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NEW YEAR. SAME SHIT.

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It had been a long day, and I don’t mind saying that I cried a little bit. There is nothing wrong with crying at the end of a long day.

Lemony Snicket (via bnmxfld)

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If there’s someone I hope will never give up on me, someone I am ready to beg for to stay, it’ll be no one else but me. I know no one will stay forever by my side but only me. It is me and me at the end of everything. It’s just me and me against everything. No one could help me more than me. So basically, it’s me who got me all the time.

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These mountains that you are carrying, you were only supposed to climb.

Najwa Zebian (via qvotable)

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We're playing a fair game but competing with dirty players. Aren't we? But what if u want to win the game, will u still continue playing clean or conform with their ways?

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I needed to be somewhere different. Maybe I needed to be someone different, too.

Heather Davis / The Clearing (via bnmxfld)

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Time heals all wounds is a misleading claim. Without putting in effort it putrefies, inflames. How can the wound heal if it’s never really clean? You can’t keep it concealed if the dressings aren’t routine. When inviting minute creatures to enter, lurk and feed in your wounded features — they’ll take over, guaranteed.

wounded, years later // grazia curcuru (via prosebyday)

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The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

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She says nothing at all, but simply stares upward into the dark sky and watches, with sad eyes, the slow dance of the infinite stars.

Neil Gaiman, Stardust (via meineluft)

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Thank you 2020,

Hi! Thank you for the heartbreaks, trauma and for inflicting so much damage; thank you for wrecking me. Thank you for those attacks, sleepless nights, and for those thoughts that had almost pushed me over the edge. Thank you for those tough battles I had to win during midnight until morning twilight. Thank you for taking away those people I cling unto. Thank you for not giving me the help that I deserved. Thank you for disconnecting the only person I loved and love from me. Thank you for shutting the only voice that cheers and gives me hope. You’ve really done a great job of screwing me up. Thank you for making me questions my worth which I mostly forever will. Thank you for filling my mind with what ifs and whys. Thank you for fucking me up so well.

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So early in my life, I had learned that if you want something, you had better make some noise.

Malcolm X. The Autobiography of Malcolm X (via quoted-books)

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Mary Oliver, from “Hum, Hum”, A Thousand Mornings

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I am tired of playing and trying to win an unfair game.

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You remind me of...

Sunrise reminds me of you

How you used to call me

And bombard me with “Wake up” texts

Rainy days remind me of you

How you sing me to sleep ---

How you hush me whenever I weep

Sunny days remind me of you

Memories of us running and laughing

Trying to enjoy and chase time

Sound of crashing waves reminds me of you

How we sit at the seashore

While giving each other reassurance

Mountains remind me of you

How we talked about climbing

And watching sunset at the peak

Sky reminds me of you

How you tell me to look up

And watch the dancing colors

Or how beautiful the moon is

Or to wait for the falling stars

And whisper a wish

Sunset reminds me of you

How we go to places with best of it

And stay there hugging each other’s soul

Sunset reminds me of you

How you look at me with speaking eyes

And loud inner voice

Sunset reminds me of you

It will always reminds me of you

How you helped me complete my pieces

Just to drop and lost them all again

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Perhaps, somewhere, some day, at a less miserable time, we may see each other again.

Vladimir Nabokov (via quotemadness)

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May you have the courage to go places that scare you.

Unknown (via sunsetquotes)