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[juanpablotamad]

December 13,2019

It's been a while since I moved here. Everything changed. Everyone seems so busy. And im just here, standing in the crowd and dont know what to do. I feel like im just a kid now and longing for some care that I haven't felt for a long time. Please, if ever you will see me, just give me some warm hug, i need it badly.

[juanpablotamad]

“Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside while still alive. Never surrender.”

— Tupac Shakur (via hplyrikz)

[juanpablotamad]

paalam palawan ;

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Goodmorning ...

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Hi

[juanpablotamad]

It has been almost year when I made a couple of consecutive tough choices that made my life change drastically. The consequences of my decisions made me seek more honesty and trust in the relationships I made over the past couple of months. It has been well, but at the bottom of my heart, I cannot help but overthink and have regrets about the bridges I have burned.

Well, I guess that’s normal. It’s normal to think about what ifs of every decision you made after you have seen the results of them. A part of me is not contented until I see and know every possible scenario to a problem, and I think that is one major flaw. I cannot help but ask, when will I ever be contented about the choices I made and will make?

You’ll always be left wondering with the choices you made and I think it is part of the process wherein you start to grow as a person. You eventually learn from each one, from every mistake or from what you think is better than the other one.

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There are ghosts inside my head and all of them have your eyes.

[juanpablotamad]

bed weather ☕️

[juanpablotamad]

“Make an island of yourself, make yourself your refuge; there is no other refuge. Make truth your island, make truth your refuge; there is no other refuge.”

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[juanpablotamad]

Many people blame you for your own kindness “masyado ka kasing mabait.” and it will be so confusing. But don’t question your stand on the spectrum. Kindness and goodness of the heart will always be more rewarding. Because when all of this is gone, you have yourself to answer to…how can you live with the fact that you compromised your attitude to adjust to this world?

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If you have been treated less of a person, I hope you know that there are people who will love you regardless of who you are. You don’t have to fight hate with hate. You just need to find love around you, that is there and existing right there. Just find that love and bounce that love to the world.

[juanpablotamad]

“It’s the things we love most, that destroy us.”

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[juanpablotamad]

happy birthday self 🖤

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I used to think I was being too picky but fuck that. I deserve someone who wants to know about me. It may sound silly but I don’t wanna be out here fucking with people who never ask my favorite color or if I ate today. I deserve someone who wants to hear my dreams just as much as I want to hear theirs. I deserve the same energy and effort I release. Fuck that.