Christmas/NYE break - I’m going to be so poor haha

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Sunday, 26 November

Yesterday I had the most perfect date ever.

On Sunday, 19 November 2017 Aaron asked me to spend the day with him on Saturday. As I was still recovering from my surgery, I said I would see how I would go as by that stage I was still not able to eat solid foods. 

The week went on and by Thursday night I was pushing through the pain to eat solid foods. Pretty sure I had chicken that night and it was delicious haha

On the Friday, Aaron casually asked me to come out to watch Justice League with him. It was so unexpected because he didn’t normally try to make plans with me. Won’t lie, it was very nice to be invited to come out. I hadn’t seen any of the trailers for this movie but it was Justice League so I would watch it regardless. Side note, the CGI was not great. Not sure I would recommend seeing it in the cinemas to be honest.

As Saturday rolls over, I oddly struggled to wake up that morning. It was a nice warm day and I was pleasantly sleeping like a baby. Aaron and I had arranged for me to come over to his place at around lunchtime, sometime around 12 or 1. I had wanted to buy a Chi Chi Aphrodite palette at Target as there was a 30% off sale but seeing as I had woken up at 10 am to a message from Aaron saying “Come over whenever you are ready”, there clearly was no time to do so. When I eventually got up out of bed, I had a nice calming shower and dressed for the beach. I wore my brand new burnt orange Nookie beach swimsuit (my favourite swim suit/bikini purchase this year), my blue and white hi-lo dress, my floppy hat and red white and blue thongs. I let my parents know I was heading out with Aaron to Cronulla today and then was out the door.

I drove down the M7 to get to Aarons and when I got there his dad was on the couch watching the cricket whilst Aaron was drenched from training that morning. It was pretty hot haha As he got ready, I chatted to his dad about the cricket and mentioned that I would be going to my first cricket match in January. He mentioned that the crowd gets a little happy by the afternoon and to preempt inappropriate chanting haha

Once Aaron was ready we set off to drive to Cronulla. I got the driving tour of the different suburbs along the way. From Miranda through to Caringbah then onto Cronulla. We stopped by a fish and chips store where Aaron spent $77 on Barramundi, salt and pepper squid, oysters and garlic prawns. It was a very expensive order of seafood but was absolutely worth it as we enjoyed it on the grass in the sun near Wanda beach. There Aaron commented on my small thongs, referring them to car air fresheners - that was pretty funny haha it made me smile. But then again his smiles always made me smile. When he does, his eyes light up and makes cute little creases in the corner of his eyes. 

After we finished eating we lay under a tree and rested. It was so nice just lying there on that towel, resting my head against him and just listening to the ocean breeze and birds chirping around us. When I would open my eyes, I could see the sun rays try to break through the branches above and it was just beautiful. Every time I turned to a Aaron as he rested, all I could think about was how handsome he looked and how happy I was to just be there next to him. I remember noticing his american college cap, his crisp white t shirt and striped shorts - its always hard to not check out his butt, even more so in those shorts :P

After a while we decided to get up and go for a walk along the beach. I really enjoyed doing this with him. Just walking along the water, feeling the warm sand between my toes then feeling the cool fresh water rush through them. It was so nice walking alongside Aaron. He would point out funny people and we would judge them together. It was funny when we would do that. After we had walked up North for a while I wanted to sit and just enjoy sitting on the sand which we did. I remember the dogs we passed including the sausage dog who spotted us then began to run up barking - look at him trying to be a dog haha, the two South Asian men fishing on the beach and the man parasailing by the shore.

As we sat on the beach, Aaron commented on how white he was and that he had mostly dated white blonde girls in the past. Things are a bit different for him now given that I’m tan but I hope it doesn’t make him do anything he doesn’t like. I ended up doing that dumb thing again where I talk about my past and my exes. I really absolutely hate that I do that. Honestly, why can’t I just shut up and never mention those things? But once its starts, I struggle to stop. I mentioned how I’ve always just been attracted to white guys and that I had tried to date other people before. Truth is, I’ve just always been this way. I can’t explain it myself, but for as long as I can remember, I was always attracted to Caucasian males. I genuinely love Aaron’s skin. I hope he doesn’t think I’m a creeper because of it. But I think it looks so nice on him and I wouldn’t want him any other way. Aaron mentioned that he doesn’t seem to have a type. I guess that’s lucky for me. I won’t question it. Just count my blessings.

We then decided to walk down South. We passed numerous surf life saving tents and young children building castles in the sand. Next time we go to the beach, I want us to bring buckets and try to build an epic castle. It’ll be the most pimped out castle ever, just you wait!

Our walk took a slight detour through the promenade as we stopped by to get a refreshment. We went to Boost, mostly because I wanted a boost juice. I ordered a Watermelon crush and Aaron got a Wonderberry. They were delicious and just what we needed in the heat. As we continued along, Aaron pointed out a good burger joint and Fusions - a place he used to go to for drinks when he was younger. There were a few good brunch places. I think I’d like to go to 1908 one time. It looked just a little bit fancy and was covered in greenery. My type to place haha

After this we ended back up at the beach, this time at South Cronulla. We sat on the lawn watching the little nippers and some guys try acting cool with their fake american football and really bad sportskills. Once we had finished our brief people watching session, we walked up the track to where a few coastline apartments were. During our walk we didn’t talk much, but I felt like we didn’t need to. I just really enjoyed being out and enjoying the scenery and having Aaron’s company. We passed by a small wedding and joked about how there were still too many people there; there were honestly no more than 20 people haha We sat on a bench to rest again. Looking back out at the Cronulla coastline was stunning. I liked resting my head against Aaron’s shoulder. It made me feel connected to him without having to say a word. 

We soon decided to walk back and by we, it was just me. I was done walking and was happy to go back home. So we took the footpath route back where midday Aaron accidentally set off a group chat with his mates. It was so random but so classic Aaron - it was great. 

En route back to Aaron’s place I requested we stop by Miranda so I could squeeze in my sneaky makeup purchase. I could tell Aaron did not want to do it, but he did it anyway. It was so sweet of him. He is such a lovely guy and he didn’t try to make me feel bad about it at all.

Once I grabbed my palette we went back to his. We both had quick showers and lay in bed for a scheduled afternoon nap. Whilst the nap did not actually happen, we were both very quiet hehe yes I am proud of myself, and Aaron went for his third shower of the day.

We then went down to make ‘our omelette’. I like that we have a routine for making our omelette. Its actually a really good staple meal haha egg, bacon, mushroom, cheese and butter. yes, yes, yes. Once we finished cooking and eating, we spent the rest of the night on the couch watching the Arrival - which surprisingly was a good movie about linguists, time and relativity. We then watched Office Christmas Party, which comparatively was not at good but provided some good laughs. 

By this stage of the night my mind was being flooded about thoughts around what was actually happening with Aaron and myself. Were we dating now? Didn’t he say he wanted to do something official? Was I making it up? I just didn’t know. Did he change his mind? Where are we? I tried to leave a few times because I was having these thoughts, but being there with him outweighed that decision. By about 11:30 pm I really did need to go home as it was very late. We said our goodbyes and Aaron waited as I drove up his driveway. I like when he does that. It makes me think he is watching to make sure I leave safely, its nice.

However, as I turned the corner I had a flood of emotions rush through me and I started to cry profusely. I messaged Aaron and as I got down Fairford Road, I pulled over as I could no longer drive safely. I carelessly told Aaron that I was upset which was obviously so dumb of me to do. Classic Jen ruining good things as usual. But I just couldn’t leave. Part of me felt like I needed to talk to him. So I asked him to meet me at the top of his driveway. I drove back and we sat in my car as I cried and explained to him that I was still so confused about where things were with us. He told me that he had explained everything the week before - which is true. I just needed him to say it again. To reassure me that it was still true. He didn’t, but he sat there, was patient and held my hand the whole time. It was so touching to have him there. Just sitting. Just being there. Making me feel like it was okay to have this conflicting ideas and feelings. And that would still be there for me either way. I told him that the day he broke my heart, I had lost a little bit of the magic. I was scared that saying so would scare him away and question things again but surprisingly, he responded with, ‘then we just have to work on it then’. Hearing that made my heart happy. He might not say the things I want him to say when I want him to say it. But sometimes he surprises me with the rarest things which just makes me the happiest girl in the world. Him saying that made me feel like he would be there for me to see it through no matter what. For me that meant the world. That he was really in it. And that made me feel so much better in that moment. By the end of it, we were laughing and joking. He told me that this phase was called the “I getting a surprise ready for you” and that it would come when it was ready. I’m not sure what that means but I absolutely love surprises, i.e. surprises and not secrets. So I guess for now, that’s what I’m holding out for. We also joked about making a love song playlist which I don’t think he will do, but I will be truly impressed if he does.

Once I had calmed down, I went home and slept like a baby once again.

All in all, Saturday 25 November 2017 Aaron took me on the most perfect date ever. I’ve never know what my perfect date would be, but this definitely was it. Naps, beaches, boost juices, oysters, walks, shopping, “other naps”.. I don’t think I can think of anything that could have made the day better. I hope I never ever forget this day.