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Blog Post #13

Well, it's been a while since I last posted and I'm just going to say that nothing has changed. K is still confusing as ever and I've been feeling that we're kinda getting closer? I'm just assuming that we are because in the past few days, okay wait it started last week before Easter break. Nagkasabay kami sa train station, I mean not really nagkasabay kasi he was not far behind me. Naiwan kasi ako ng train nun so I had no choice but to wait for the other train. So eto nga nasa train station ako, nakaupo ako sa isang bench dun and I noticed that my shoelace was undone so I fixed it, then I saw white shoes walking in front of me and that was when I heard him talk so I looked up at him. Ohmagawd, I didn't expect him to start a conversation with me sheytt first time yun and it somehow made me happy. He was sitting next to me but there was a big vacant spot in between us pero talaga I'm so stupid kasi I'm the type of person that struggles to keep a conversation going like I don't even know how to keep socializing and I'm angry at myself. So yun nag-end yung conversation namin.

Next naman ay yung bagong crush ko whom I call M here and I must say, why does he have to be so handsome that lagi siyang napapaligiran ng mga babae?? Like seriously! Tapos ang dami pang nagkakagusto sakanya, hala ano na? Ang dami kong ka-competition. Parang may mas high chance pang magkagusto si M dun sa mga babaeng yun kaysa sakin kasi mas nakakasama nila siya kasi same classes and then there is me, just looking from a far. He's so out of my league. Ang sadd hayysss.

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180318

Blog Post #12

Honestly, I don’t even know anymore. I’m getting confusing everyday. K is very confusing, no one even knows how to tell if he likes someone. Although, I found out that if you talk to him first then he’ll start talking to you but as if I can talk to him first. Hindi kaya ako magaling dun. I can’t even keep a conversation going. Hindi ko nga alam sa sarili ko kung bakit nagkakagusto ako sa mga introverted na mga lalake.

There’s M naman. I chatted him once on Snapchat and he was pretty chill, we chatted about volleyball, the one thing we have in common though our conversation ended quickly. He’s like K but when I chat K, he always keeps the conversation going and he’s quite friendly though kay M, not really pero friendly rin naman siya.

Pero talaga I feel like wala akong chance sakanila. We have lots of things in common but it just doesn’t work out when it comes in communication. Kung ganun, should I start falling for people opposite their personality? Sabi nga nila “Opposites Attract.” Haha pero wala pa kong nafafall sa ganun.

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180221

Blog Post #11

So today, I got to spend more time with him 😍😍 but only with friends ☹️ pero okay lang kasi nakasama ko pa rin siya 😂 Pag-wednesday na lang ako umaasa na makakahang-out ko siya kasi we have free zone at the same time 😆

Kanina, pumunta ako ng library kasi free zone ko. Unexpectedly, nandun si A with Idyll then nakiupo ako sakanila so I was across A and to my right was Idyll. What happened is, biglang dumating si K and he sat with us. He then sat on the vacant seat sa left ko making him sitting across Idyll. So yeah nag-study kami, like mga few minutes after he arrived, umalis muna si Idyll so kaming tatlo na lang yung nasa table. Ang nangyari nun, A was making eye contact to me tas parang tinuturo si K then he suddenly said “Catherine said you’re hot” then I was about to respond when K spoke “Yeah, I know I’m hot” then biglang siyang nag-smile then looked at me pero nag-look away siya nung narealise niyang tumingin din ako sakanya. Omggg I was so shook 😂 Okay other part is, 2 of our friends arrived. The first guy sat between K and me tas yung other guy, he sat between A and Idyll. So what happened is A started asking me about what I got for the maths test 😑 like I already told him what it is then dumagdag yung guy beside me and K, tinanong din yung score ko pero nasabi rin naman na sakanya 😑 nasa maths class ko kaya yun tsk then yun I had to say it...infront of K. He was actually laughing when I told A and the guy between K and me that I already told them.😂

Next part is nung palabas ako ng building para makauwi na and outside he was with M then when I walked past them, M suddenly hit K on the stomach lightly then smiled at me HAHAHAH ang funny tbh 😂😂

Next part, Train station! Kasabay niya dumating si A and another guy that I know. Nilapitan ako ni A kaya lumapit din sila sakin. Then we talked, I got to talk to him a bit too 😍 tapos nakasabay ko siya sa train with A kasi I followed A so I was behind him then K was behind me. Nauna akong pumasok ng train then they followed. There was no seat so I have to stand tapos si A nag-make siya ng space between us so makatabi ko si K and sheytt 😍 kinilig ako dun 😍but eventually A and him went near the exit tas he got off the train then binalikan ako ni A tapos yun kwinento niya sakin yung aso niya being found habang hinahatid niya ko sa bus stop then we talked until my bus came tapos umalis na siya. THE END.

P.S. Give up na po ako kay A kasi ang flirty niya and kasi nagkagusto ako kay K tas parang feeling ko pinapatulan ko yung mga kaibigan niya, that’s just weird. Lahat ng mga kaibigan niya boto sakin kay K so back to K whom my feelings never disappeared to.

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180215

Blog Post #10: Late Valentines Day Post.

So yesterday was Valentines Day and I must say it was a bitter but fun day hahaha. I didn’t really receive anything (like if someone will anyway) but I did receive a red rose pero hiningi ko lang siya and I think naawa lang sakin yun kaya niya ko binigyan hahahah! Anyways, siguro sadyang assuming lang talaga ako pero tingin ng tingin sakin si K yesterday. I mean ganito kasi yun.

I was walking to the toilet and I passed A, K and other people sitting on the bench underneath the stairs towards the 2nd floor. Hindi ko sila pinansin kaya dumeretso na lang ako ng tingin until paglabas ko, hindi ko pa rin sila pinapansin. So bumalik ako dun sa tambayan namin, nandun yung dalawang mag-jowa kong kaibigan and I wanted them to have their alone time kaya umalis na ko para sana pumunta ng library to study. When I got inside the building, nadaanan ko ulit sila kasi yung library nasa 2nd floor and I have to use the stairs above them but I got thirsty so I went down the stairs and went to the Cafe that was right next to the stairs to buy water. Nang-mabili ko na yung tubig ko, lumabas ako ng Cafe at aakyat na sana ako ng makita ko yung grupo nila A and K na umaakyat na papuntang library. A started to go upstairs and K was left behind but he soon went up too. Idyll was with them so I talked to her for a second then soon went up as well but nang-umakyat ako K was right behind me and A called out to me saying “Catherine! Bby girl?” Na-shock ako nung una and my heart was beating so fast but I nodded my head at him and I replied “Yeah..?” And then he said “Aye! You know it!” And then he went upstairs and I noticed K was like right behind him now, going upstairs too. He must’ve heard it omg. Waaahhh! I don’t even know anymore in love na kaya ako kay A?

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180211

Blog Post #9: A

So earlier this morning like at midnight, A and I chatted about school stuff but then when I said I was gonna do my homework when I get home, he then replied with a “WHERE ARE YOU?!” Omggg is he concerned?? Mukha ba siyang concerned dito?! Waahhh ayoko na huhuhu pakyu siya 😭😂

I’m wondering though, last year he likes S, a friend of his and myself and A always shows his feelings to her pero hindi ko alam kung hanggang ngayon may gusto pa siya kasi hindi ko naman na sila nakikitang naguusap o kaya hindi masyadong nagpapakita ng feelings si A towards S so I really don’t have a clue if he still likes her.

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180210

Blog Post #8: Last Night!!!

Yesterday was funnnn~ I went kbbq with friends but before we went to kbbq, we went to Churros first. After the kbbq though we went to Elizabeth Quay and wow! It was pretty with the different colour lights showing 😍

After we went home though, I was so sleepy but when I got home I was going to message A my English t.e.e.e.t.h. work but when I was getting my work from my bag, I was going to take a picture of it and send it to him but he already chatted me with a “Heyyyy” so I said “Heyyy” back then I said “So I haven’t done much so far” and then at the same time he said “I love you” omgggg 😍😍 tangina kinikilig ako! But when I just laughed at him he said “Oh that kinda hurt” putaaa 😍 then after that I sent the picture of my work and he said “Thank youuuuuu” then “Bby girl” fckkk 😍😍 though I replied a “hahahah 😂” and he said “Ouch” then “Just laughing at my feelings” pero I responded with “I’m sorry” then “Bby boy 😂” wtffff I just sent that as a joke man hahahahha 😂 then after that he said “OMG YOU SAID IT” but I replied a few hours later “Hahahah😂” putangina ang cute niya gago! Omgg staphh I cannot 😍 pakyu siya 😂

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180207

Blog Post #7: Crushiee 😍

Waaahhh! Naging kumpleto na yung araw ko! Nahawakan ko yung kamay niya omggg 😍 Thank you sa Kambal-kambalan ko na si J dahil pinahawak niya yung kamay ni Crushie sakin 😆 but actually kusa niyang kinuha yung kamay ko and he actually held it kyaahhh! He was practically holding my hand 😍 ang soft ng kamay niya and it was bigger than mine. Pero eto talaga eh, nung kukunin ko na yung kamay ko pero siya ayaw niyang bitawan 😆 Omgg I kennot, kinikilig ako 😍😍

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180205

Blog Post #6: Second Week of School!

It’s the second week of school and I must say that it’s really not that bad. Even though it started as exciting then turned into depressing so quickly hahaha. Meron kasing gwapo sa school, matangkad siya and someone told me he plays volleyball 😍 but though he’s really quiet and he rarely speaks. At first, I didn’t expect to find out his name because he wasn’t in any of my classes but then miracle happened and a friend of mine told me his name since they were classmates. I’m just going to put him here as M kasi yun ang start ng name niya 😍😂.

Yung lalakeng crush ko nga pala dati, he’s in the school I go to now. Bakit ko nga ba siya sinuggest na lumipat sa school ko tsk. Oh well, hindi ko naman siya nakikita often kaya it’s all g. Also, si K yung crush ko since Year 9. Hindi talaga ako maka-get over sakanya, he is so confusing ☹️. I don’t get him to be honest. I mean he does things like for example, tumitingin-tingin sakin pero sabi naman ng mga kaibigan ko na baka nagaassume lang ako huhuhu pero para talaga siyang tumitingin sakin, I swear. Basta meron ring iba but secret na lang yun hahaha.

Overall, the first week of school was not that bad. I’m still okay, I’m not dead yet hahahah. I haven’t used my brain to its extent yet hahahah.

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180131

Blog Post #5: SUPER BLUE BLOOD MOON!!

Yeahh boiii, the Super Blue Blood Moon was out tonight and I must say, I’m so mesmerised but kinda creeped out at the same time coz like ghosts or evil monsters might come out out of nowhere and just eat me whole or something hahaha XD

Overall, it was my first time seeing the rare super blue blood moon and it was really cool. Even though, it wasn’t quite that big but atleast the blue blood moon was showing :D

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180131

Blog Post #4: First Day of School! :D

First Day of School was alright! Yaaasss hahaha, I met some new friends or got closer to friends from other schools. The worst part of it though was when I needed to bring my crutches because I have to so I don’t put much pressure on my injured foot. The whole time though, I wasn’t actually using it and just carried it the whole time because I feel like I might get left behind because it takes so slow and my arms were hurting from it. Bukas talaga hindi ko na yun dadalhin, nakakaasar tbh kasi hindi ko siya magamit ng maayos tapos everyone was looking at me like bruhh I don’t want any attention.

Good thing was I had some people carry it for me and are actually willing to carry it for me which is nice :) Second part of that good thing was omg!!! Madaming gwapo kyaahhhh omgg I cannot contain my feelings putek like please notice me. Alam ko pong maliit lang ako kaya mag-look down ka lagi ah para mapansin mo ko hihihi <3

Pero eto talaga yun eh! Nung lunch talaga eh! Like dalawang couples yung kasama ko sa table and am like the only single person there huhuhu. I got so bitter tbh, I tried not looking at them. Kasi naman eh! Nasaan ka na kasi?? Ang bagal mo naman dumating huhuhu pero kung si crushie rin yung magiging boyfriend ko edi that’s good hahaha! Sana talaga ma-notice mo ko! <3

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180129

Blog Post #3: Getting Better :)

2 days left before school starts!! Should I be happy? Or excited? Hindi pa ko ready!! Wala pa kong mga school supplies tapos missing pa ko ng isang textbook for my subject and hindi pa gumagaling paa ko tsk.

So after Australian Day, on the 27th of January and 3am in the morning I was confined in the hospital for like 3 hours dahil sa paa ko. Tsk, sobrang sakit ng paa ko that I couldn’t even feel my toes nor move them. I was awoken from sleep when I felt myself crying, my left foot was hurting so bad and no one even heard my voice since they were all sleeping.

At the hospital, they gave me 2 tablets of medicine. They said it was stronger than the ones I take and they were right, I was very dizzy the whole day and I felt so sickly like I wanted to throw up but I was trying not to but failed anyways. Before I got out of the hospital, they said I have to use crutches for like 2 weeks or when my foot gets better. To be honest, I don’t want to use crutches.

I had volleyball training on that day but I couldn’t come because the doctor said I had to rest my foot. I swear it was so boring just laying down. I couldn’t even stand to do want I want to do and I couldn’t even get what I wanted to go get. I felt so hopeless tsk and I couldn’t even eat coz my mouth still tasted like the medicine and it was so bitter, so disgusting.

Though, I’m getting better bit by bit which is great. I wish it ends now though before school starts.

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180125

Blog Post #2: Australian Day tomorrow!

Australian Day na tomorrow yayy! And that means may mga fireworks and baka makasama ko na yung mga kaibigan ko. I haven’t seen them in like a few weeks.

So I found out what they’re gonna do on my next appointment. I think ipapa-ultrasound daw yung left foot ko. Okay siguro yun kasi naiirita na ko sa left foot ko eh, ang hirap maglakad lagi na lang akong paika-ika. Sana gumaling na siya huhuhu.

Today! Or This Year! I realised that it’s not even worth it to chase your crushes last year. Iniwan ko na lahat sila sa 2017 and magbabagong buhay na ko this year! Si K kasi hindi na nagpaparamdam pagkatapos nung dinner dance namin, chinachat niya ko nung inask niya ko maging date sa dinner dance pero after that never niya na kong chinat. Hindi man nga lang siyang nagpaalam sakin nung patapos na yung dinner dance😒. Minsan napapaisip ako kung bakit niya ko inask na maging ka-date sa dinner dance like is it because trip trip mo lang? o baka naman na-inggit ka kasi yung mga friends mo may ka-date. Tapos minsan napapaisip ako na baka gusto mo rin ako but that’s impossible kasi frinendzone mo ko nung last time na nag-confess ako which was December ng 2016 pero may sinasabi yung mga ka-close na baka meron kasi he’s a shy and quiet person, hayysss nvm na lang bahala na siya. Next si A, I found out that my feelings for him were just a confusion between my mind and my heart. Lastly si M, napanaginipan ko siya twice and ang napaka-random talaga like hindi naman kami masyadong close tapos bigla bigla na lang siyang magaappear sa dream ko like wtfff. So this year I decided to just move on and focus on what is ahead of me. 😊😊

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180124

Blog Post #1: Last week of school holidays

Last week na ngayon ng school holidays namin at magpapasukan na :( Year 11 na ko this year, new school, new people and new surroundings. I’m somewhat nervous and excited at the same time. Panibago nanamang stress. Stress na stress na nga ako sa holidays tapos may panibago nanamang stress ang dadating, tsk. Well, sana this year maging mas masaya at exciting to kaysa nung last year.

Napa-check up ko na yung left foot ko! Yay! Wala naman daw naputol na ligaments or of any sorts which is good. Last Saturday kasi nag-volleyball training kami and we were doing drills. Nag-spike kasi ako and when I got down, hindi ko alam na may bola pala kaya nag-land ako dun sa bola at na-sprain yung left foot ko huhuhu first time kong ma-sprain yung foot ko and masakit talaga as in I couldn’t even take the pain. I couldn’t even walk properly and until now I still can’t walk properly. Now, hihintayin ko pa yung next appointment ko, I wonder what they’ll do next.