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I've been following the Dolly series and grauhoughraghouhg /pos. As a sci-fi enjoyer and techy person I'm so invested in the lore 🫡 looking forward to seeing how you pull it all together (no pressure, I did see that you're feeling a bit burnt out)
Uhh idea for pulling all the y/ns together - either refer to them by their jobs, or as each dolly's "owner" or buyer? Or a mix of the two
yessss fellow sci-fi and tech enthusiast🙂↕️
aw thank you, hearing that people still wanna read the finale makes me feel motivated🩷
yessss i thought about using their nicknames that the dollies have for them! thank you for your suggestion and ideas💜
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Hey i just saw your update and i want to say to take your time with all the series!! We will still be here to support whenever they come out 🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾
Also maybe for the whole 8 different y/n’s you could do like code names for them since it’s a whole operation if you think about it lol
aw tysm dear!! 🥹🩷
ohhh that's a very good idea, i could use the nicknames the dollies have for them (darling, love, etc)
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Based on the previous ask of Hyunjin loving being touched by Stay, i am plagued by the questions of what he would do if
A Stay kept their hands away from him and just smirked back to see his reaction
A Stay decided to randomly leave a gentle kiss to the back of his hand (i am not sure you are allowed to do that but still. What if...?)
i think the second stay would be stopped by a security guard👁️👄👁️
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HELLO EVERYONE!
sorry i kinda disappeared again dsjdldl
i've not been feeling the best mentally or physically and i am trying to get back to normal rn.
for everyone anticipating the dolly finale, i have to say i am not sure when it will be done. there is lots to write for it, it will be longer than the actual dollies plus i have to find a way to incorporate all the y/n's without making it confusing (if anyone has ideas, you're welcome to share)!
in other news, i am *trying* my best to write my hyunlix series (been a bit uninspired and unmotivated lately) and i hope i can finish season 1 soon at least.
in the meantime i may try to write something shorter just to get back into the groove.
thanks for your patience and support🩷
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Hey pookie..
Im not rushing or anything but... Final dolly ep?
Honestly dolly series was out of my mind, but i suddenly remembered there was a 9th ep..
I absolutely love all your works, I SWEAR!! (I also love u😞)
Its okay if the last dolly ep comes, as long as you dont lose motivation on other works, and stay healthy, thats enough!!
Thank you for the fics, sorry if its too sudden..
yes, there will be a final episode, i'm not sure when i'll be posting it yet!
thank youuu ily too🥹💜
and thank you for checking in🥹🫶🏻
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sorry - a quick add-on to my prev anon -> i've been seeing in passing some other blogs who have been doing this too (with the afab!reader tag), so that message wasn't meant to single you out! just perhaps if we could start spreading the word to make our community more inclusive, i think that'd be wonderful :)
of course, don't worry about it!🫶🏻
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hihi! just wanted to pop in quickly as the friendly neighbourhood trans guy kpop stan (a long title, ik) and say that in the section of your fic summaries where it says who the characters are, with a quick descriptor of y/n, that if it describes them with pronouns (a quick "she/her!reader" for example) it would really help to get a better understanding of who they are ! cause rn it sometimes says "afab!reader" but as a guy (he/him) who is afab, i go into it excited and then get misgendering whiplash 😭🫶 - this isn't to blame you at all, just trying to give a gentle redirection as a way to guide you/others to helping out the trans community in the little ways! :) <33 happy writing!!
hiii!
usually i just used afab for female pronouns, amab for male and gn for they/them (gender neutral), how i saw other writers doing it.
thanks for sending this in though, i will correct that from the next post!🙂↕️🩷
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why was i rereading your seungmin dolly and i read the end and then the entire lore flashes before my eyes 😀
i was sitting there like this bro.
hehehe
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the way hyunjin has a big smile on his face every time he gets touched by stays...
bro is having TOO MUCH fun
he loves that shit🤭
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omg this was beyond adorable and funny kjsdfhslf
i never wanted it to end 🥺🩷
Good boy gone bad- H.HJ
Today is the equivalent of Valentine's Day in my country and I wrote this funny fluff fic to celebrate. A special thank you to my girl @jehhskz for giving me this incredible idea. I hope you like it 💜 And also have a nice day with your boyfriend Hyunjin 🤭
Word count: 6.6k
Warnings: suggestive, supernatural and magical stuff, munch! Hyunjin
Alexa, play Good Boy Gone Bad by TOMORROW X TOGETHER



The lights are low. Not because you're trying to be romantic, but because everything bright, it hurts. You’re sitting cross legged on the floor of your apartment, in yesterday’s hoodie, surrounded by the wreckage of your evening— an empty takeout container, an untouched glass of wine, and the poodle your ex gave you last Valentine’s Day.
Prince.
Fluffy, white, ridiculously spoiled. And the only one who hasn’t left.
"You're all I got now", you whisper, reaching out to scratch his head
He yawns with that squeaky sound of his, then rolls over, showing you his belly like he knows exactly what comes next. You give in, of course you do, rubbing gentle circles on his stomach until his little paws twitch and he lets out a sigh like he had a long day.
"Don't look at me like that", you murmur, flicking a stray piece of lint from his fur. "It’s not my fault I wasn’t ‘ambitious enough’, you say flatly to no one in particular. Then you glance down at Prince, "That’s what he said”
You scratch behind his ears. He yawns.
"Not passionate about my goals. Not the kind of person he could ‘build a future with’ "
You let out a heavy sigh, "I work. I pay rent. I live… I just didn’t live the way he wanted me to"
Prince snuffles and rolls onto his side, now demanding back
"He wanted me to quit everything and follow him to Seoul. No plan. No job lined up. Just… pack up and support him. While he ‘figured it out’ "
You look at Prince.
"You, my fluffy bastard, are what he left behind when I said no"
You stroke a hand down his little spine. Prince shivers, sighs, tucks his nose into the crook of your elbow like he knows this is the only kind of affection you’re getting tonight.
"I told him I couldn’t just give up on everything. That I loved him, but I couldn’t abandon myself for him. And he said I already had”
You laugh, bitter, humorless
"And now here I am. Three weeks for Valentine’s day. No plans. No boyfriend”
Prince licks your chin.
"Except you"
You blink down at him, emotionally exhausted.
"My ex dumped me and left me with a poodle who refuses to eat unless I hand feed him roasted chicken breast"
You sigh, whispering into his fur, "At least I have you”
Prince curls deeper into your lap like you were just one. You love how warm he is, how he fits perfectly against you— how he stayed.
You love that it makes you feel a little less alone.
Then, suddenly, your phone starts buzzing
Incoming call: Quokka 🐿️
You groan but swipe to answer, “What?”
“OK LISTEN, before you hang up…”, Han’s voice explodes out of the speaker, “I may have unlocked the universe of infinity love”
“You bought another cursed item off the internet, didn’t you?”
“I invested, Yn. There’s a difference. This is artisanal craftsmanship with metaphysical properties”
“Oh, like that energy activating incense for ‘better blood flow down there’ you bought on AliExpress last year?”
“Ok, first of all, it had 1.2k reviews and a video testimonial”
“You said it only made it worse. Very legit”
“I was under a lot of stress, so obviously it blocked the energy flow”
“Sure”
“But not this one, Yn. This one, it came with a sparkly handwritten note. In blue glitter glue, so it’s legit”
Prince lifts his head and blinks at your phone. You stroke his back, waiting for what’s coming.
“It’s a love candle! But like, not a regular candle, a summoning candle. Like for attracting hot people”
“You mean… a spell for getting laid?”
“No! I mean like a soulmate magnet. A pheromone booster for your aura. It came from, like, Russia? Or was it Chicago? Well, somewhere magical”
You close your eyes and rub your temple, “Han, are you high again?”
“No, but I did almost pass out from the fumes when I lit it. Also, small detail… the wax made my dog horny. He’s been humping the couch for about fifteen minutes”
You pull the phone away from your ear, consider hanging up, then put it back, “Why are you telling me this?”
“Because you’re single, obviously! And miserable! And being held hostage by a demonic stuffed animal with a superiority complex”
You glance down. Prince is licking his paw with complete indifference.
“I think it could work for you”, Han continues, “The candles are colorful. You like colorful things. Mine is shaped like a torso, and I think one of the nipples fell off in shipping but that could be symbolic or whatever”
“I’m hanging up”
“WAIT, LISTEN! Just… light the candle, and picture your ideal man. Like… a nice guy. A hot guy. Someone with a big dick”
“Goodbye, Han”
“THE CANDLE WORKS!! I lit it last night at 11:11 pm, prime manifesting hour, and boom. This morning? My barista asked for my number”
“You’ve got to be kidding me”
“I’m not. She said, and I quote: ‘You smell like confidence and testosterone. Can I have your number?’ You know I definitely don't smell like that ”
You glance at the half empty wine bottle on your coffee table, “This is the weirdest call I’ve had in weeks”
He’s grinning through the phone, you can feel it, “You’re welcome. Want me to send you the link?”
“I’m not summoning sex demons for Valentine’s Day, Han”
Han scoffs, “They’re not demons if they’re hot and promise giving you back massages”
“Goodbye, Han”
“Don’t blame me when I’m happily cuddling after sex and you’re still watching Netflix with your dog”
“Enjoy your haunted candle”
“Oh I will. And so will my barista”
And with that, you end the call.
Prince blinks at you. You blink back.
“Don’t you dare turn into a human just to prove him right”
•°. *࿐
Later that night, after you've eaten both your dignity and an entire sleeve of cookies, your phone buzzes with a text from Han.
Quokka 🐿️:
[Sent you a link]: www.getlitgetlaid.com
You're welcome 😉
I lit another candle and now the barista gave me a free muffin
That’s foreplay, Yn!!
You stare at the link then you stare at Prince. He stares back.
You whisper, “This is stupid”
But you click it anyway.
The site loads with sparkly gifs, pink pop ups, and a massive banner that said:
💘 GET LIT GET LAID— SPARK YOUR SOULMATE 💘 One candle. One night. One stupid hot decision.
There’s a category list with candle names that range from “Mommy issues” to “Sugar daddy” to “Loser trapped in a hot body”
You narrow your eyes, “Han needs help”
Scrolling through, one product makes you freeze.
It’s titled:
VALENTINE #08: Sweet Venom
You start to read the description, already regretting:
🧸 Smells like gummy bear and sin 💦 Notes of grapefruit, bubblegum and fake innocence ✨ Guaranteed to attract: – Dimples – Boyish grins – Soft flirting – Oversized hoodies – Shy glances that secretly know exactly what they’re doing – Possibly: men who giggle when they kiss you 🚨 Caution: side effects include blushing, butterflies, and delicious makeouts.
The candle wax is bubblegum pink, sprinkled with red glitter and shaped into a gummy bear wearing sunglasses
“Jeongin”, you mutter.
It’s literally Jeongin in candle form
Prince lets out a long, judgmental sigh through his nose. You look at him.
“I know, okay? It’s dumb. But I haven’t made out with anyone in three months and this one promises me to attract a shy hottie and smells like candy!”
Prince gives you the kind of slow blink cats usually do when they’re plotting murder. Then, to make his opinion perfectly clear, he dramatically gets up from your lap, trots over to the corner, and purposefully pees on your favorite fuzzy slipper.
You gasp, “Prince!”
He makes unbroken eye contact the entire time.
Later, as you clean up the disaster, you whisper, “Too bad. Candle’s already on its way”
He barks once in protest or even jealousy. But at this point, that candle is probably your best shot
•°. *࿐
It arrives in a suspiciously pink box.
You're in your pajamas, a messy bun on your head. Prince circles your feet with low grumbles, like he can already see the disaster.
Inside there's bubble wrap, glitter confetti, and a folded card that says:
💘 "For lonely hearts and delusional fools. Good luck, sweetheart" 💘
You blink at it.
Beneath the card sits the candle— chubby, bear shaped, glossy, and pink. You lift it and immediately get hit with the fruity punch of grapefruit and sugar scent. Prince snorts, clearly not liking it.
You're gonna light it up anyway.
When the match strikes, the wick catches instantly. The flame flares pink, then settles into a low glow.
You whisper, “This is ridiculous”
The candle crackles, like it has something to say about your skepticism.
You sit with it for ten minutes but nothing happens. No naked boys materialize from the void, no romance falls from the ceiling. Just pink light and an increasingly suspicious scent clouding your tiny apartment.
You blow it out.
That night, you dream of dimples and gentle hands that hold you tightly against a solid chest
•°. *࿐
You sit in your microbiology lecture the next day, twirling your pen, trying to forget the cursed candle and your pissy poodle.
Someone slides into the seat beside you.
“Hey”, says a soft voice.
You turn and there he is— Jeongin. Oversized hoodie, sleepy eyes, and the kind of lazy smile that makes your heart twitch like you’re allergic to calm.
“Hey”, you say trying to pretend you didn’t light up a magic candle to him last night.
He scratches the back of his neck, “Hum… so, exams are coming and I’m, like, failing bacteria”
You blink, “You mean microbiology?”
“Yeah, that. Can you maybe help me? Study, I mean?”
You stare at him. His lips curl up. Dimples. Soft. Boyish smirk. Your brain almost short circuit immediately.
Oh no. Oh no no no.
You lit the candle and Jeongin just asked to spend time with you. To study ‘bacteria’. Romance is dead, but of course you want to spend hours talking about bacterial structure and infections with this man.
“Yeah, okay!”, you say, “When do you wanna start?”
“Tonight? If you’re free?”
You swallow, “Yeah, totally. My place?”
“Sure”
“Great, I text you the address”
“Cool”
He winks before he leaves, leaving you completely breathless
•°. *࿐
The books are closed. The last flashcard is discarded between pizza boxes and your empty soda cans. You're both sitting on your bed after hours of bacterial cell walls. Close. Way too close. Jeongin’s hoodie sleeves are pushed up to his elbows and he keeps watching you. The kind of look that could knock the air out of your lungs if you let it.
“I think I get it now”, he says, voice a little raspy from talking for so long, “About bacteria. And maybe about... you”
You blink, “Me?”
His hand touches your knee, carefully. You don’t move.
“I thought I was imagining it”, he says, thumb brushing small circles against the fabric of your joggers, “But I don’t think I am”
Your voice is barely a breath, “Imagining what?”
“That you want me to kiss you”
The tension hangs between you.
“You were never ‘failing bacteria’, were you?”
He smirks, lazily shaking his head as a ‘no’. You lean forward, hesitantly, but Jeongin doesn’t waste time. His lips catch yours in a kiss that’s hungry from the very first second.
He kisses like he’s been holding back the whole time— deep, slow, full of heat that crawls up your spine and makes your fingers grab his hoodie like you were trying to pull him even closer. If that’s even possible. You feel him shift closer, one hand sliding behind your neck, the other gripping your waist like he needs to feel every inch of you.
Your teeth graze, lips part. The sound he makes isn’t soft— it’s needy.
His mouth trails down your jaw, before returning to your lips again— urgent, wet, dizzying. Your heart races, your mind spins as he lays you down.
Jeongin’s hands slide beneath your shirt, and your breath hitches when he mutters something filthy against your skin.
You know you should stop, your dog’s still in the room but you think, “he’s just a dog”, and he’s curled up quietly at the foot of your bed like he always is. Right?
Wrong. So very wrong.
Because the second Jeongin shifts above you, one knee nudging between your thighs, hips pressing down to close the space between your bodies— there’s a sudden blur of a bark and a ferocious growl followed by a:
“WHAT THE HELL?!”
You jolt upright just in time to see your little white poodle, Prince, with his teeth sunken to Jeongin’s ass. His ears are back, eyes wild, tail puffed up like a pissed off cotton ball.
“Prince!!” you shriek, grabbing a pillow and throwing at him, “LET GO!”
“I think he broke skin!”, Jeongin mutters, stumbling off the bed, hand clutching his butt, “Why is your dog like this?!”
“He’s never done this before!”
“Well, and I am not in the mood anymore”
“Jeongin, wait!”
“I call you”, he says as he stumbles to the door with his dignity in ruins, muttering about rabies shots.
The second the door shuts, Prince hops smugly on the bed, circles once, and sits like nothing happened.
You look at him with a piercing gaze
“Prince” you say slowly, “Did you just bite someone because they were on top of me?”
He snores and then, like he has no shame, he crawls into your lap, lays his head on your chest, and lets out the most satisfied sigh you've ever heard.
•°. *࿐
It’s been three days since Prince ruined your make out session with Jeongin.
You still wake up remembering the look on Jeongin’s face. A little turned on. A lot confused
But life moves on, and so do your dating ambitions.
You’ve just finished vacuuming glitter from Jeongin’s candle out of your rug when your phone buzzes again.
Quokka 🐿️ :
How’s microbiology boy 😏
You:
He got scared off. Prince bit his vibe off…
… and his perfect ass
Quokka 🐿️ :
LMFAOO
Damn, I hate this dog
Try another candle 😌Rebound power unlockedStop falling for muscle gods.
You roll your eyes and type back, “go away”
Quokka 🐿️: No ❤️ Go to the website Do it for the plot
Get one for a comfort boy.
You stare at the link for a full thirty seconds before clicking it again.
You scroll past “Short kings”, “Bald and bold” and “Tight gym shorts”
Then you stop.
Because this one. This one is pale yellow, shaped like the Sun with a glistening label that reads:
VALENTINE #15: Sunshine Soulmate
🌞 Smells like honey tea, ginger and laughter 🤗 Notes of chocolate cake, kindness and cinnamon ✨ Guaranteed to attract: – Gentle souls who bring you flowers for no reason – People who laugh at your worst jokes – Long nights with deep conversations – Someone who actually listens – Possibly: forehead kisses and hugs that feel like home 🚨 Caution: You may fall in love with your comfort partner, and never look back.
You whisper, “That’s… Felix” Felix, your neighbor. The guy who laughs when Prince humps his leg in the elevator, whose voice is deep but still soft as sunrises
You buy it. Heart pounding like a teenager in love.
Prince gives you that slow, side eye as if to say: what’s wrong with you?
•°. *࿐
The evening the candles arrive, you shut your curtains and pull Prince to your lap. You open the box, press your nose into it and inhale.
You light it.
The flame burns in a gentle yellow, rippling across the living room like sunlight on water.
Prince barks once, looks at you. You wrap him in your arms. He hides his head on your shoulder, tail thumping.
Beside you, the candle crackles in soft tones
“I don’t know why I’m doing this”, you whisper, “Felix is… he’s out there. Probably doing small talk with old ladies at the grocery store line”
You brush your fingertips along Prince’s fur, “And I’m here wishing he liked me. Not for muscles. Or dangerous smirks. Just… for real, warm, comfortable company”
You laugh weakly, “Instead, I am here like a desperate loser. Stuck on stupid candle magic and a dog who won’t leave my lap”
You blow out the candle and Prince snorts with satisfaction.
You lean your head back and close your eyes wishing it works this time
•°. *࿐
It’s the day after you lit the candle.
You’re in your apartment, dressed in your emotional support hoodie, trying to figure out if cereal counts as dinner, when there’s a knock at the door.
Prince immediately loses his entire mind.
You stagger to the door, hair messy, wearing socks that don’t match. You open it to see…
Felix.
Golden hair, oversized cream knit sweater, a smile that curves like a sunrise, freckles scattered on his cheekbones like a constellation. He’s holding a large tupperware container in one hand, and in the other a movie DVD.
You blink, “Hi…”
“Hey”, he grins, “I made cookies. Movie night? You, me, and…”, he peeks over your shoulder, “Prince. If His Royal Highness is free”
Prince wags his tail like he understands what Felix said, then bounces in excitement.
“I, huh…”, you swallow, “That sounds really nice, actually”
Felix’s smile grows, eyes doing that crinkly thing that makes your stomach fold in on itself like origami.
“Then come over. Comfy clothes are mandatory”
•°. *࿐
You arrive minutes later with Prince and a bag of chips. Felix opens the door and Prince immediately trots in like he owns the place.
You follow after him.
The apartment smells like vanilla, sunshine and freshly baked chocolate chip cookies. There are string lights over the couch. A fluffy blanket fort in the corner. The screen is already paused on the movie menu.
“You seriously still use DVDs?”, you ask.
Felix shrugs, “They’re nostalgic”
He hands you a cookie and gestures for you to sit. Prince climbs onto the couch like he pays rent and plops between you and Felix.
You roll your eyes, “Prince, really?”
Felix just laughs, “It’s okay. He’s protecting his princess”
You choke on a cookie crumb.
Felix chuckle— warm and contagious. He pats the couch beside him, “Come on. I won’t bite”
You settle in, shoulder brushing him. Prince lets out a grumble, but accepts his fate.
As the movie plays, you pretend to focus. Felix smells like clean laundry and he keeps laughing at all the dumb lines, and every time, your head turns toward the sound like it’s a magnet
Halfway through, your fingers brush while reaching for the same chip. Neither of you pulls away. He glances at you. You glance at him and the tension grows heavier
“You’re warm”, Felix says, soft like the rain outside
You whisper, “So are you”
And then, very gently, his fingers lace in yours.
Prince snorts loudly and ruins the moment, of course, but Felix just grins and presses his shoulder into yours. He’s warm and sweet, and you feel like the candle was right: you may fall in love with your comfort partner, and never look back.
Even better? Prince is behaving.
Not just behaving like sitting quietly, he's actually snuggled against Felix’s side, tiny chin resting on Felix’s thigh, tail wagging lazily every time Felix absentmindedly scratches his fluffy fur
You almost tear up from the relief.
“Oh my god”, you whisper, “He likes you”
Felix grins, flashing that sunshine smile, “He’s adorable. So chill. I thought he didn't like me”
You look at Prince, who blinks innocently at you, “Yeah, me too…”
You start to relax. Maybe this time it’s different. Maybe Prince has matured, maybe he has accepted he can’t be your only source of affection forever.
When the screen goes dark and Felix kisses your cheek, thanking you for coming, and walks you both to the door. You feel suspiciously hopeful.
Until twenty minutes later.
Your phone buzzes.
Felix 🌞:
So…
Not to be weird but….
I think Prince left me a present
In my gym bag
Like a solid one
Like a Number Two
Your jaw drops.
You:
OH MY GOD FELIX I’M SO SORRY!!! Please say you didn’t put your hand in there
Felix 🌞:
I didn’t But he looked me RIGHT IN THE EYE before you guys left I thought it was affection It was a threat
You sprint to your room and throw open the door. Prince is stretched luxuriously across your bed, tiny paws crossed, eyes closed like a cat sunbathing.
You whisper, horrified, “You pooped in his bag”
He doesn’t even flinch.
“Why?! You liked him!”
He opens one eye, blinks, yawns and turns away.
Yeah, you probably will die single because of him.
•°. *࿐
It’s been four days since the incident with Felix
You’ve blocked the memory of his hands on your waist and the sound of his laugh as the movie played. You’ve told Han you’re not buying another candle. He insisted anyway
Quokka 🐿️: Girl they have one called “Moonstruck”
That shit it’s POWERFUL
You roll your eyes so hard you almost pull something. But later that night, curiosity wins. Again. As always. You find yourself scrolling through Get lit, Get laid, one leg on the heater with Prince drooling on your thigh.
You scroll until you see it.
VALENTINE #20: Moonstruck
🕯️ Smells like lavender, rosemary, paint, and quiet mornings 🎨 Notes of melancholy, watermelon and pink glitter ✨ Guaranteed to attract: – Artists who see the world sideways – People who cry at concerts – Loud laughter in silent rooms – Boys who write you poems – Possibly: a guy who really loves you, kinda needy and clingy 🚨 Warning: lighting may cause a sudden urge to talk to the moon
You frown. There’s no face you associate with it. No crush. No worthy idiot.
Just... an unexplainable certainty that you should buy that damn candle..
•°. *࿐
The candle arrives three days later in a box that smells like moon dust.
You light it that night. It flickers purple and gold
Prince hops on the couch, circles a free time, and flops dramatically into your lap with a grunt. You stroke behind his head as you whisper, “You realize this is your fault, right?”
Prince snorts.
“No, seriously. I used to be fine. I had a relationship. An almost stable emotional state. A carpet without candle dust”
He yawns, jaw cracking.
You sigh, laying your head back, candlelight dancing across the ceiling.
“You’re the one who scared my dates away. You. A chaotic dog with judgmental eyebrows and a spirit full of vengeance”
Prince blinks, like he was waiting for you to finish your dramatic monologue
“I’m going to die alone,” you say gently, cupping his face. “Just you and me, buddy. And someday you’ll bury me in someone’s backyard next to your long lost squeaky bones”
Then he licks your nose. You laugh softly, burying your face in his fur.
The candle flickers. Something in the room shifts. Not loud. Not bright. Just a breath of something different.
You fall asleep on the couch like that.
Prince curled at your side. Candle burning low. Dreams thick and golden behind your eyelids.
As you sleep, a shape stirs on the floor.
But you don’t notice
Yet.
•°. *࿐
You wake up with a loud crash coming from the kitchen. Not the clatter of paws on tile. No collar jingling. No soft whimper.
A human noise.
You sit up, disoriented. The candle’s completely burned down. Your phone says it’s 3:42 am.
You grab a blanket and tiptoe into the hall.
“Prince?” you whisper, heart hammering.
Then you see him.
A tall, completely naked man rifling through your fridge like he lives there.
His back is to you at first, but then he turns, very casually, sipping from your carton of chocolate milk with a smile like this is the best day of his life
You scream.
He drops the milk.
“WHAT THE FU… WHO THE HELL… WHY ARE YOU NAKED?!”
“You asked that candle to bring you someone who really loved you. So… surprise?”
You take a full five seconds to connect the dots. The familiar shape of his lips. The floppy hair. The weird sparkle in his eyes that you always said made him look like he knew your secrets.
“…Prince?” you whisper again, backing into the wall.
He shrugs, like it’s nothing. “Technically, I’m Hyunjin. But yeah. You kinda wished I turned into a human”
You stare at him. “You were a dog…”
“Your dog” he says, stepping closer, still naked, “And now I’m something even better”
“Why are you still naked?!”
“Because pants weren’t part of the wish, obviously"
You’re still in shock. Your mouth opens. Closes. Opens again. No words come out as you try not to stare at the way he’s standing there like he isn’t naked while drinking choco milk in your kitchen.
Hyunjin takes one last unapologetic sip straight from the nearly empty carton. Then, without breaking eye contact, he lets out a satisfied sigh like he just finished a fine bottle of wine.
“You’re gonna need to buy more of this, by the way”
You blink. “Excuse me?”
He shakes the carton, upside down, “It’s gone. Like. All of it. I was thirsty”
Then, thoughtfully, he concludes, “I think it’s my favorite thing about being human so far”
“You…” You gesture wildly at the mess of milk dribbled on his chin, the open fridge door, the nudity.
“You drank my entire carton of chocolate milk naked at 4am?!”
“And it was amazing” he says, eyes twinkling, “but also kinda sad, because now there’s none left. So... maybe write it on a list or something?”
You inhale. Exhale. Pinch the bridge of your nose, “You are literally a magical dog who turned into a man because I lit a cursed Valentine’s candle. And your priority is…”
“Chocolate milk”, he finishes happily, “And pants. Eventually”
You sigh so hard your soul leaves your body for a second, “I need to go lie down”
“Bring me a glass of water?” he calls after you. “I think I’m still a little thirsty”
You just ignore him.
•°. *࿐
You wake up hours later, head pounding.
For a minute, it’s peaceful.
Maybe it was a dream. A fever dream. The wine, the candle, the stupid wish— maybe it all blurred together and created the world's most chaotic hallucination.
Then you hear it— a soft hum coming from your bathroom followed by a voice calling out sweetly
“Ynnie… I’m ready!”
You stumble to the bathroom, push the door open and immediately regret it.
Hyunjin is standing in the tub, completely naked again. Hair fluffed, cheeks glowing, a towel barely draped over one shoulder
“Took you long enough, lady”
“What… are you doing?”
He blinks, all innocent, “Waiting for you to wash me”
Your brain malfunctions, “I… what?! You’re a man now! Wash your own damn self!”
“But you always bathed me”, he tilts his head, lips curling into a pout so automatic that it has to be a leftover reflex from puppyhood.
“You use that nice strawberry shampoo. You talk to me while you scrub behind my ears. And you give me a towel hat after”
You gape at him, “Hyunjin”
“I even set everything up!” he says proudly, gesturing to the row of bath products you specifically use for your spa days, “I want bubbles. And the scalp massage thing you do with your nails”
He pauses, grinning wider.
“I’ll wag my tail if it helps convince you”
You slam the door in his face and shout through it, “DON’T YOU DARE TOUCHING MY EXPENSIVE MASK”
From inside, he calls back sweetly, “You’re still gonna brush my hair after, right?”
You groan, “I regret meeting Han in the first place”
You press your forehead to the bathroom door and sigh like you’re in a tragic k-drama.
“No”, you mutter to yourself, “You are not giving in. You’re not brushing his hair. You are not washing a grown man in your tub just because he used to be a poodle”
And then, the door creaks open.
He pokes his head out. Hair dripping, wet strands falling over his flushed face. And his eyes— those big, dark, round eyes— look up at you like you just kicked a puppy.
“Yn…”
You swallow hard
“I don’t know how to rinse the bubbles out without stinging my eyes…”, he says softly, pouting already, “You always helped me…”
You blink, “Hyunjin, you're literally 1,80 now”
He nods, “And helpless”
You try to hold back. You really do but then he whines— a soft, high pitched whine— and tilts his head the exact same way he did back when he wore a collar instead of a smirk.
That’s the end of you.
You sigh and push the door open wider, “Move over, prince of manipulation”
His face lights up like you just gave him a treat.
You kneel by the tub, grabbing the showerhead and your strawberry shampoo, muttering under your breath, “I can’t believe I’m doing this”
He leans forward immediately, elbows on the edge, chin in his palms, a grin curling his lips, “You love it”
You glare at him.
He sticks out his tongue.
You dump water over his head.
Then you reach for the conditioner, “You're lucky you're pretty”
He grins, “I am, huh?”
You gently work the conditioner into his hair, nails scratching lightly over his scalp. He melts instantly. He closes his eyes and lets a pleased little sound slip out of his throat, one that makes your chest tighten.
“I used to love when you did this”, he says, “Even when I was just… Prince”
You blink, “Yeah?”
He hums, “You were always so gentle. Careful. Like I wasn’t just a dog”
You pause, hands still in his hair, “You weren’t just a dog to me. You were like my best friend. Even when you acted bitchy”
That makes his lips part slightly, eyes opening to find yours.
He sits up just a little, water dripping down his chest, “You know what I didn’t like?” he says after a moment, more serious now.
You wait.
“When strangers touched me. Like, on walks. People always think dogs want to be pet, but sometimes I hated it. I only liked it when you did it”
Your heart thumps once, sharp and loud.
“I hated the vet”, he continues, “and when you left the house for too long. I hated when you cried and I couldn’t do anything but nudge your hand with my nose”
You look down, “You always stayed beside me, though”
“I couldn’t not. You are the person I love the most”, he says, voice catching a little with the weight of that truth. “Even then, you were mine”
The bathroom fills with soft steam and silence. You rinse the last of the conditioner from his hair, fingers lingering just a little too long at the nape of his neck.
When you look at him again, he’s staring at you with something unreadable in his eyes.
Something human, vulnerable
“Do you still want me?”, he asks, voice quiet, unsure for the first time.
You don’t say anything.
You just reach for a towel, help him sit up, and whisper
“Let’s get you dry first, Prince”
•°. *࿐
The next morning, you wake up to the sound of your fridge door slamming and a tragic gasp.
You stumble into the kitchen to find Hyunjin— still only in one of your oversized hoodies, hair a fluffy mess— standing barefoot and betrayed.
He turns, horrified. “You didn’t get more chocolate milk”
You blink. “Good morning to you too”
“I dreamed about it last night”, he whines, “I woke up tasting it. You promised me”
And like a fool, you drag yourself the shopping mall looking like a tired single parent and return with two gallons of chocolate milk, a new phone with a pink glitter case, a comfy set of sweatpants and sweatshirts, socks with little chocolate milk cartons on them and in exchange, you got a custom contact in your phone saved as:
💗 Prince Hyunjin 👑
By noon, he’s curled up on your couch, sipping from a bendy straw, scrolling through his phone while making soft noises every time he finds an emoji he likes.
“Why does this one look like you??”, he says, holding up 🐸
You finally stand in front of the hallway mirror, curling your lashes and adjusting your dress.
“Where are you going?” Hyunjin asks casually, mouth full of banana bread you didn’t even see him open.
“Out” you say, avoiding his gaze.
“To see another man?”, his tone is suddenly more icy.
You sigh, “It’s just a date, Hyunjin. You’re fine. You’ve got snacks, Netflix, a phone…”
“You’re leaving me alone on my second real day as a human?”
“You spent all morning watching dance compilations on TikTok. I think you’ll survive”
He narrows his eyes, “I bet he's not even that cute”
You grab your bag and keys, “Stop being jealous”
“You’re being reckless!”, he shoots back, arms crossed, “You just got new clothes and now you’re going to let some muscle boy take them off you?”
“Oh my God. You don’t even know him!”
“I don’t need to!” he says. “I know you. And I know you like when someone is clingy and follows you around the house and licks your cheek to make you laugh”
“HYUNJIN”
“What? Too honest?”
You point to the couch, “Stay here. Don’t pee on anything. Don’t text my friends. And don’t sabotage this date, it's my last chance”
He sulks dramatically, curling up like a cat, muttering, “I hope he's allergic to fur”
You leave anyway.
But as you wait for your Uber, your phone buzzes.
💗 Prince Hyunjin 👑 Fine. Go. But I hope his hugs aren’t as warm as mine Also we’re out of Nutella Also I miss you
You roll your eyes, ignore him and tell yourself, “Just one more date”
But you already know Prince is going to ruin it somehow
•°. *࿐
You were watching a movie at Changbin’s place— just the two of you, a blanket, snacks, and something cheesy playing in the background. He’s got one arm slung casually around your shoulder, his body warm and solid beside yours. You’re relaxed, comfortable, almost sleepy.
Until your phone buzzes on the coffee table.
Changbin glances down first, just instinct. He's in the middle of reaching popcorn, and the screen lights up so bright it catches his eye.
Immediately, he frowns
“Hum… who’s Prince Hyunjin?”
Your blood runs cold. You reach for the phone but it’s too late.
He reads the preview out loud:
💗 Prince Hyunjin 👑 Baby, I want to taste you so bad I'm losing my mind.
Come home and let me be on my knees for you.
The air goes thick.
“Changbin, wait… I can explain…”
“You have a boyfriend named Prince Hyunjin?!”
“He’s not… he wasn’t… he used to be my dog!”
Changbin blinks, “That’s… somehow worse?”
You bury your face in your hands, “He was a poodle, okay? A fluffy little spoiled brat named Prince. But then one day he… he just turned into a human, and now he thinks he owns me”
Changbin just stares at you, “You’re telling me your ex poodle is now sexting you and calling himself Prince Hyunjin?”
“You think I’d make that up?!”
You phone buzz one more time
💗 Prince Hyunjin 👑 Tell this dude you’re with to keep his hands off you unless he wants to lose them
Your thighs are mine.
Changbin slowly stands up, hands in the air like he’s surrendering to your craziness, “You should… just go. Before I get bitten. Or murdered by your shapeshifting, possessive ex dog”
“Bin, please, you have to believe me…”
He backs away toward the door, voice full of sarcasm, “No, no. It’s fine. I just need some time to… process”
He opens the door. And you can’t do anything but grab your purse and leave,
“I… call you?”, you try one last time
“Nah, you don't have to. Bye”
And then, he shuts the door on your face
You sigh and presses your forehead against the cold wall, picking up your phone
You:
HYUNJIN.
WHAT DID YOU DO???
He replies immediately:
I always get what I want
•°. *࿐
Your place is quiet when you enter. A low hum comes from the TV still on, playing some cartoon.
And on the couch, curled up sideways, limbs long and tangled, face buried in the cushions— is him.
Hyunjin.
He’s in your favorite hoodie. The one you wear when you’re sad or sick or just need to feel safe. It swallows him, sleeves bunched at the wrists, the hem covering his hips where his bare legs stretch out toward your coffee table.
One hand clutches the sleeve. The other clutches an empty spot on the couch like he reached for you in his sleep.
You stand there for a moment, just watching the ridiculous boy who used to bark at your guests now dreaming under the colorful lights of Adventure Time.
He shifts in his sleep and murmurs your name, crackling your chest open. You walk over, slowly, and crouch beside him, gently stroking back his hair.
"Yn…?" he whispers, eyes still closed.
"Yeah”, you whisper back.
He blinks once, then opens his eyes.
“Did he kiss you?”, he asks quietly, voice hoarse from sleep
“No”
“Good”, his lips curve into a sleepy smile, “I wore your hoodie so you’d think of me”
“How could I forget you, my prince?”
He reaches for you, tugging at your fingers, “Then stay here with me. Forever”
You nod, and curl onto the couch with him. His arms find your waist instantly, nose pressing to your neck. Right there in his arms, the weight of another failed date all thanks to Hyunjin’s relentless mischief, seems to fade a little
You sigh deeply, “You know what, Hyunjin? I give up”
He perks up instantly, “Hum?”
“I’m yours” you say, voice soft but firm. “I’ll spend Valentine’s Day alone and it’s your fault for ruining every single date I try to have”
Hyunjin’s little chest puffs out like he’s won the grandest prize. Then, almost immediately, he sulks, lowering his head and giving you a pout that’s impossible to resist.
“Come on… just one kiss. On the lips. You can’t resist me forever”
“Hyunjin”, you say softly, shaking your head with a gentle smile, “No. Forehead kiss only”
You lean down and press a warm, tender kiss on his forehead, feeling the soft brush of his hair. He grins so bright that you know you’ll never escape being his, no matter how hard you try.
Before you can pull away, Hyunjin’s hands catch your face, and with a cheeky grin, he steals a bold, lingering kiss on your lips. It’s soft but demanding, warm and possessive all at once.
When he finally pulls back, his grin is pure mischief, “See? Told you I always get what I want”
You laugh, shaking your head, “You’re impossible”
Hyunjin just snuggles closer, tail wagging like he owns your heart. And honestly? He does.
At the end, maybe all the love you needed was right by your side this whole time.
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Hello! I just wanted to say that I love your stories and that they're amazing. I have a slight request, if they're open ofc. But could you maybe do like an SKZ series where like you write down your opinion on whether they would like cold play or hot okay, or both? Maybe slight little drabbles? I'm curious to know😭
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Can I see your d*ck? (drabble)



pairing: lee felix x afab!reader
synopsis: you're lounging on your bed with your best friend peacefully until an intrusive thought wins over.
wc: 1.0k
warnings: lots of dirty talk, making out, fingering
a/n: idk what this is, i feel unhinged and not inspired to write today so this might suck but thanks @jazz-the-writer 😏💜 (side not: y'all his hands might be small by some standard that i'm not aware of but to me they're big cause i am small and that is hot, mkay)
Your best friend is leaning on your pillow looking all pretty and alluring and you can't help your thoughts.
Or your mouth.
"Can I see your dick?" it rolls off your tongue kind of accidentally. Felix coughs, choking on air as he looks up from his phone.
"Excuse me?" he looks at you in disbelief and your cheeks warm up.
"Your dick. I want to see it."
You can't really back out now.
"Um... you can't just ask stuff like that?" his eyebrow is raised, but his cheeks become rosy too.
"Why not? Do I need to get you drunk first?" you smirk.
"N-no, just... Why would you ask that?" he chuckles nervously.
"Well, I've never seen one. Not in real life, at least." you say and he smirks suddenly.
"Where else have you seen a dick?" he sits up and so do you.
"Porn, duh." you roll your eyes.
"What kind of porn?" he leans in closer and you whine, rolling your eyes again.
"Don't change the subject! Will you let me see it?"
"No, I will not show you my dick, y/n. Be for real." he laughs, shoving you playfully.
"You're totally not fun." you pout, crossing your arms over your chest.
Felix smirks to himself as he looks away from you. His heart hammers against his ribs as he bites on his lip and considers teasing you.
"How about this?" he turns around to look at you again. "I wanna see yours too."
"Hate to disappoint you Lixie but I don't have a dick." you joke and his face becomes as red as a tomato.
"I meant your... you know." he looks away.
"My what? Say it." you lean in closer and he visibly shivers.
"Y-your... pussy?" he whispers and you laugh.
"Okay." you shrug and he gasps, thinking you'd surely back out after that request.
"You're for real?" he gulps.
"Mhm." you nod, your heart skipping a beat in excitement but Felix struggles.
"I mean... it's not... it's not hard yet, you know."
"Can I help with that?" you inch closer to your best friend. And god, he is so beautiful.
"We could make out?" he suggests and you agree immediately because who wouldn't want to kiss those lips?
The world stops as you lean in, the sounds of your breathing seem so loud in the tiny gap between you and Felix. The gap is soon closed as your lips press together in a sweet, awkward kiss.
The kiss slowly escalates into something more desperate and raw, as your hands start wandering on each other's bodies. Somehow, you end up under him as he keeps kissing your face and neck.
"Your hands are so pretty." you say breathlessly as you play with Felix's hand.
"They are?" he asks, a little surprised at your compliment.
"Mhm. And your fingers are perfect." you bring his hand closer to your face, his fingertips on your lips. Felix gasps when your tongue darts out to lick at his fingertips.
"Y/n..." his voice breaks as you take his middle finger in and start sucking on it.
"Fuck." Felix curses, his eyes darkening as he observes you. You can feel his dick twitching against your thigh and you clench around nothing.
"Please, touch me Lixie." you whine when you take his finger out of your mouth.
"Where, sweetheart?" he smirks at your eagerness and you nearly combust at the nickname.
Instead of answering, you start pulling your pants down and he quickly stops you.
"Are you sure?" he asks in the last moment of clarity.
"Yes." you say and he nods, helping you get rid of your pants and underwear.
"Oh." he licks his lips at the sight of you all wet and desperate for him.
"Please." you whine and a deep chuckle escapes his lips.
"I got you, baby." he soothes you as his hands run up your thighs a few times, coming up to spread your pussy so he can take a good look at it.
You whimper, shutting your eyes tight. Felix chuckles again, his thumb pressing against your sensitive clit in circles.
You gasp, eyes snapping open as they meet his darkened ones.
"If you've never seen a dick, that must mean you're a virgin?" Felix asks quietly.
"N-no... Well, yes. I mean I did this before but never went further." you confess and he smirks.
His fingers dip between your folds, gathering your arousal before paying attention to your clit again as he speeds up, making you whimper.
"W-why are you smirking like that?" you moan out as he flicks your clit, driving you absolutely insane already.
"I know you wanna see my dick. But I wanna make sure this little pussy can take my fingers first."
"Felix!" you whine at the dirty talk, the effect of his words amplified by his deep voice and the movement on your clit.
If you weren't at his mercy you'd probably laugh at your best friend for talking like that.
"Yeah baby? You want that?"
"P-please!" you're falling apart, your pussy clenching around nothing again.
"As you wish." Felix whispers and slowly starts pushing his middle finger in.
"L-Lixie." you moan, grabbing at his wrist as he fills you up.
"You're so tight, sweetheart. I don't think you'll be seeing my dick so soon."
"N-no, please, I wanna see it!" you cry out as he pushes in completely, slowly fucking you with his finger.
"If you manage to take three of my fingers, maybe I'll let you." he leans down to whisper in your ear, making you whine.
"You're mean." you pout, knowing damn well you're nowhere near ready to take him.
"I'm just looking out for you." he keeps smirking as he starts pumping his finger faster, making you more wet with every thrust.
You want to smack him for being so sly but his thumb starts working on your clit and you completely fall apart, moaning his name and gripping at the sheets as Felix brings you to ecstasy easily.
"Only one finger got you falling apart like this, hm?" he mocks as he fucks you through your high.
"You wanna see what two get me like?" you smirk at him and he laughs a little.
"I hope you know what you got yourself into, sweetheart."
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Cupid's Shot🩷



pairing: lee felix x reader
genre: fluff, angst, slow burn
word count: 10.4k
description: what happens when Cupid breaks the rules and falls in love with a mortal?
warning/s: there are suggestive parts so mdni! not proofread!
a/n: here i go again with another felix fic and i'm really proud of it, except i feel like the ending is rushed but i had to write it twice cause i accidentally didn't save it the first time jddkdll
but anyways there will be a second part to this, with smut. it will be a continuation on this main fic but could also be read as its own thing.
please reblog if you like it!🩷
Their purpose is simple: bring two destined souls together by helping them get rid of their fears and insecurities, assist them to find the happiness they deserve, the love they would nurture with their soul mate.
Contrary to popular belief and the information in many books, there isn't only one Cupid, there is a whole nation of them, living in another realm, invisible to the eyes of the mortals, but they can see everything. Including the mortals auras, souls and their destined lovers.
The only rule they have to abide by is to not fall in love with a mortal. None of them really questioned it, they're just beings of light, existing to fulfill their purpose, until they disperse into little particles of shiny dust, disappearing into The Great Source Of Light.
They would get their assigned charges and do everything they can to cross them off the list after they manage to finally match them with their loved one.
Felix often wondered about a lot of things, like why was he born a Cupid, was he even born and where he actually came from if he wasn't. He wondered what The Great Source Of Light actually is and where it would take him after he fulfilled his duties. He wondered why wasn't he allowed to fall in love when love was so soft, warm and fuzzy. Wasn't love the ultimate goal? Was this some kind of punishment because of what he did in a past life; to be a mere messenger of love but never be able to experience it?
Ofcourse, he never dared to say anything like that out loud for the fear of what would happen if he did. He's never actually seen any punishments or violence happening in his little world, everything was cheerful and perfect, the Cupids worked and flew around with blushing cheeks and smiles painted on their faces; never complaining, never tiring. But he didn't want to risk it, or seem like he is defying the natural order of things, he is only curious.
Felix gets a scroll with names of his new charges, and he opens up the paper. Scanning over the names as they shine in a white-ish glow off the paper, something calls to him. His eyes flick around until they land on your name. Something inside him blooms, chimes and explodes in little fireworks. He chants your name in his head. It's time to find you. His eyes close and he focuses on your aura. Mixes of purples and blues swirl behind his closed eyelids and he can feel it closer, smell the sweet flowery scent with a hint of petrichor in it.
He opens his eyes and he's transported, his eyes meeting yours but ofcourse you don't see him. Your chin is resting on your palms, elbows perched on the table as you stare a hole into the computer screen in front of you. Felix quickly takes note of the surroundings, the clacking sounds, telephones ringing and chatter in the distance. He's in an office building, and you're sitting in your cubicle, your hair neatly tied and face devoid of any emotions. But he can see your aura, it's swirling and wilding around your frame, painting pretty designs around you. He thinks he's never seen something as beautiful as you are.
"Y/n!"- someone slams a stack of papers on your desk, startling both you and your Cupid, making him float back a little as he observes you.
"These papers need to be finished today."- the woman says, a malicious undertone in her voice.
"B-but it's almost six. I've worked overtime and-"
"It's not my fault you're slow. Next time work during lunch."- the woman turns around, leaving like it's none of her business.
Felix sees you immediately slump in your chair, the pretty blues and purples of your aura dimming down a little as you grip the papers and start going through them. Cupids weren't supposed to feel bad feelings like anger or envy or anything of that sort but Felix somehow felt annoyed at the woman, and moreover he felt bad for you. He wished he could help you get home faster somehow, but he knows he shouldn't meddle into anything except your soul mate.
Speaking of soul mates, as soon as Felix came down from his realm to yours, he couldn't feel another soul that's supposed to be binded to you. That was unusual but not impossible, sometimes charges had their hearts closed off and the Cupids had to try and open up their hearts first before actually connecting them with love.
He dismissed it for now and focused on you, trying to send you a lovely boost of energy so you don't feel too bad. You were tired and stressed, sick od being mistreated at work, seen as less than. There is a lump forming in your throat and tears threating to spill down your cheeks as you keep working. Suddenly, you feel relief, like someone untied the knot inside your chest and you take a deep breath in and somehow feel more energetic to keep working.
It's already past 9pm when you're done and you're beyond exhausted. All you want right now is a nice shower, a warm bowl of noodles and your bed. Felix observes as you tidy your desk and he follows you when you leave the building to your car. The walk through the empty dark parking lot is eerie and Felix can sense the fear creeping up inside you so he floats a little closer to you, his pink soft wings almost touching you. Not that you would feel it even if they did.
Your apartment is small, but it's cozy and clean and it smells like you, like your aura. It makes Felix's senses fuzzy, something he never experienced before. He looks around the living room full of plants you obviously love taking care of, pictures of you and your friends and family, little knick knacks you collect. He does a full turn and comes face to face with you, in your bra and he panics and scrambles away, almost flying into your lamp. The lamp swings ever so slightly and Felix is not sure how his wings have effect on anything physical in this world because they usually don't. He turns away from you giving you your privacy, waiting for you to leave to the bathroom.
When you do, he slowly flies back closer to the lamp and tries to touch it but his hand goes right through it. It was nothing, he sighs, relief washing over him. He keeps looking around, gathering information about his charge so he knows how to help you open up your heart and find love. Some kind of weird feeling washes over him shortly but he shakes it off. You come out of the bathroom, thankfully in your pjs which look adorable on you, Felix thinks as he smiles and watches you.
After your quiet dinner, you get ready for sleep and crawl into your bed, finally relieved to be in your safe space where no one can harm you. Felix ofcourse doesn't want to intrude and be around while you sleep, at least not yet, not when it's to early to enter your dreams. He turns around to fly out, back to his realm but a sniffle stops him. He stays still and listens, another sniffle coming from under your blanket.
A pang hits his chest when he realizes you're crying. He turns back to you and floats closer, the closer he gets, the more pain in his chest he feels. Why is it like this? Felix has always felt emotions of his charges to a certain degree but never this intense. It's almost unbearable to him and he struggles to come closer to you. He tries anyways, shining a little light he made inside his palms to look at you, but you're in the dark and can't see it. But he sees you and you look completely shattered as tears stream down your cheeks, eyes already red from crying. Your lips quiver, your aura fades more into gray and Felix feels what you feel.
He feels used and abandoned, ridiculed and lonely, unloveable. The feelings are so strong that they force him back away from you, tossing him into the wardrobe behind him, making the door rattle. You gasp and scramble into a sitting position, turning on the lamp beside your bed as fast as you can. You swallow in sudden fear as you look around but nothing's there. Felix is still, he's looking at you and he feels so bad that he scared you, especially while you were in a vunerable state. He still has no idea how he managed to make the door rattle or the lamp swing but that scares him too even though he didn't even feel any pain from the impact.
You shake your head and lay back down, turning the lamp off and wiping your tears away. Felix slowly floats towards the window, cautious not to touch or knock anything down. He looks at you one more time before he shimmers himself back into his realm.
"Have you ever moved a physical item in the earth realm?"- Felix whispers to his coworker and friend, Hyunjin, one of the Cupids he was close to.
"What?"- Hyunjin looks at him, his pink lips pouty and eyebrows furrowed in thought.
"Like... like have you ever accidentally made a lamp swing or a door rattle?"- he tries again and Hyunjin chuckles at his friend.
"Did you hit your head somewhere, Lix? We literally can't touch anything, we're not made from the same stuff earth beings and their things are made of."- Hyunjin says, closing his scroll and looking at Felix again.
"Yeah, yeah I know. It was just a stupid question."- Felix says quickly.
"Are you sure?"- Hyunjin squints his eyes at him.
"Yeah, positive. Don't worry about it."- Felix smiles in hopes to get the other Cupid to not ask any further questions since Cupids weren't really capable of lying.
"Eh, alright."- Hyunjin shrugs, opening up his scroll again and Felix sighs in relief. His friend was never one to pry information out of someone or ask incessant questions, which in this moment Felix is thankful for.
He's more than excited to see you again today, hoping you feel better than you did yesterday. He concentrates on your soul and aura, seeking you amongst the 8 billion souls on earth. As soon as he senses you he's transported into... the office bathroom? He's about to fly out because this is a breach of privacy but then he hears a familiar sniffle. There's no way you're crying in the office bathroom stall, is there? Felix slowly floats, looking for the source of the sound until he stops in front of the last door. He inhales and pushes himself through it, his eyes shut tightly. He slowly opens his eyes and squints, praying that you're not in some kind of compromising position.
You're not, you're just sitting on the closed toilet, your face in your hands and you're crying. Felix feels it again, the negative feelings drowning you in sorrow, one especially prominent. You feel excluded, invisible. Unimportant. Cupids don't really have a reason to cry usually, but Felix can feel your pain deeply with all of his being and his eyes water, golden sparkly tears sliding down his freckled cheeks. He reaches his hand towards you, trying to channel anything good through it, simultaneously fighting the bad feelings pushing him away. He knows he's not supposed to touch you or transfer any kind of light into you unless it's a dire soulmate situation but at this moment he doesn't care. He just doesn't want you to feel so sad and hurt so much. He places his palm on the top of your head, gently sliding it towards the back of your head and your head snaps up, your hand touching your hair where he just touched you.
Felix backs away immediately, pulling his hand to his chest as he panics, his big doe eyes wide as you look around in confusion. How did you feel that? You were only supposed to feel the light energy, but you actually felt his touch. Felix panics more when you reach towards him and he floats back out of the stall. Turns out you were just reaching for the door as you swung them open and hurried towards the sink.
Felix's heart beats hard in his chest, a strong fuzzy feeling shimmering in his insides, so dizzying to him that he doesn't even realize he floated right next to you. He gasps and looks at you but luckily you don't see him, you just splashed your face with water and you're looking at your reflection. He wonders what's happening to him, because a charge never made him feel like this nor did they feel him as you apparently did. He didn't even know who to ask about these things, and his friend Hyunjin seemed to know as much if not less than he does.
Felix throws that in the back of his mind for now, his main concern being; what or who made you cry at work? He follows you back to your cubicle and notices a few people gathered around another woman in the office, they're talking and throwing glances at you. Felix floats closer to listen in, even though he shouldn't really be doing that.
"Wow, Natasha, that ring really is beautiful."- one of the woman gushes as she speaks to the so called Natasha.
"I'm glad you're doing a bachelorette party."- one of them squeals.
"And I'm glad you didn't invite that weirdo. She seriously gives me the creeps."- another woman says, and Felix quickly realizes they're talking about you.
"Ugh, who cares about her. Let's talk about the party."- Natasha waves her hand and Felix feels something boiling in his blood, something he never felt before. Something that scares him and makes him wish he could do bad things to anyone who hurts you or makes you cry, but it quickly dissipates when he looks at your face. You look so dejected and he doesn't want you to think you're alone. He flies back to your cubicle and settles right next to you. And you're boiling. With sadness, anger and hurt, you're on the verge of exploding. Felix feels the push you're involuntarily making, pushing him and essentially pushing love away from you. Your aura is in the darker hues of blue and purple, swirling angrily. You stand up and as much as Felix wants you to stand up for yourself, he feels that you're not in the right state of mind and you might get yourself in trouble.
He quickly stands behind you, his hands hovering above your shoulders, scared now to actually touch you so you don't get spooked. He only hovers his hands above, as close to your skin as he can and sends some soothing light energy into your tense muscles. You relax visibly, the feelings of anger subsiding a little. You shake your head and sit down, deciding to ignore the bitches in your office because who really gives a damn about Natasha's wedding? You for sure don't so you go back to your work and Felix sighs behind you.
As you did yesterday, you continue working late into the night, leaving the building last again, crossing the creepy parking lot to your car and Felix follows closely like he did the day before. There's something different about your aura after that bout of anger you had in the office, something wilder brewing inside you. Felix can feel it and for some reason he doesn't recognize the feeling and he's left confused the whole way home as you drive, your hands gripping the wheel harshly.
You're calmer when you walk into your apartment and you do your nightly routine just like you did yesterday while Felix observes you patiently. You take a shower, he waits in the living room, he joins you for dinner and waits for you again in your room while you get ready for bed.
You lay down in your bed and the unfamiliar feeling that floated through you earlier is back. Felix struggles with it, he can't really comprehend the swirling he feels in his gut and he can't wrap his head around it being either a good or a bad feeling. He should leave but his curiosity gets the best of him, especially when you start making noises. Are you crying again?, Felix thinks and floats closer to you slowly only to realize in shock and horror that you're touching yourself.
He gasps, that feeling deep inside him stronger the closer he is to you and he feels like his insides are throbbing. Cupids don't exactly have a body they can touch but they know what sex is, after all that's part of relationships and love. And they also know they shouldn't be intruding on a private moment like this so Felix floats away towards the door, ignoring the fuzziness blurring his senses and vision. He tries to float through the door, the physical barriers never stopping him before, but his forehead collides hard with the door causing him to fall down on his butt, and he groans in pain. Pain? Since when do Cupids feel physical pain from impact like that?, he panics, his hand coming up to rub at his forehead.
"What the hell?"- he hears you say as you sit up and turn your lamp on, your eyes trained on the door. Felix guesses he made a lot of noise, again, and startled you, again.
"If there's a ghost in here now, you're sick!"- you yell out into the room and Felix looks up at you but luckily you don't seem to see him.
"Ugh, ghosts are scary."- he shivers, muttering to himself. You don't hear him, you sigh and lay back down, leaving the lamp on and opting to grab your phone. You open up Instagram, the mood you were in gone now.
Felix lifts up, dusting off the imaginary speckles of dust and glances at you again, feeling embarassed about this whole situation. He's confused about the door and how you managed to hear him smack into it. There's only one person he could ask about these happenings, and he's beyond nervous because of that.
"Hey Lix, how's it going?"- Changbin, one of the more experienced Cupids greets Felix as he makes his way to the Elders. Specifically, one he wants to talk to. Minho. For some reason, everyone is scared of him and there are rumours going around, rumours Felix doesn't even wanna think about because he gets scared easily.
"I- I need to talk to Minho."- Felix gulps and Changbin's smile falters.
"Oh? What for?"- he asks.
"It's personal. About my charge."- Felix answers.
"Ah, you got a tough one? Probably doesn't want to open their heart up for love, hm?"- Changbin wears a small smirk on his face as he plays around with the scroll he holds in his hands.
"Something like that, yeah."- Felix answers.
"You summoned me?"- there's a voice behind Felix and he shivers and turns around quickly, only to be greeted by a very pretty being, one that has sharp eyes and facial features but somehow there is softness underneath all that.
"Y-yes I did. I'm Felix."
"I know who you are. Tell me what you need."- the Elder called Minho talks calmly.
Felix turns to Changbin and he understands and shimmers away from them.
"Well, something weird is happening with my charge."- Felix says, clearing his throat.
"Weird how?"- Minho asks, the white light shining around him almost blinding Felix.
"I can feel her feelings, emotional and physical ones very strongly. So strongly that they managed to hurl me into her wardrobe and... and the door made noise. And then last night... I tried to float through her bedroom door and I banged my head into it."- Felix explains and he gets quieter and quieter as he talks, looking at Minho's face. The expressions Minho made during Felix's speech looked like he went through the five stages of grief in a few seconds.
"Has she heard you or seen you yet?"- Minho asks sternly and Felix is now scared for real.
"Yet? No, I mean no, she didn't. But she felt my touch. At least I think she did."- he mutters the last part.
Minho pinches the bridge of his nose, a long sigh coming out of his mouth.
"Someone screwed up. Again."- he says, annoyed.
"W-what do you mean?"- Felix feels like he's about to cry.
"Okay listen, just keep watching over your charge like you normally would. Create a link with her and infiltrate her dreams, fill them up with love. I'll talk to the others and we'll see what we can do. You just keep doing what you're doing. And don't be scared."- Minho places his hand on Felix's shoulder gently, in hopes of calming the young Cupid down. But nothing about Felix is calm in this moment.
It must be something big if Minho didn't tell him what's happening and he's asking to meet the other Elders. Something seriously bad is happening and Felix can't help but panic. In that moment of distress, he suddenly yearns to be by your side, the sweet scent of your aura, of you enveloping him and caressing him from the inside out. Felix opens his eyes and he's transported into your room. He didn't mean to do that and it startles him, he merely had a thought about you and he was suddenly there.
It's morning in the earth realm, way past your time to go to work but you're still in bed. It must be your day off or the weekend, Felix reckons. He hovers over your sleeping form and looks at you. Your aura is peaceful right now, the blues and purples leaning more to the pastel hues, and a slight silver shimmer between them swirling and dancing slowly. You must be having a good dream, Felix thinks as he smiles and reaches his hand towards you. He knows he shouldn't but he can't help himself. His palm rests on your cheek, and a buzzing feeling goes through him. A feeling he knows too well.
He gasps, retracting his hand as you stir in your sleep. Did you feel it too? His touch? The buzzing, the one that Felix always feels when a charges soulmate is near by. He couldn't believe it, he suddenly felt the other soul binded to you. But it was weird, like it's so close, almost like it's part of him. Something washes over him, a kind of melancholy and he doesn't know what to do with it. Sparkly tears brim at his eyes for a reason unknown to him and you're finally awake.
Your eyes flutter open and you stare straight at Felix, your sleep covered eyes boring into his wide ones. You freeze and he freezes too, his brain short-circuiting at the moment.
"What in the-" - you start and he shimmers away as fast as he can. There's no way. There's no freaking way you just saw him. He hopes he was fast enough so you'd think you were still dreaming. He shimmers back into his realm and accidentally bumps into Hyunjin hard, throwing him off balance.
"Woah! Felix?"- Hyunjin looks at him wide-eyed. "How did you do that?"- he asks.
"Do what?"- Felix's panic spreads wider inside him.
"You pushed me. How did you push me?"- Hyunjin looks confused.
"I- I don't know. I can't explain it right now, I just need to talk to Minho."
"You can't. The Elders are having a meeting. It's something serious by the look of it. Even The Great Source Of Light is attending the meeting. You know it's something bad when they're there."- his fellow Cupid explains.
"Oh my god!"- Felix cries, tears streaming down his cheeks and his friend gasps.
"Oh! You're crying! Why are you crying?"- Hyunjin flails both his arms and wings. He's never seen his fellow Cupids cry like this, especially not the always smiling Felix.
"I can't tell you. I need to go!"- Felix shuts his eyes tightly, concentrating on you again. He hears Hyunjin shouting his name, but it's too late, Felix is transported into your apartment again.
Only this time, it's the living room and you're sitting on the couch, talking to someone on the phone.
"I'm telling you it looked real. He was like some kind of angel. But like Barbie pink version."- you say and Felix accidentally chuckles. He covers his mouth fast but you didn't seem to hear him behind you. He slowly circles the couch to stand in front of you but you look through him.
"Well alright then my dreams are vivid as always. He was kinda cute tho."- you giggle and Felix feels warmness spreading in his face and chest.
"Sure, sure I need to get laid. According to you."- you laugh into the speaker, playing with the hem of your shirt, your legs tucked under one of the decorative pillows on your couch.
"Okay, let me know when you find a normal one."- you chuckle again. "I'll see you soon then. Bye!"
You hang up and shake your head, thinking to yourself that you've really gone mad if you started hallucinating like that. You get up and make your way to your room and Felix follows behind you silently, his senses buzzing again. You open up your closet and start sifting through your dresses. Felix heats up when he realizes you're about to undress. He turns around fast, closing his eyes, trying to be respectful even though there's a strong pull inside him telling him to just turn back around to face you. But he fights it and stays with his back turned to you.
When he's sure you're dressed he whips back around and his eyes land on you, dressed in a pretty dress and checking yourself in the mirror.
"Oh."- Felix gasps, his chest fluttering. He's never seen you dressed like that and his senses start buzzing even more. He's dizzy suddenly so he moves away from you, into the living room. He doesn't want to risk bumping into something or you seeing him again even though he has no idea what actually triggered that.
You finish getting ready and head out, Felix floating behind you. It's a beautiful sunny day and you walk to the park near your house, where your best friend waits for you.
"Y/n!"- Jisung waves at you, getting up from the bench he was sitting on and opening up his arms.
"Sungie!"- you yell back and close the distance, returning the hug.
Felix's lips fall open, and he feels something stirring inside him, something kind of uncomfortable at the sight of you hugging another man like that. You and Jisung part and start walking down the path together. Felix hurries up behind you, trying to put his hand on Jisung's shoulder so he can feel his soul. Jisung's aura is invisible to Felix, since he's not his charge but he can still 'read' his soul only if he manages to make the connection.
"So, how did your date go?"- you ask your friend.
"Which date? The one on Wednesday or the one last night?"- he smirks and you chuckle, smacking his arm and unkowingly startling your Cupid.
"Which ever one was better... or more eventful."- you wiggle your eyebrows.
"Honestly, they were both a snooze. This guy last night almost bored me to death. I'm beginning to think I'll never find my soulmate."- Jisung sighs. Felix's hand is almost on his shoulder.
"Aww, don't say that. I believe that you of all people will actually find your soulmate."- you say.
"I don't see it, unless Cupid personally comes down to earth and finds someone for me."- Jisung jokes and Felix freezes and retracts his hand.
Why did he say that? Did he actually believe in Cupid? Or was he just saying it?
You reach your favorite diner, and Felix manages to float through the door this time while following you. He stands behind your friend's chair as you chat and order, his hands hovering above Jisung's shoulder. He finally places them down, little lights forming from them as he tries to feel around for that familiar buzz and warmness.
But, nothing happens. Jisung doesn't flinch, you keep talking and laughing, and there is no buzz or warmness or love. At least not that kind, Felix can feel that Jisung cares about you as a friend but he isn't your soulmate and Felix feels relieved. Why is he relieved?! He's supposed to find your soulmate, that's his only purpose! He feels confused suddenly, thoughts swirling inside him and he decides - tonight will be the night he will try to infiltrate your dreams.
Felix waits for you to fall asleep instead of shimmering away this evening. When he's sure you're entering deeper into your dreams, he floats closer to you and hovers over you. He places his hands above your head and closes his eyes, concentrating on your energy. Little particles of light shine out of his hands onto your face, warming you up and creating the link your Cupid needs to basically transport himself into your mind.
You're dreaming, at least you think you are but it feels real. More real than any other dream you had before. You're in a field that seems to stretch forever, it's warm and sunny, you're surrounded by beautiful flowers but there's something different about them, different than flowers you see in real life. They're glowing, you realize. The light on their petals glimmers into million different colors, you've never seen anything like it.
"Pretty, isn't it?"- you hear a deep voice behind you and you whip around fast, but you're met with more flowers and grass.
"Who's there? Show yourself!"- you say.
"Not yet."- the voice says. "I don't want to spook you."
"Who are you?"- you ask.
"I'm... someone who's trying to help you open up your heart to love."- the voice reckons.
"Oh? I don't think my heart's closed though."
"Then why do you feel so lonely?"
"Ouch! That's none of your business!"- you feel slightly annoyed at the voice, but this is also just a dream so it must be your subconscious.
"Actually, that is exactly my business-"
"Honestly, I feel crazy talking to a void. Just come out from wherever you're hiding."- you hear a deep sigh and then you see a blinding light. Your arms come up to shield your eyes as you wait for the flickering to subside. When you put your arms down, you come face to face with a beautiful creature. You've never seen anyone as pretty as this creature is, they're practically glowing, their pretty pink wings shimmering and moving lightly as they hover over the ground.
"Hey, I know you!"- you say suddenly, pointing at him and waving your finger. "I saw you this morning when I opened my eyes. Oh my god, I am going crazy. I've conjured up some kind of pretty man in my dreams! You are a man, right?"
"Ugh, well, I'm not technically human. But for humans I am male presenting. I'm actually-" - Felix doesn't get to finish his sentence, he's suddenly forcefully thrown out of your mind.
The link is broken, why? Felix opens his eyes and you're awake. It's still night so why did you wake up? He floats away from you, giving you space as he sees you fumbling for your night lamp.
You turn the light on, your hand coming up to rest on your forehead. The connection must've been too much for you that it caused you a headache and that's why you woke up. Your Cupid feels bad that he caused you pain so he comes closer to you again, lifting his hands up over your hair to take the pain away. His light heals you and the pressure that was throbbing inside your head and behind your eyelids is suddenly gone. You go back to sleep feeling exhausted and confused about your dream even though you couldn't remember the details of it. Felix decides to stay next to you tonight.
It's been a few weeks, and the Elders haven't said a word about their meeting or Felix's 'situation' to him. He was still scared and panicky but he tried to stay calm for the sake of his charge - you, who he had to help find love. He tried to ignore the constant buzzing he felt whenever he got closer to you, but it was consuming him and making him feel weaker. Like his powers were harder to call upon, and he had no idea how you or the soul binded to you were doing that. Speaking of that soul, he had yet to find them and he tried to 'read' every single person interacting with you, but every time the reading came up blank.
Tonight, Felix decided to appear in your dreams again and try to make the dream longer so you could have a proper conversation.
You find yourself on the pretty field again, those wondrous flowers glowing beautifully around you.
"Hello?"- you say, looking around the now familiar place.
"I'm here."- the deep voice says and you turn around towards it.
"Indeed you are."- you chuckle. "I must be crazy."
"I assure you, you're not. Let me properly introduce myself. My name is Felix, and I am... well I'm your Cupid."- he says and you look at him in disbelief before you burst out into laughter, startling the poor creature.
"Okay, this is just a dream."- you shake your head.
"Yes, it is."
"At least I'm not hallucinating in real life."- you say.
"I've come to talk to you. I'm having some problems in finding the soul binded to you. I feel them close but I can't find them. It must mean that your heart is closed off to love."
"Is that like a soulmate?"- you play along this illusion you created in your head, when in fact you know you're just talking to yourself.
The glowing creature nods.
"What if I don't have one?"- you ask.
"Nonsense! Everyone has a soulmate."
"Even you?"
"I am just a messenger of love."- Felix shakes his head.
"Maybe I'm not meant for love. Maybe I'm an exception and I don't have a soulmate or whatever."- you sigh and Cupid floats closer to you.
"Is that how you feel? Undeserving of love?"
"Are you going all psychological on me?"- you chuckle, he's now closer to you and you feel warmth radiating from the light around him.
"Well, I need to know what's stopping you from finding love."
"I don't want to talk about this anymore."- you say, your mood sour suddenly and Felix feels it.
"Okay, we can talk about anything else."- he smiles at you.
"Don't you have somewhere else to be? Aren't you supposed to help people find love?"
"I am one of many."- Felix chuckles. "I'm supposed to be right here now. With you."
You're about to talk but your alarm blasts next to your ear and you realize you're waking up. The pretty field, flowers, sunshine and Cupid disappear into oblivion and you wake up in your room. The clock is showing 6:30am and you have to get ready for work. You have a warm feeling inside you and you feel like you just came from somewhere, some happy place and you're trying to grasp it again. You hate when you forget your dreams like that, but it must've been a good one because you're feeling more positive than you usually do.
Jisung calls you that evening, all excited about finding you the perfect date. He's been yapping about his coworker, Chan, for days, trying to get you to go out with him.
"Just take a risk. It's one date, what do you have to lose? If you don't like him just ghost him or something."
"Because that's very nice to do, Jisung."- you roll your eyes even though he can't see you over the phone and he laughs.
"Look, maybe it will just be some nice dick, but god knows you need that anyways."
"Oh my god!"- you laugh. "Alright then, I'll go out with him."
"Yes!"- you can imagine Jisung jumping up and down in excitement. "Wear that pretty black dress you have!"
And you do, you wear the dress, you put your heels on, you even put a little more makeup than you usually do and Felix watches.
He seethes in jelaousy, he recognizes it now, it's something Cupids aren't supposed to feel but he does. He wants you to make yourself this pretty for him, only for him. He knows it's the highest rule he's breaking but he can't help it, he's fallen in love with you.
You really don't have high expectations out of tonight, having been disappointed in people again and again. So you're surprised when Chan turns out not only handsome and funny but a real gentleman and someone you can actually have an intelligent conversation with. But you're cautious and don't want to jump to conclusions, or start anything serious.
That's why you decide to let go for the night, after a few encouraging drinks in your system, you invite Chan over to your place. You haven't been touched in so long, you forgot how good it feels to have someone kiss you as passionately as he does. You forgot how it feels to have gentle hands on your skin, worshipping you, laying you down on your bed.
Glowing golden tears slide down Felix's cheeks as he watches from the corner of the room. He knows Chan's not your soulmate, he linked to his soul back at the restaurant you had dinner at. And while he sensed that Chan was a good man, he still didn't want him anywhere near you. Felix still wants to give you privacy, but the buzzing and fuzziness clouding his senses don't let him move his wings or shimmer. He feels paralyzed and all he can do is turn his back to the bed, forced to listen to your pleasure, your strained moans, short breaths, your wetness caused by the man touching you and kissing you, the way you kept chanting his name.
Felix wishes to disappear, but at the same time his gut is stirring and he feels shame wash over him. He shuts his eyes tight, ignoring all the feelings brewing inside him, and suddenly he feels like he's being pulled up. He almost screams in fear but when he opens his eyes, he realizes he's back in his realm. Minho is glowing as he stands in front of him and Felix, still out of breath, slightly bows to his Elder.
"Felix."- Minho says and the Cupid gulps.
"Your powers are weakening fast, even as we speak."
"What's happening to me?"- Felix asks, fresh sparkly tears spilling out his eyes, lips quivering.
"You're losing your powers. You're becoming human, Felix."- Minho announces and Felix gasps.
"H-how is that possible?"- he's shivering now.
"I can't tell you yet. You need to find out on your own. Go back to your charge."
"B-but she's-"
"Go to her. Don't be afraid. Everything will be fine, Cupid."- Minho waves his hands towards Felix, little sparkly clouds coming out of them, soothing the Cupid's pain as much as he can.
"I can't shimmer."- Felix shakes his head, shaking a little.
"Just try to focus on your charge's energy and you'll be transported."- Minho says and Felix tries again, he senses you but he can't move.
"Hyunjin!"- Minho summons the other Cupid and he appears next to them. He takes in the state of his friend, shaking and tears still streaming down his cheeks. He's never seen him this weak or this sad.
"What's wrong?"- Hyunjin's brows furrow.
"He can't shimmer. Help him, just bring him to his charge, he'll show you the way."- Minho explains.
Hyunjin grabs Felix's hands gently and they both close their eyes, communicating with their minds, Felix sending his emotions and your soul's energy to Hyunjin. They manage to shimmer into your living room and Felix looks around. It's obviously the next day after that date, since time goes by differently in different realms.
"Hey, whatever happens, everything will be okay in the end, you know?"- Hyunjin smiles sympathetically at Felix, gently putting his hand on his friend's cheek.
"How do you know that?"- Felix's bottom lip quivers. "Do you know something I don't?"- he asks, vision blurry from tears. Hyunjin wipes them off.
"I don't. But I trust the Elders know what they're doing. And so does The Great Source Of Light. They would never harm us or anyone else for that matter."- Hyunjin reassures him.
"You really think that?"- Felix sniffles.
"I do. You'll be fine, my friend."- Hyunjin pats his head and shimmers away. Felix looks around again and you're not in the living room. He hears rummaging in your kitchen and he hopes and prays that Chan isn't still here. He wipes his tears away, trying to come to his senses, and you walk out of the kitchen towards your sofa.
You look up and freeze.
"What the fuck?!"- you squeal, grabbing the nearest object to you, which was just a decorative pillow in the shape of a flower and hurl it into the intruder standing next to your tv. Felix gasps, lifting his arms up to cover his face and the pillow flies right through him, a few particles of light dispersing around him as the pillow hits the wall with a thud.
"Okay, what the hell is this?!"- you say, obviously panicked and trying to pinch yourself so you wake up cause there's no way this is real.
"Don't hurt me!"- the 'intruder' speaks in a deep voice that's somehow familiar to you.
"What are you? What is happening?!"- you panic, half hiding behind your sofa. "Are you a ghost?"
"Ghosts are scary."- the creature shakes his head and comes closer. You squint your eyes, moving back a little, before realization dawns on you.
"I know you!"- you wave your finger at him and Felix feels a sense of deja vu. "You appear in my dreams. You talk to me. In some field with weird flowers."
"How do you remember that?"- he gasps. His powers must be really weakening.
"I remember a lot of my dreams. I don't remember what we talk about though. Am I going crazy and hallucinating right now? Talking to myself?"- you ask.
"No, I'm real."- the creature says.
You don't feel threatened for some reason so you come closer to him. Warmth radiates off of him and he looks ethereally beautiful up close. His hair is long and blonde, eyes dark but sparkles swim inside them, eyelashes long, freckles adorning his face, some of them in the shape of little hearts, even his upper lip is shaped like a heart. He glows, his pink shiny wings moving ever so slightly as he hovers above the ground just a little, before he plants his feet down on your carpet.
You reach your hand towards him, something pulling you closer to him and Felix stays completely still as he feels that buzzing again. His soul vibrates as your fingertips touch his ever so slightly and his eyes flutter. You gasp, only feeling electrifying warmness when you touch him, not actual skin like you would if you were touching a human.
"W-what are you?"- you whisper.
"I'm a Cupid. One of many. I was sent to help you find your soulmate."- he says and you laugh in disbelief, much like you did in your dream.
"I should call a doctor and get my head checked."- you sigh, sitting down on your sofa. Felix joins you reluctantly, almost shyly, and you eye him.
"I'm telling you, you're not crazy, this is real. It's just that you're not supposed to see me. But somehow you can."- he says.
"And why's that?"- you ask.
"I don't know. The Elders do. But they never told me anything, they said I should find out on my own."- the Cupid explains.
"The Elders?"- you play along to the madness.
"Yeah. Ugh, they're like beings of light like us, but like upper level. They take care of everything, keep the balance of Good in the world. All the positive feelings and such."- the Cupid explains.
"So is your name Cupid or?"- you say, trying to wrap your head around what's happening right now.
"No, my name's Felix."- he says.
"Okay then, Felix."- you emphasize his name and his chest flutters, some kind of vibrating wave washing over him. "How are you supposed to help me find my soulmate?"
"Well, I watched you and got to know you... and I'm supposed to feel the soul-"
"Wait, wait. You watch me? Isn't that kinda creepy?"- you stop him.
"N-no, it's literally what I'm supposed to do! Or it was, at least. I never intruded on your personal moments. I mean, not on purpose."- Felix says, looking away from you.
"What do you mean not on purpose?"
"I couldn't shimmer while you were here with your date last night. But I was summoned by the Elders anyways."
"Shimmer?"
"It's how Cupids transport through realms."- he explains, and you shake your head, your brows lifting up in disbelief.
"So you just watched me have sex?"
Felix cringes, the feelings stirring inside him last night threatening to resurface again.
"No, I didn't! I turned away. And just so you know, Chan is not your soulmate."
You scoff at him and grab your phone.
"Okay, I've had enough of this craziness. I'm gonna call the only person I trust, and if he can see you then you're real."- you nod to yourself.
"Jisung?"- Felix asks and you roll your eyes at him.
"You know eeeeverything about me, now do you?"- you say before Jisung picks up. You tell him it's an emergency and to come over asap.
And he does, just 10 minutes later, he's walking through your door.
"Come, I need to show you something."- you say grabbing his arm and pulling him into your living room.
"Where is the damn emergency?"- Jisung whines.
"There."- you point at Felix, who's standing next to the sofa now. "Do you see him?"
"You mean the pretty man with pink wings that's floating in your living room? Yeah I do and what the actual fuck?"- Jisung asks, his eyes widdened in shock.
"This is Cupid. One of many, as he says. His name is Felix and he's here to help me find love."- you sigh and Jisung laughs, shaking his head. "And since you can see him, either he's real or we're sharing a hallucination."
"I can't believe your ass was so lonely that you got your own personal Cupid to help you date."- Jisung jokes and you smack his head.
"Not funny!"- you say.
"Actually, you have your own personal Cupid too."- Felix chimes in.
"I do?"- Jisung's eyes widden again, his hand still rubbing where you smacked him.
"Everyone does."- Felix nods.
"So why can we see you?"- Jisung asks.
"I don't know. I don't know why any of this is happening. It all started when I accidentally swung the lamp and hit the wardrobe door-"
"That was you?"
"Yeah, and I'm not supposed to be able to influence physical stuff in the earth realm like that. I'm only made of light."- Felix explains.
"Okay then, you obviously need help. Since you can't shimmer or whatever, and people can see you, you have to stay here while I'm out. I mean people would probably be weirded out if they saw a guy with wings floating around me all day."- you chuckle and Felix nods, some kind of turmoil swirling in his chest.
"Shimmer?"- Jisung asks.
"Don't ask."- you say and Felix suddenly feels dizzy, he grabs at his chest, vibration going through his body.
"Felix?"- you tilt your head as you turn back to him.
He's buzzing even more now, little particles of light dispersing constantly around him.
"What's happening to him?!"- Jisung panics getting up and trying to get closer to the Cupid, only to be blinded by light.
Both of you lift your hands up to shield your eyes, and you hear some kind of little explosions like fireworks all around you.
The lights are so bright that you can see them under your closed eyelids.
You hear a thud and the lights disappear so you finally open your eyes. Felix is laying on the floor, seemingly unconscious and both you and Jisung rush to him.
You place your hand on Felix's shoulder and try to shake him only to realize you can actually feel him like he was made of flesh, not only the warmness and electricity that went through your palm earlier.
Felix is slowly waking up and he can hear Minho summoning him, at the same time he feels your hand on him, he feels the floor beneath him and he panics. He's pulled up suddenly, the action hurting him, his now human body screaming with pain.
"Felix."- he hears Minho's warm voice.
"What happened?"- Felix asks, slowly opening his eyes, all the light and swirling clouds that he was surrounded by every day of his existence suddenly making him naseous, intensifying the headache behind his eyelids.
"You're almost completely human. Have you realized why you're turning human?"- Minho asks and Felix shakes his head no.
Minho pinches the bridge of his nose, sighing in annoyance.
"Think about it. The buzzing you feel when you're close to your charge."
Felix thinks, despite the horrible aches going through his body, he tries hard to think about everything he knows. He gasps as realization dawns on him.
"I'm- I'm her soulmate?"- he says, his chest beating now and he clutches at it, realizing he now has a heart pumping blood through him.
"Finally!"- Minho chuckles.
"But how is that possible? Cupids aren't supposed to fall in love, especially not with mortals."- Felix recites the rule he learned the first day he opened his eyes.
"Well, someone screwed up. As you know, us Elders deal with good souls too, we help them reincarnate or pass on into different existences. Cupids souls are the souls of people who are done with their life on earthly realms, promoting them to a higher state of being. I mean, not only Cupids, but also Muses for inspiration, Sandman for dreams and many other light beings. The point is, your soul was supposed to be reincarnated as your charge's soulmate. But instead someone accidentally reincarnated you into a Cupid. Still, the pull of love is stronger than anything, travelling through realms and your soulmate ended up as your charge just so you can find love in each other. Weird how destiny works, but that is yours."- Minho explains and Felix just stares at him, the overwhelming amount of information seemingly suffocating him.
"Wh-what about my powers... My other charges..."
"Your charges have been divided between different Cupids, so don't worry about that. Your powers are actually what I wanted to talk to you about. They were one with you since the day you started existing, connected to your emotions so it will take some time for them to completely disappear. The transition will be hard but it will be worth it."
"B-but... what if she doesn't love me?"- Felix asks weakly.
"Oh, she already does. After all, she's your soulmate too."- Minho smiles, seemingly glowing even brighter than before.
"So what do I do now?"
"I will send you back to the earth realm. This is goodbye, former-Cupid. You did a great job helping people find love. It's your turn now to find yours."- Minho says beckoning Felix's friends to come closer. Hyunjin and Changbin float closer to Felix, both of them with golden tears sparkling in their eyes, threatening to spill out.
"You'll be fine, Felix. You deserve to feel love."- Hyunjin smiles at his friend and Changbin agrees.
Felix tries to hug them, but all he feels is the warmness of the light particles they're made of as they embrace him. It's enough for him to feel the love they hold.
"Shimmer him to his love."- is the last thing Felix hears before everything goes black.
It has been three weeks exactly since Felix disappeared and appeared again in your living room, without his wings, unconscious and running a high fever.
You and Jisung carried him to your bed when he appeared, unsure if you should call an ambulance or not. Jisung remembered that Chan's close to a doctor who's really good at what he does but you felt awkward since you never contacted him again after that night. He was still happy to help, holding no grudges against you and his doctor friend welcomes you to his ordination the same day.
You can't really explain the whole situation to the doctor lest he deems you crazy, but even with the little information you give to him, he takes care of Felix.
"Hm."- doctor Yang muses, staring at the papers in his hands. "He just has a fever, while all his other vitals are fine. It's just like he's burning up from the inside, like there's some kind of light or fire inside him."
Even after running all the possible tests, the doctor couldn't find the source of Felix's state, but you know it's gonna take more than any kind of human medicine to make him better.
And now it's been three weeks, Felix is falling in and out of consciousness, and you've tried everything and anything you could think of. Jisung's been helping you take care of him, and you've had time to think. Your heart ached for Felix, seeing him on the brink between life and death, holding on by a thread.
In the mean time, you decide to say fuck it and quit your job. It's not what you wanted to do originally anyways, you just had to pay bills like everyone else so you settled. But, after finding out about Cupids, Elders and whatnot, your earthly problems and concerns seemed kind of nonsensical. Life is so much greater than you thought it was, there is meaning in it, there is love and destiny and soulmates.
That's why you feel connected to Felix, in a way, he was excluded too, something you felt every single day of your life, especially at work. He was cut off from the only life he knew, he had no family or friends, no past on Earth, at least not in this life. You feel like you want to protect him in any way you can.
"Sungie, I'm worried. His breathing is really shallow."- you say, placing your hand on Felix's forehead.
Jisung is silent for a few moments, deep in thought.
"Jisung?"- you tilt your head at him.
"You know what I've been thinking? Since he is - well was Cupid, and he's made of light and love... wouldn't a true love's kiss make him better?"- Jisung suggests.
"Have you been reading fairytales?"- you chuckle.
"Cupid is kind of a fairytale though, isn't he? Or a myth, rather. I don't know, just think about it."
"That's so cliché though."- you shake your head in disbelief.
"Cliché or not, it could be the only way to help him."
That evening, you're alone with Felix and thinking about what your friend said earlier. It couldn't hurt to try, right? You got nothing to lose.
You get up from the couch that you've been sleeping on ever since Felix fell ill, and make your way to your room. He's laying on his back, his breathing fast and shallow, beads of sweat running down his forehead. You sit on the bed, nervousness suddenly washing over you and making your heart beat faster in your chest.
"Felix?"- you try like many times before, but to no avail. Your eyes water and you're afraid. If this doesn't work, he may not have much more time. The thought of that creates an empty hole in your stomach.
You lean in closer to his face and slowly press your lips on his. They're chapped but still soft and you feel something hit you, leaving you out of breath. Thousands of years of love, his soul that was binded to you since the beginning, stretching into forever, taking different shapes, nationalities, species. You may have even been two rocks on a shore when Earth first came into existence. You know him, you know his lips, you know his love.
You hear fireworks much like that day in the living room and you quickly pull back. Little lights are exploding around Felix and he opens his eyes.
"Y-y/n?"- he says weakly, his voice deep and raspy as he squints his eyes at you. The little lights from the fireworks disperse around you both.
"Felix?!"- you gasp. You can't believe it actually worked! Jisung is a damn genius, you think, smiling at Felix.
"W-what-"
"It's okay."- you touch his forehead and his fever seems to be subsiding quickly. "You have to drink some water."
Felix just nods, feeling completely confused and out of it. You grab a water bottle and help him drink.
"Oh, that's better."- he says. "What happened?"
"You were kind of unconscious for three weeks. Jisung and I took care of you. I thought you... I thought you wouldn't make it."- you say, your stomach swirling with many different emotions.
"How did you make me better then?"- he asks and your face warms up.
"I- ugh- I kissed you."- you declare and Felix's eyes widden, his cheeks rosy.
"Oh."- he looks away and awkwardness settles between you both as you have no idea what to do or say.
Felix's stomach suddenly grumbles making you chuckle as he gasps and grabs at it.
"I guess you're fully human now."- you say. "Let's go eat something."- you reach your hands towards him.
He grabs them, wobbling on his feet and you help him steady himself. After not using his legs for 3 weeks, he still feels weak and fuzzy even though your kiss basically healed him.
"My wings!"- he realizes suddenly. "They're gone!"
"Actually, they were gone as soon as you were brought back from your realm."- you tell him and he doesn't answer, seemingly deep in thought.
You decide not to pry with any questions as you both settle in the kitchen, he'll tell you what's on his mind when he's ready.
You whip up some instant noodles and bring two bowls to the table. Felix doesn't wait, he starts digging in with his chopsticks right away.
"Woah, woah, wait a little or you'll get burned."- you warn him, gently grabbing his hand.
His face flushes as he looks at you sheepishly.
"Sorry."- he mumbles.
"It's okay."- you smile at him. "You have lots of things to get used to."
When he does try the food, his eyes widden comically, lips falling open.
"Oh wow, this is so good! Must be food for gods."- he gasps.
"Thank you, but it's just instant noodles."- you chuckle. He smiles a little and continues eating as thoughts swirl around his head.
Now that he's completely human, everything he knew before and everyone he cared about was gone. Everything he ever was just evaporated, his powers, his wings, his duties. And even though he knows you're his soulmate, and you're bound to fall in love with him like he fell in love with you, he was still scared. If you didn't want him, he'd have nowhere to go.
"What's on your mind?"- you ask Felix after dinner, as you both sit on your couch.
"Well... I basically don't exist in this realm. I don't have a family, not even a last name. No one, but you I guess."- he sighs shyly.
"I know it's not the same, but I kind of of have no one except Jisung and well you either. I'm not really close to my family anymore."
"But the pictures-"
"Are old. They didn't agree with my choices and they didn't care for me when I was down. Jisung was there for me at my lowest so he's more like family to me than my actual one."- you say.
"I understand. It's just that... I'm scared."- Felix looks away from you.
"Of what?"
"I know we're soulmates but I'm afraid you wont see me the way I see you and then I'll truly have no one."- he says quietly. You chuckle, making him look up at you.
"You know what I felt when I kissed you?"- you ask and he shakes his head.
"I felt like I've known you for a thousand years. Like I loved you for a thousand years."- his lips tremble. "I've always been kind of a dreamer when it comes to love. But after being with wrong people I stopped believing. In soulmates, destiny, Cupids and whatnot. But kissing you tonight changed everything."
"Do you maybe want to try that again?"
Instead of answering verbally you start leaning in towards him slowly, your eyes travelling to his plump lips. Felix's heart starts beating hard against his chest as he leans in too. Your heart matches the beating of his as his breath hits your lips. He meets you halfway, your lips pressing together and you place your hands on his cheeks gently. You start moving your lips and he's stunned for a moment before he follows your lead. And suddenly, he feels all of it. All the precious moments of love you shared in your past lives. The purpose of his existence, he realizes as his soul buzzes is to love you. You smile into the kiss and he knows everything will be just fine.
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