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[johnboi-oh-snap]

I crave the empty feeling

That follows winding stairs

To the depths of crimson

Lined with raven hair

You cast your spell

My mind, it feels so numb

As your fingers trace,

The outline of my chest

These inbetween moments

Of ecstasy and rest

You, my angel

Put my everything to test

Bending my will

To the shape of your supple breasts

Lost inside your eyes

The paradox of lust

Twirling through the sheets

Like ancient galaxies,We colide

As our souls transcend space/time

I can feel your heart beat

It satiate's my thirst to leave

All I desire is...

Is to be cast into thy sea

Consumed by your desire

I will finally be free

Catch me between your legs

Like a widow in a web

Your venom consumes my mind

I give in, I surrender

As you fill my heart with splendor

I sell my soul to you

Just to breathe you

To taste,

To see,

To be,

One with thee

[johnboi-oh-snap]

Swallowed by shadows

Gripped hands,

Steadfast on the helm

Drifting, lost

Like lonely wreckage

Sailing without a dream

I use to think myself wise

Boy, did I play the fool

Knowledge is a burden

A mage must bare alone

Even if it rips

The magick from his bones

Swallowed by lies

I use to tell my self

Choking, grasping

On purtrified air

Creeping, crawling

From shame filled wounds

I want to heal

I want to feel

Something more

Than this numbing pain

That mocking echo

Plays on repeat

Trying to declare my defeat

My shallow breath

Shaking like cold leaves

Ripped in tatters

Like wind torn sails

Left to the mercy

In the company of whales

I cry out, broken

My bitter tears rebuke the rain

Turning my face stale

Like the air inside a tomb

A chill now owns me

Like the day I left the womb

How can we not be scared

Thrust in to this world

Without a single clue

Of the sacredness we hold inside

Most of us live

Only wishing for the day we die

How humble Ive become

From the faults that lay me bare

Cast out into the street

Attracting all the glares

"You fool. You fool. You silly fool."

Fool may I be

But my mind is my own

Yes I dance with shadows

Like lovers we embrace

Gently hands cupped

Upon their charcoal face

As they whisper madness

Like a riddle without a clue

So I wander

So I wonder

Seeking like that fool

[johnboi-oh-snap]

No Name:

Death stole me

Naked

Like a bad dream

Covered

Buried alive, remorse

Regret

Gripped me feverishly

Choking

Dirt spills from my chest

Heaving

Retching, trying to catch...

Something...

Fading into silhouette

Silence...

Writhing darkness disturbs

Flesh

Screaming from the casket

Banging

Like a bag of 9lb hammers

Fists

Bleeding, oozing, angry

Numb

Every moment unfeeling

Death

I wish you would hurry

Stop,

Time delights in my torture

Rest

All I seek is peace

Quite...

Absolute...

Silence.

Yes, Death, take me

But do not delay

Rest I must

Before this regret turns...

Rust then to dust

Never to return

[johnboi-oh-snap]

Marrow of the Morrow

Word prompt of the day.

Marrow of the Morrow

The marrow of tomorrow

Is never borrow from today

Live while you can

Live in the NOW

For tomorrow,

Never truly comes

Lost to today

Dancing in the rain

Let time slip

Like infinite grain

Spilling like laughter

From your beautiful heart

Infectious brilliance

Your elegant flame

Wait not for the Morrow

Lest it be tamed

By inelegant banter

Of tomorrows-day

Stuck in perpetual disdain

Always waiting

Never yet to play

To breathe

To create

To love

To give...

Tomorrow is a trap

That I fell for many times

Giving up what I love

For a day that never comes

Listen to me,

Listen good Son

Live for today

Live for the now

Live like you never had a doubt

Written this Nigh, Nov 13th 2019

By John the Revelator

[johnboi-oh-snap]

Ive lost my way in darkness

I may just lose my mind

Everything I once "knew"

Is a mess of scattered scars

Like a shotgun burst

My soul is fractured like the stars

How can I move forward

If I cant find my way

Every way is "The Way"

According to paid preachers

Prying at your wallets

While debasing your soul

With basic teachings

That satiate only the vain ego

Of some power tripping fool

Prancing around as a prophet

Ha. A prophet of "GOD"

What God?

The God of WAR?

The God of JEALOUSLY?

The God of FALLACIES?

The God of VANITY?

The God of world wide TRAGEDY?

The God of "Because I say SO"?

Not the GOD I KNOW

That fear of being one with darkness,

Wont let YOU SEE

All of us are connected

Stretching the maw

Of Infinite Eternity

Bending like tendrils of light

Through black hole dreams

Destroying worlds

Planting new seeds

All is connected

Spiraling... Twisting

Like never ending dancers

Falling over their feet

Gracefully colliding

With molten streams of lightning

Kissing tall trees

Burning fires of rebirth

Only to be cast to the sea

Drifting... Sailing... Driving...

Beyond, Everything

Broken like the branches

Of an old and dying tree

I reach with my last breath

To scream... To let out all the pain

I held so dearly

That never let me see clearly

Nearly digging an early grave

My bones caves for worms

Fed up with my shit

I sit... pondering the roots

That stretched past to future

Future to past it stretched

Nothing permanently etched

How could these bones

Find life buried in regret

Wasting time.... Wasting time....

Just to waste time

Im wasting away

With nothing to show but regret..

Fucking regret

Wretches at my neck

Trying to make me forget

WHO I MOTHER FUCKIN AM

Trying to drown out the light

Trying to seduce my resign

Icy fingers grip my spine

As I resist, I dare to fight

The cold, sadistic voice of defeat

That dares to speak my name

As if to consume me

To light a spark in my rage

To set me up in flame

Spread my ashes throughout space

As to not leave trace

My heretic antics

As people become frantic

Screaming "HERETIC FANATIC"

Spread like disease

My last breath will,

Infect your feeble mind

Striking most of you blind

YOU... were never alive,

Never truly alive...

[johnboi-oh-snap]

I am a shadow

I am a light

Caught between worlds

I dream to take flight

Anchored by flesh

Till I learn mastery of self

Crack after crack

Mile after mile

I break and I fracture

Like bullet proof glass

Eventually give way

All my insecurities displayed

Im not the man I thought I was

Ive got nothing of worth to say

So I hang my head

Like the gallows, give way

I swing like a pendulum

Counting down the days

Till my demons finally catch me

Just to start this all again

How I loathe these cycles

Much I still must learn

The key from inside I must turn

Yet the lock doesnt seem to give

Less love of self has been attained

Have mercy on my feebleness

From which I fail to restrain

When it comes to forgiving myself

There is nothing left to say

Silence, In it I sit

Condemned yet freed by it

Clarity an illusion,

I still fail to manifest

For a seed of doubt

Has found a place to rest

Born from self loathing

Beating inside my chest

Begging to be freed

From this madness Ive become

[johnboi-oh-snap]

Fuck you.

Fuck all of you.

Fuck you because...

Well fuck you.

You wanna know why...

Cause FUCK YOU

This whole world is a joke

And I hate the silence

Because I fear...

I fear I might hear my demons

Sayin,

"Hey, fuck you too loser"

But I hate how loud...

The crowd gets

When you are all distracted

By FUCKIN THINGS

THAT DONT MATTER

No wonder why

More brains are splattering

Against the pavement

All you people care about is...

FUCK YOU.

Fuck all of you.

No one cares about your sports

Or your pageants

Or your God-Damn entertainment

Its all a distraction

To keep you from acting

Like a decent fuckin human being

Brainwashed

Fuckin bastards

Running around scattered

Only worried about being flattered

How about I shatter

Your stupid reality

When you find out

The people you looked up to

Are all rapist pedophiles

Bet your heart just dropped a mile

Cause FUCK YOU TOO

FUCK ALL OF YOU

FOR WORRYING TO MUCH

ABOUT KEEPING UP

WITH KARDASHIANS

While the whole world burns

To fucking ashes...

Yeah. Fuck you too.

At least I can say

I tried to warn you

Yeah. Fuck you too bitch.

Fuck you

[johnboi-oh-snap]

Though I'm lost

I feel not so

As I swing to and fro

From thy breasts

I gently sway

As you scream

AH! MY TITS! YOU ASS!

GET OFF OF THEM!

NO WAY! I SCREAM

In return

For I am having

A joly good ole time!

For your troubles

Take this dime!

[johnboi-oh-snap]

I walked along

A sandy beach

Upon which

I watched a dog

Shit...

I ponder life

As he pinches off

I find myself taking off

Like a rocket

From up on high

I pull down my pants

And to, pinch one off

Watch out space

Im blasting off!

Now I've shed

My mortal coil

I feel as space ready

As aluminum foil!

What I left behind

Will fertilize Ye SOIL!

Grow thee a tree

From the soil I soiled

To the sky

UPWARDS IT GOES!

Meet me up there

Beyond the crows

Yes, up to space

Come join me up here

So you too can release #2

[johnboi-oh-snap]

You clown

You fool

You silly clown fool

What do you dance

What do you do

You silly old willy

Clown fool

Dance on me willy

For a bowl full of chilly

And I too will become

A clown

A fool

A silly clown fool

A silly old willy

Clown fool

Together we can

Honky honk honk

Are horny red nose

To some honky tonk tunes

While we run around

In our big clown shoes

Slappty slap slap

With a big booty slap

Clappin them little clown cheeks

Clappty clap clap clap

You silly clown

You silly fool clown

You silly silly fool clown

[johnboi-oh-snap]

Im finding that a disagree more with so many people.

Its not that I agree with one side more than the other... cause I see sense in both sides.

I just thinks its fucking hilarious what a lot of people waste their time getting others to try and participate with them.

Like they need someone else to validate their experience to make it real for themselves. Pfft.

Im so done.

Im fucking done with society.

None of it makes sense... BUT IT ALL MAKES FUCKING SENSE!

... If that makes sense?

Some people may think Im losing it...

I FUCKIN AM!

This place is a mad house so I gotta blend out somehow! Now you think I'm crazy... And I think you are crazy... and now we are back at square one.

Thats how this system is designed man...

Everything is a truth... but its a lie.

And every lie has some truth.

So where does that leave us?

CONFUSED AS FUCK!

Everyone feels their way is right... and they are right... for themselves.

But your way isnt my way and my way isnt your way.

If we could all just shut up! Mind our own business for once... Maybe we could love each other because finally... We would have found ourselves and we would be enough for each other because we are enough for ourselves...

But fuck you, cause fuck me, cause fuck all of you.

This is all just a joke to me... Laughing like a mad man...

Like...

A...

Joker.

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She stuck to me so sticky

Like the sap that flows from trees

She tastes of sweet honey

Nurtured by the bees

When the wind did blow

She followed without a care

She pulled me right along

All wrapped up in her hair

I fell in to her eyes

I splashed in to her soul

There I rested,

There I stayed,

Never to be remembered

Beyond her love that is now my home

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Swept, powerless

Like the sand neath the waves

Pushed to places

Not seen by man

Drifting, drifting

To cracks unseen by beast

Deep, deep

Where darkness feasts

Ive seen the pale white horse

Ready to ride

Fire burning from His eyes

Judging the deeds of human kind

[johnboi-oh-snap]

In my search for knowledge

Ive become quite skeptical

Everyone wants something

For the wisdom they posses

You cant trust a prophet for profits

Cause it profits you none

Empty pockets

Empty wallets

Empty hearts

Empty minds

Empty promises

Empty lives

We all live in shells

Thinking this is all we are

Empty, devoid of true light

You fight against the current

Of truth that ever-flows

From the throne of the Central Sun

Like a fount of wisdom

Pure, Untouched by "man"

There you will find the truth

The truth of love & peace resound

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She trapped me between her bosom,

My heart swelled up like the waves,

Crashing on her shores

Like fists of passionate rage

From my heart she pulled,

Like an anchor to the deep sea floor

All my resolve forgotten

As the light fades into graves

Down here it is quiet

I can hear her every word

Like a Siren she calms me

With songs of melodious lust

Within her hands, my love, I entrust

She wraps me in her sheets

Of sands that have been long unseen

Forgotten by the creatures

Crushed from mighty stones

This place of ancient bones

Has become my home away from home

[johnboi-oh-snap]

Swept, powerless

Like the sand neath the waves

Pushed to places

Not seen by man

Drifting, drifting

To cracks unseen by beast

Deep, deep

Where darkness feasts

Ive seen the pale white horse

Ready to ride

Fire burning from His eyes

Judging the deeds of human kind

[johnboi-oh-snap]

Yo, anyone got a beat?

This mind swims with madness

As this heart flows with sadness

And these words drip from my mouth

Like thick, dark molasses

I dont mean to bring you down

I dont mean to bring you down

I dont mean to bring you down

But I got a sickness

Dug in like a saviours crown

But I aint no saviour

The only sacrifice I ever made

Was in my own best interest

Dont look at me with disgust

Trust me, I hate myself enough

Lookin in the mirror got my head spinnin

Woozy, drifting outside the lines

Drunk on blood from davids line

Im not foolin my reflection

Actin like Im not divine

I get sick of the excuses

So many excuses

Every day I'm losing

Every day I'm losing

Every day I'm losing

A battle within

To engraved with " Original Sin "

To see my own worth

My own redemption

My own perception

My own inception

Im not you

Im not what you want

Im not what you want me to be

Spendin so much time

To break down all these labels

All these identities

All this trauma

All this pain

Enough to drive me sane

A moment of clarity

I see ME

After all this time

After all this work

The beautiful ME

Is complete INSANITY

To the rest of humanity

A disturbance in their false reality

I see the game we play

I wash my hands, walk away

I could warn you

You would scorn me

Disown me

"Heretic!"

Yet faces painted

Sending me false prayers

To keep your own demons at bay

Whip me with every word I say

So I sit here silent...

Let my heart be the light

Hoping to find enough love

To guide us through the night

I had to become so lost

Just to be found

Even now...

Im not quite sure

Certainty is certainly for the fool,

A wise man knows

I never wanted to let go

I had so many attachments

Then I woke up

I could feel my throat catch

As I lost my preconceived ingestions

My heart had so many unanswered questions

I lost all direction...

Where am I

For the first time

I dont know anything

Im lost, I can admit

But now I can,

find my own way

Yeah, find my own way

find my own way

Not many can say

They found themselves

When they felt lost the most

I gotta give myself a toast

Take pride in how far Ive come

Despite all my false relgion

Ive made my decision

Like a surgeon

I made an incision

Removed their affliction

Denied their fiction

Broke away all my restrictions

... And yet Im still seeking

The evasive truth

A Pervasive truth

Beyond my own understanding...

I stand at the edge of time

Chasing my inner design

Hoping to find YOU

To finally find YOU

So I can finally Love myself

Beyond my addiction

To preserving "Self"

Really understanding

My divine identity

Without all these false personalities

Created by traumatic self prophecies