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your only job on this earth is to be so intrinsically yourself that the right people gravitate toward you and the wrong people move out of your way

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One of the best parts of my childhood was my uncle.

We would go visit with my cousins, they were kind of older, and they'd babysit while our parents and their friends would go out during the day. Later, the party would continue, but my introvert of an uncle would always come to see what movie we were watching. Always soft, always kind, always questions.. just to always fall asleep before 20 minutes had even played.

All of those moments are cherished by me, and I don't think I would trade them for the world.

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Here's to the people who weren't abused by their parents, but whose parents sucked anyways. Here's to people whose parents fucked up raising you out of ignorance and not malice. Here's to the kids whose parents didn't know what to do with you so they did nothing at all. Here's to people whose parents are getting better and growing as people but still hurt you. Here's to every mean comment that wouldn't have been so bad if it hadn't come from your mom; here's to awkward family dinners because you're all trying to forget;

here's to you, survivor of a thousand 'not as bad as it could have been' hurts. I see you. You aren't alone.

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on watching a parent age

i saw somebody say “what if you’re gone and i haven’t become anything yet” and basically that broke me on a random thursday evening

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A read a fic a few months ago where sat was luci's teenage mistake baby but born before asmo and the triplets, thus explaining how he's fourth oldest and 'youngest' at the same time. But now I can't find it. If you have any leads please contact the tip line. Thank you.

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REBLOG IF YOUR BLOG IS A SAFE SPACE FOR AROMANTIC PEOPLE AND IF YOU THINK THEY ARE VALID

I want to see how many people actually are willing to say this and not just act like it

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Shout out to mentally ill people who dropped out of school

- shout out to the kids who were “so bright” and ‘heading somewhere” and had to drop out because school was too much to handle along with mental illness

- shout out to the kids who struggled to get where they got before they dropped out

- shout out to the kids who tried and tried and tried and still couldn’t finish

you aren’t unintelligent because you dropped out of school, you aren’t a delinquent or a bad person because you dropped out of school, just because you did what you had to doesn’t make you a bad person

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Happy Pride!

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i dont get offended at white people jokes even though im white because: 

i can recognize white people as a whole have systemically oppressed POC in america, which is where i live 

most people when they make white people jokes only mean the shitty white people and i am not a shitty white person 

im not a pissbaby

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Married Life

SUPPORT THE PROJECT

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What people think happened (for some reason):

OM Team makes the original OM game

OM Team abandons it for no reason

OM Team makes Nightbringer

OM Team abandons Nightbringer for no reason

OM Team makes third OM game

Will definitely abandon it for no reason

And all of this is done out of greed, apparently (despite the fact that constantly releasing and "abandoning" games is a terrible business move that won't actually make you any money)

What ACTUALLY happened:

OM Team makes the original OM game

Game absolutely blows up, the servers become overloaded and are unable to keep up with the volume of players

Servers become too outdated to continue using long term

OM Team makes Nightbringer, giving the OM franchise room to grow again, and using servers that aren't nearly as obsolete and overtaxed

Meanwhile, the parent company (NTT Corp) spends multiple years making atrocious business decisions and mismanaging their subsidiaries, including Solmare

NTT Corp makes extremely bullshit decision to wrap up the OM games because they no longer want to fund the development of otome games AT ALL

OM Team is forced to make a hasty and unplanned conclusion to NB's main story, leaving the OM franchise in an uncertain position going forward

OM Team doesn't want to let the OM franchise die, promises to still release new content and projects

OM Team finds other game dev studios to collaborate with, and are now making a new OM game so that the franchise can keep living

OM Team takes fan demand into serious account, and heavily priorities romance in the new game, with deeper and more intimate relationships (something the fans have been begging for)

And this is all factual. This info has been confirmed by the old mods/staff of the official OM Discord, as well as multiple data miners who were able to see firsthand how outdated and overburdened the servers actually are. NTT Corp's business moves are very public and can easily be viewed online. None of this is a secret.

I'm not saying that the games are above criticism, or that nobody is allowed to have opinions about the new game coming out. All of that is fine. But there's a huge difference between an opinion, and outright misinformation. And the OM fandom has a huge problem with uncritically believing misinformation at face value and repeating it/spreading it around - which is at both the games AND the fans' detriment overall.

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Got reminded again of my old coworker who was a massive misogynist but also trans inclusive. Told me he believed trans women are indeed women because "only women would be stupid enough to want to be women"

I wonder what he's doing now

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Alluring Demon Eyes

Will be colored in, eventually~

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