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[joeleanora]

i wake up in the morning wondering why. and then i feel the sun on my face and think ‘ahhh feeling the sun on my face is why.’

[joeleanora]

i think someone forgot to give me the manual on how to live. how do i be a daughter how am i supposed to make friends? how do i not response with anger? how do i give enough but not too much? what happens when im so sad it feels like the emotion is clinging to my bones and im carrying it with me like an extra weight? i just think someone forgot about me.

[joeleanora]

is there like a key to being good at living? i have ideas and dreams and i feel like i ought to pick up some hobbies but im too tired. it feels like theres too much life to be living and its so overwhelming that i dont do any of it. is there a right way?

[joeleanora]

i live by the idea of "through gritted teeth" or "the time will pass anyway" it's like my motivation for keeping on. I'm responding with kindness through gritted teeth even though darkness rages on within, the time will pass whether I wait for happiness to come find me or I spend the time finding it. like i woke up this morning and decided life was unfair but it's happening to me anyway and I don't want to spend it miserable anymore.