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I hope at the end JK and JM doesn't end up together (if they are a couple) 🙂. JM will never know peace if it's made public. If he's treated by whole Fandom over some ships like this he'll be eaten alive if some confirmation comes in future. JM might be heartbroken, he might cry some days but short term pain is way way better than a hell like life in future. Even if he cries a bit, he's someone made to be loved, he'll eventually find a loving partner - if it's a nonshowbiz person it's 10x better.

Like he did with his family, ik he'll keep them private and safe away from this rabid dogs. After a while these shippers and solos will leave him alone once they are completely convinced he doesnt have any sort of relationship with JK anymore He can lead a peaceful retired life and possibly have a daughter and a kitten like he dreamt off. None of these will be a reality if nightmare jikook comes true. JM doesn't deserve to live like that he deserves peace and calm life away from this rotten fandom. Me along with some other jm fans are hardly manifesting this.. we know it will happen one day

There are two wolves inside of me. One telling me to ignore such messages to prevent similar conversations and behaviors on my blog, the other pushing my opinion out like I’m in labour. The latter has won today. Some things seem useless to say or obvious to most, but maybe a little bit of education on the topic won’t hurt as much as complete silence.

The only disclaimer I feel like putting here is that objectively speaking your statement is partially true. Being out of the closet as a kpop idol would be painful and not easy at all, with painful and scary consequences. Nobody ever said it would be easy, and both Jimin AND Jungkook are aware: society is not as welcoming with queer people as it should. You’re… technically right. I just felt very uncomfortable reading this, though. Despite the facts and the painful side of things you brought up and that I don’t dare to sugarcoat or dismiss.

I’ve received this ask a while ago and it’s the perfect example of asking yourself what’s gonna happen to someone you truly care for and just wondering where they could possibly get.

Which is very, completely and totally different from wishing them our idea of safety. Of easier. Of what we believe to be better for them. We always need to keep in mind that Jimin and Jungkook are real individuals, with real hearts and feelings and lives involved. Our own projections or wishes and even emotions about them need to stay very marginal, and we should all know that if Jikook commanded or forced themselves on a more socially acceptable path it could result in a huge internal split and crisis, the worst and most painful choice ever. You made a mistake there, anon, with that “he might cry some days”.

As if a real human being could go through such an unfair and cruel thing, renouncing to his own heart and feelings, without being permanently touched by it. Never reduce people’s suffering and torment to a short term struggle they’ll eventually heal from, and that for this reason doesn’t deserve consideration or sympathy. Even though one could actually heal in the end, at what cost? And why wishing them that? It’s odd, it’s controlling… and it’s a bit like looking over someone’s pain and telling them “I know more than you: cry as much as you want, but in the end I know that the other scenario was worse for you”. Of course you say so, anon… you’re not the one who’d cry.

I don’t feel like saying you totally lack empathy but you definitely lack close experience with the queer world and struggle. There are centuries, decades and decades one after another, of stories, of love, of hiding and dying, proving and showing why your point is reductive and a bit dehumanizing. Proving why, if safety was the only point and goal, love would disappear from the planet. Rich people would marry rich people only, hearts would be suppressed, we’d have half, if not close to zero, of the poetry, novels, tragedies, movies we have today. The world would be dry and dying, anon.

There are two examples I wanna share with you: one comes from my personal experience, the other from cinema. I’ll start with the second one because images, production, expressions, could be more impactful.

There’s a movie I recently watched and that I recommend too called “Suk Suk (叔 叔)”. Or “Twilight’s Kiss”, the adaptation for the western market, considering it’s a story about two men in their twilight years indeed. It’s realistic, melancholic, tough. But also calm and gentle, so much that it made me shrug and sigh in total tenderness at the end. Now I’d love to get lost in its colors, the actors’ ability to portray such a common and known story with uniqueness. But this post would be endless. Just watch it if you have time.

Now these two characters are not famous and don’t risk a worldwide public speculation or threat like Jimin would. But they’re married to women. One of them is, with kids, the other’s divorced but with a son as well. They still experience the social pressure. They still experience the fear, the self doubt. They have to meet in secret and define each other as friends with others, one of them even has to go to the other’s daughter’s wedding. The emotional weight of that is huge.

Suk Suk is the perfect portrait of a painful closeted love. Of the LGBT drama. Of two men that just don’t have the instruments, the generational awareness to change their lives so drastically by letting everyone around them know who they are. They try, they let themselves go with each other, or in front of people who can relate, but they’re not free in their nature and the movie will make you notice the emotional impact that has on a human brain. It’s fictional but it’s very plausible and has happened to thousands of people all over the world.

If I bring this example to you is only because you could try shifting your point of view by directing this pseudo compassion towards Jimin’s possible ultimate choice - and struggle, surely - being ending up with a man. I’m just following the scenario you brought up, because if Jikook are a couple they could also simply break up and Jimin could choose a woman for the second part of his life. But not because he has to: because he wants to.

Suk Suk shows what’s most likely to happen to someone who denies themselves happiness and freedom. That’s what happens to someone who chooses a “better life”, a safer one, to someone who doesn’t choose at all. Because that’s what society and people like you have wished for the queer community and fueled for ages: hide, change your mind, don’t look for trouble. While the perpetrators are free and unpunished, you die inside. It’s for your safety! Get with a woman and a kitten, like you say. The american dream that’s actually a nightmare.

Gloominess, grey days, nostalgia. Regret. The pain is not short term, anon, at all… it lingers. It cuts deep. What you are comes looking for you eventually, and if you managed to silence the hurt, aging and reflecting wakes it up one day. It takes nothing to turn on the lights and bring memories and feelings back. It will hurt a thousand times more.

The last thing I wanted to share was a bit of a story that I know of. A very very close relative of mine is queer and she has been her entire life, no denial there. She’s very reserved, strong minded, generous. She’s been fundamental in our lineage.

She has dated the same woman for more than 30 years. Since they were very very very young girls and I wasn’t even in my mom’s plans. She’s even a greater example because she’s very active in her community, with her different jobs and hobbies. But she never came out, not even to me, despite our close bond and despite me showing over and over how comfortable I am with the queer talk.

They have broken up now, after basically a lifetime spent together. Considering the times during which they started dating, considering the high chances of lacking self acceptance, considering families involved and people gossiping, judging, speculating, they kept choosing each other happily. The people who didn’t know about them knew it anyways because they traveled together all the time, everywhere, every year. They mentioned each other constantly, they were always around the other, present in the other’s choices and plans. They were in a full partnership.

The people who knew about them kept the secret safely. The people who never saw more than a friendship in them keep believing they were just sisters. But when I tell you they have lived freely and happily anyways I’m not lying.

They’ve tried haircuts together. Saw every monument or church or statue or State existing. Sat close at tables, but only when it wasn’t too attention drawing to invite the other. Christmas or New Year’s were spent apart because those are family gatherings and why would a friend - even if close - be there?

They never held hands in front of us or me, I’m sure they did in front of their friends though. At birthday parties they looked like soulmates but not that much, not that physically attached, not so romantic. It was all laying underneath and it did for more than 30 years. They weren’t hurt by it, they didn’t feel trapped. They adapted because queer people can be chameleons. Not enough to hide their identity or light but enough to trick stupid idiots.

They just chose how to show themselves and when to, without ever renouncing to each other, to experiencing each other and life together, just to make sure people wouldn’t talk. They lived at their own terms, protecting their relationship but also their hearts.

This approach- that reminds me of Jikook so bad but let’s not make comparisons- was what made me able to understand this person was queer since I was vert very little. They say queer people recognize each other and maybe that’s what happened between us but… I’ve always knew it and silently supported it even though she never told me. And trust me, anon, the easiest choice for them would’ve been separating. In multiple occasions. Christmases and holidays were not the only sacrifice. But they never did.

Things ended anyways for other reasons, but at least they know what loving fully and up to the last moment means. No fame involved and no shippers or solos either, but they let love win; if you believe that Jimin would let these evil people - whose comments and posts don’t even reach him as often as they reach us - ruin his life and influence his choices then you’re projecting and far, far away from the truth. I don’t want Jimin to end up in some “Good luck, babe!” situation EVER.

Calling Jikook a nightmare is so cynical, anon, so… sad. Manifesting won’t change the way Jimin feels when Jungkook’s around or touches him. Won’t change the fact he’s happy with that guy. It won’t change their minds like magic: they’ve thought about these fears of yours way before you even knew who they were.

And still here they are. As Chappell would say, “you’d have to stop the world just to stop the feeling”. Hope this helps!

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My home🥹🤍

my seven 😭🫶

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I'm going through my bookmarks and found this clip. Something about this clip makes my heart so warm, the smiles, the happiness, the togetherness...its everything and more🥹🤍

Missing jikook hours always open🤍

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Oh, this fic has my whole heart!!! The tension was tensioning for real! Also, we have jealous jeon jungkook and the most precious jiminie! Kookie is trying his best you'll and they love each other, but this is a must-read slow burn for sure🤍🥹

Please do read tags and give this fic a chance🤍

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Hello loves!! I hope you are all well🥹🤍

I have been missing jikook lately and having post concert depression cause its been a week since I saw jinnie and it still feels like a fever dream😭

Okay sorry ill stop yapping but fics have helped me calm my mind after a long day of work...as usual, so im here with recs🤍

The first rec for today is the epitome of a beautiful slow burn and finding love again🥹 jikook here just need the biggest and warmest hug🤍

Please do read tags and give this fic a chance🤍

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They don't know im jikookficsdiarry 🥹🤍

🤍🤍✨️

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This story is written so well! I felt every emotion and its just so beautiful! The tension between jiminie and kookie is on another love, but love always saves the day🤍✨️🥹

Please do read tags and give this fic a chance🤍

TW: [Miscarriage]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/62998333/chapters/161334805

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This story is the epitome of warmth✨️🥹 kookie is trying his best and jiminie is there to give him a hug🥹🤍 absolutely one of my favourite stories!

Please do read tags and give this fic a chance🤍

https://archiveofourown.org/works/10871478

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Hello loves!! I hope you are all doing well🥹🤍

The reason I've been mia is cause of my new law school admissions, spending time with family during the summer holidays and preparing for Runseokjin tour tomorrow🥹🤍

Best believe im gonna be sobbing when Epiphany begins and 15 year old me would be proud to finally see her dream come true....cant wait🤍🥹

I'll be posting fic recs shortly!! Stay tuned🥹🤍

Also our jimiine is nominated for a VMA please vote🤍🥹 link below✨️

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Did I read a Christmas fic in peak summer? Yes, yes I did. Why? Umm cause the heat wave almost took me out and I was ready to sing Jingle Bells already as I was melting🤭

This story, oh the feels were feeling, the tension was tensioning and the love was blooming🤍🥹 a Christmas one-shot to touch your hearts.

Please do read tags and give this fic a chance🤍

https://archiveofourown.org/works/61645462

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First fic rec tonight is overload of fluff and warmth and omds i just adore the writing its beautiful🤍🥹 and jikook here are the epitome of love 🤍

Please do read tags and give this fic a chance🤍

https://archiveofourown.org/works/61172869?view_adult=true

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Hello loves!

I hope you are all well 🥹🤍

I hope i am not forgotten and I will be posting fic recs shortly so please stay tuned🤍

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If this isn't happiness Idk what is?

MY JIKOOK ARE LIVEEE🤍😭 and seokjinnie in tbe comments🤍

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I hope everyone is enjoying watching hobipalooza🤍🥹

I can't watch at the moment, but I just opened Twitter and saw that our jiminie mentioned kookie during wonder🥹 my jikook🤍😭 oh they have my heart

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I don't have anyone to talk about jikook fics with so ig im here, i love love love canon compliant fics set in predebut/debut -> 2015/early 2016 so much, i love puppy crush era jikook clumsily getting together ;; do you remember that one ma city performance where jimin was blushing flustered after glancing at jk? Crush era jikook hurt me so much i kind of want to read about it to hurt even more

Something about an awkward jk constantly pushing jimin away but will crawl into his bed at night made me so emotional. I miss fetus jikook i love fetus jikook more than anything my jungkookie and baby g 💔💔

Idk if you've seen this one yet, my all time favorite: "future starts slow" - orphaned work unfortunately; https://archiveofourown.org/works/7264351

Anon, you are always welcome here🤍 thank you for sharing your thoughts :)

There is something about 2015/16 jikook that tugs at my heartstrings🥹🤍 their crush era always makes me so emotional for some reason...oh the ma city performance, it still gives me chills🤍🥹 jikook have my heart and canon compliant fics too🤍

Thank you for making me reminisce beautiful foetus jikook moments again and for the fic recs🤍🥹

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what do jikook freefrom tags mean ? 🥹

i saw tags in a fic that were like jimin freefrom, jungkook freefrom, jikook freefrom its confusing

Im sorry im really late to respond to asks but ill try my best to get through most of them🤍

Thank you for your ask anon. Please see below response to your ask and a link to access any more questions you may have🤍

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Nel is still processing...today was a good day to be a jikooker like any other day🤍

My babies🤍