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Trying to stay a float

I have found myself falling further and further behind in my studies.  It has been like a snow ball effect, and I am not one to reach out for help I'd rather just try my hardest to dig out of the snow.  But as of right now I don't have a shovel and it’s a blizzard outside.  I’m just wondering if anyone Is going through or has been through what I am going through right now and how did you make it?

What helped or is helping you to stay focused?

How did you get past doubting yourself?

What exactly does work, school, life balance look like?

Somedays I feel as though I have failed myself, or that I am not good enough to have a degree.  All of these negative thoughts have always pushed me further and further away from my goal of getting my degree finished.  

This year will make the 4th attempt I have made to graduate college and in the back of my head there is doubt.  So when you add self pity, depression, and anxiety in the mix its like the perfect storm....no Blizzard for failure.

I guess you can say this blog is my cry for help..help from anyone that listen.  All my life I have fought to stay “alive” and right  now I am in battle mode again.  I can’t give up again! I have to make it through this. #tryingtostayafloatt