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Wow, I’m actually back on Tumblr. Didn’t think I’d be back here soon but I’ve just been busy haha.

Ima just start with I hope you all have been great!

Also, since the tumblr break…nothing really crazy has been going on. I’ve been on the same routine pretty much…working, going out here and there and chilling at home. So it’s definitely been chill but, I of course have been dealing with the ups and downs of life but hey…it’s life. All I gotta do is deal with it and push through no matter what. Complaining wont really do anything.

I’ve also been about a week off of all my social media and it’s actually pretty great. Much easier than I thought actually. Its gives me plenty of time to focus on myself and things I wanna do. It was just too much of a distraction. Id go on apps, browse for minutes and close them..and would repeat the process throughout the entire day which is a very bad habit I think. So, doing without has been pretty peaceful.

Don’t wanna talk a whole lot so I just wanna say everyone who reads this, I hope you have a blessed day!!!

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Day 8 - Friendship

It is weird, I’ve been friends with this one for person for many years. We’ve considered eachother besties for years now too. But, the best friend part of our friendship has pretty much gone down the drain honestly and it sucks. We used to talk everyday, about literally everything.

But, she went back to her ex and BOOM. Didn’t talk to me for two years. Yeah, I wasn’t mad at that. But she could’ve atleast told me why instead of straight up ghosting me. Ever since she came back into my life, shit has not been the same. She always claims our friendship will be back to the way it used to be, but it’s not going to happen.

I haven’t seen her in about 8 months and we’re hanging tomorrow, so lets see how that goes...haha.

Anyways, I hope you all are having a great week so far. Love and appreciate it all of you!!

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Day 7 - Change

Something I am really going to focus on is my body. Being skinny isn’t the worst thing in the world, but I’d rather gain healthy weight and stop looking less like a noodle. I never wanted to do anything about it, but I decided I need to have a summer body all the time haha. Something I also think about alot are tattoos. If I am going to be getting more, especially a sleeve...I don’t want my arms being entirely skinny. I don’t think they’ll look good honestly on toothpick arms. By the end of 2021, I will look better than I ever have...trust me. I am going to put the work in.

By the way, this was supposed to be day 8 of blogging. But I was being a weenie yesterday...never again.

As always, I love and appreciate you all. Remember to get some great sleep and stay hydrated!!!

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Day 6 - Going through it

Having too much on your mind and being down is such a trash thing. I made a promise to myself to stay positive all through 2021, but I got hit with a wave of sadness last night. I don’t know if it was Pittsburgh being a first round exit or what, but I think that most likely triggered my sadness haha.Being single and not being able to do fun shit with a special someone definitely makes me simp.

But why am I even sad? I’ve gone a pretty good majority of my life being by myself. I didn’t get with someone until I was 19. Yes, 19 years old...LMFAO(I am now 21). I know my time will come sooner or later, all I need is hope. I am a strong, happy and caring person...I seriously need to stop worrying and stop putting myself down all the time.

Not going to lie, blogging every single day isn’t exactly as easy as I though it would be. But, I will do it.

Hope you all had a great Monday...love and appreciate all of you!

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Day 5 - Ugh

I love my Pittsburgh team and will stand by them NO MATTER THE CIRCUMSTANCE, but after tonight...I just dont know. Shit needs to fucking change, coaching, qb, the line. IT ALL NEEDS TO.

I don’t know, this loss fucking hurt. I’m legit so sad and down right now. I dont want to rant too much, so I hope everyone had a pleasant Sunday. Tomorrow is a fresh start to a new week, so lets get ready to kick this weeks ass. I’m going to get this late workout in and go to sleep sad.

Hope you all have a great night! I love and appreciate all of you!!

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11 years ago A Kid Named Cudi dropped

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Day 4 - Nostalgia

Nostalgia can be a crazy thing if I am honest. It’s crazy how one little thing can remind you of your past. There all kinds of ways nostalgia can be triggered, a few of those ways are...

-Smell

-Music

-Social Interactions

I think the two ways that trigger nostalgia for me would be both smell and music. I find it really crazy, I would spray Hawaiin febreeze in my room and the smell would remind me of the times I had of when I was in elementary school. That shit gets me sad lowkey because those were the best of days.

With music... memories would trigger me of my high school days, certain friends who I don’t vibe with anymore and a whole bunch of other shit I’d rather not speak of. I guess that is one reason why I would be simpy all the time, those memories were some of the best moments of my life and I miss it so much.

Also, Mr. Solo Dolo lll has been hitting hard as hell these past few nights. I guess I might end up simping this year after all becuase I know I’m not gonna find love and shit.

Anyways, I love and appreciate you all. I hope you all had an enjoyable weekend! :)

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Have y’all forgot how it feels to be truly wanted and loved? because same :(

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Day Three

For those of you who have been dealing with insecurities, don’t you wish all of that self hate/doubt could just magically go away? I have also been dealing with this kind of stuff for a long while now and it very much sucks.

I am constantly putting myself down on the daily. But you know what? Fuck that, fuck all of that. We are all pefect exactly the way we are. 2021 is the year that we start to love ourselves and overcome all of that self hate/doubt that we have. From a perspective standpoint, we should/

- Remeber our positive qualities

- Start positive self talks

- Write our fears down

Keeping positive qualities constantly on our mind is very helpful. Make a list on everything that you love about yourself.

Positive self talks can be nice with helping me/you take on different things such as tasks with a very healthy mindset.

Writing your fears down such as maybe being a failure at a certain thing can help tackle and overcome that thing or even things.

Just always remember we are all perfect in our own way, never ever doubt yourself.

Anyways, to end today off... I just want to say I hope you all had an amazing day today. I both love and appreciate you all.

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2020