juju-beee

[juju-beee]

Do you believe in ghosts?

That would be a strong no, sorry about it.

[juju-beee]

A small laugh made its way through. Were dick jokes really that funny to him right now? Juju ran a hand through his mess of tight curls and gave a small shake of his head. “To sucking.” He replied with a raise of his own glass.

He pulled it back down to his lips, a small sip turning into a much larger one before he finally rested it back on the counter. “I’m going to be painfully honest when I say I have like, not even one friend, and I’m kind of over being a hermit. So… that’s why I’m here being a Pete Wentz incarnate.”

juju-beee:

“Celebrating that shit sucks?” He tried. It was true, of course, he had nothing to be upset about. Juju just felt like he needed to deal with the fact that he had alienated himself from other people to the point that he was all but a hermit. But at least he was feeling something. That was good. 

“Well if shit can suck that means you woke up, right? I guess it works.” He lifted his glass. “To sucking… Fuck, that came out wrong.”

[juju-beee]

Juju was only a little bit confused as to where the conversation had gone. He nodded along none the less as he attempted to understand just what the other was on about—lizards. Large lizards. Okay. “Big snakes aren’t that scary,” Juju considered, “I think they’re kind of nice to look at. Snakes aren’t even particularly mean, they just… like to eat a lot. I like snakes.” Juju couldn’t help but think about large snakes with legs, particularly the large yellow pythons that he’d been known to find interest in when he did go to pet stores, searching for references. They really weren’t much different than big lizards.

“They are, but the calorie counts aren’t particularly high. And if it’s specifically fruit based…” He trailed off, watching the other as he spoke. He couldn’t help the small smile on his lips. Much like his only friend, Nova, this brightly coloured boy didn’t get on his nerves. Rather than speaking to him about shallow matters, he wanted to chat about random, obscure things that he normally wouldn’t have found himself talking about at all.

“Most candies are coloured with the blood of insects—like Nerds. Anything with a red base colour was dyed using the blood of small insects, which I find very disgusting. Being brought up to be vegetarian, my mom could be really particular about the things that I could eat, and since so many candies were dyed bright colours, I wasn’t allowed to have any of them because they were – like you said—addictive and not vegetarian safe.”

juju-beee:

Juju’s eyebrows raised at the others reaction. He had been accused of being very oblivious to people’s emotions, but that was never it. No, he was far too aware of the effect he tended to have, However, the paleness in the others features suggested far more than an issue with the lizard eating aspect. He made a mental note to watch what conversational topics he used. He was an asshole, yes, but there were certain things that you just didn’t trigger in other people.

“Oh, well, I’m a vegetarian so I couldn’t have any of those things anyway.” He was backtracking for the sake of the other. “Do you like slushies? I think I saw a stand nearby in the court.” Juju ruffled the messy curls that he really needed to learn to brush. “My parents were devout Hindu’s, so I can’t even have most candies—isn’t that sad?”

“I’ve been to the zoo before and they had those really big lizards. Komodo dragons? They’re enormous and they’re dangerous – they eat birds and mammals like, ah… deer and stuff? I always thought they looked really cool, though. A bit scary, because they’re so big, but not as scary as really big snakes. Though they’re probably faster than snakes, because they have strong legs that they can run on.” Eun-Jae rambled on, pointedly trying to ignore the slushie question, though he guessed it was impolite to do so. “Aren’t slushies just sugar and water? And artificial coloring?” He asked, pulling out his phone to do a quick Google search. No, that definitely wasn’t going into his body. “Ah, candy is a little overrated, anyway. I like lollipops and chewing gum, but… sugar is addictive, you know? So they put a lot of it in there to make sure you only want to keep eating more. It’s sneaky. I prefer fruits, they’re healthier and can be equally as sweet. Strawberries are my favorite, but I also love blueberries and watermelon!”

[juju-beee]

What are you attracted to in people personality-wise?

.... that’s a pretty shallow question.

[juju-beee]

Clarice Lispector, from An Apprenticeship, or The Book of Delights

[juju-beee]

wtfjaykim:

Jay was already happily settling down in the seat when the person across from him spoke again. “Oh yes, anyt–” He cut himself off when the other continued, his brown eyes widening slightly. A wave of dizziness washed over him and he had to grab a hold of the edge of the table, his face pale. God, he didn’t want to faint a second time today. “I… ah…” It generally took a lot of Eun-Jae to be rendered speechless, but he definitely didn’t know how to respond to this – certainly not when he was feeling so lightheaded. “Are gummy worms okay, too?” He then offered hesitantly. “They’re not alive, but… you can stretch them and tie them together if you try really hard? They’re more fun than gum balls. I almost choked on one of those, actually, so everything is better than gum balls, if you ask me.”

Juju’s eyebrows raised at the others reaction. He had been accused of being very oblivious to people’s emotions, but that was never it. No, he was far too aware of the effect he tended to have, However, the paleness in the others features suggested far more than an issue with the lizard eating aspect. He made a mental note to watch what conversational topics he used. He was an asshole, yes, but there were certain things that you just didn’t trigger in other people.

“Oh, well, I’m a vegetarian so I couldn’t have any of those things anyway.” He was backtracking for the sake of the other. “Do you like slushies? I think I saw a stand nearby in the court.” Juju ruffled the messy curls that he really needed to learn to brush. “My parents were devout Hindu’s, so I can’t even have most candies—isn’t that sad?”

[juju-beee]

captainxflint:

“That could go either way. Either shit sucks or you’re celebrating.”

“Celebrating that shit sucks?” He tried. It was true, of course, he had nothing to be upset about. Juju just felt like he needed to deal with the fact that he had alienated himself from other people to the point that he was all but a hermit. But at least he was feeling something. That was good. 

[juju-beee]

“Well, I’m at a bar,” Juju replied with a slight shake of his head as he rested his glass down. Normally he wouldn’t even bother with socializing but he was three drinks in and was feeling a lot more agreeable than usual. 

“Just found out the dude I’ve been macking on all night is married. And I was gonna let him end my dry spell.” He shook his head and took a long sip of his drink. “Your night going any better?”

[juju-beee]

wtfjaykim:

“Hey! Can I sit with you for a while and pretend we’re like, friends, or something? Not that I don’t want to be friends! I’m sorta just hiding from my classmates. They’re complete donuts and keep trying to make fun of me because I passed out in class today.” Eun-Jae rambled at record speed, an embarrassed smile on his features as he ran a hand through his pink hair. “I’ll pay for whatever you wanna have for lunch!”

Juju found a frown pulling at his lips as the other moved into his space. This was exactly why he didn’t leave his house. It always left so much room for obnoxious incounters that he had zero patience fo. Still, he gave a short nod, tugging his hood back from his face as he let out a short sigh. “Fine.” He motioned for the other to sit, this at least had to be interesting, right? The last time he’d forced himself to be tollerable towards someone with coloured hair he had met Nova. She was nice. So maybe being nice to someone else for a change might reap the same benefits? Was he dumb enough to try? “You’ll pay for anything? anything?” he couldn’t help how he liked to mess with people. Maybe he didn’t get to feel anything, but he certainly did like to take advantage when it came to others. Maybe that was a negative quality. But it was never for anything bad, he just liked to see the stress on their faces when he said something strange. At any rate, it was really hard for him to stop himself when he got started like this. “What if I was into eating live lizards? Would you take me to a petstore and buy me a bucket of those?”

[juju-beee]

[juju-beee]

“And you’re complaining to me why?” Juju asked, a hand pushing through his very much unbrushed hair. “Sounds like you’re not upset about anything really, you just want to hear yourself talk excessively to someone.” The introvert could be accused of the same thing from time to time, but it still irked the hell out of him when people complained about things that weren’t anything to complain about at all.

“Sister’s are hard fucking work man, let me tell you.” Tyson sighed, hands running over his face. “Especially when it’s two against one. They deadass set me up on a blind date, which I wouldn’t even mind because like, I deserve it but like…they set me up with a woman. Their rationale was that I just “needed attention for validation” and they wanted to “make me feel better.” Like, what’s that even supposed to mean? Let me tell you yo, they are the biggest pains in my ass. They’re not wrong and I might have accidentally agreed to go on a second date with this woman but I’m still mad that they’re playing my weaknesses.”

[juju-beee]

“And yet somehow there are people in third world countries suffering through without any of those things.” Juju mused as he feigned patting his own pockets down for something to assist the other. He had nothing, he knew, he just felt like giving her a hard time.

“Look, I have a migraine the size of Texas, so can you help me out? Do you have ibuprofen? Tylenol? Anything? A pack of ice?”

[juju-beee]

xrednova:

Nova had been somewhere between consciousness and the dream world, her mind too loud as usual. It didn’t help that she was still fighting against the acceptance that there were things she wasn’t going to remember, no matter how hard she tried. She knew her friends didn’t fault her for not remembering things, but she definitely blamed herself for still being awkward and uncomfortable about calling them her friends, when she didn’t know anything about them.

The ginger let out a sigh and rolled back onto her side, curling up and feeling her cat stirring just slightly at her feet. “’m sorry, Yitz…” She mumbled, letting out a yawn and closing her eyes, attempting once more to fall asleep.

It happened too often that she struggled to fall asleep. Though she was usually exhausted most of the time, it was easier to take naps during the day than to sleep at night. There were less nightmares that way. Maybe she blamed the fact that she was so terrified of the dark. Maybe during daytime she felt slightly less alone, less isolated from the rest of the world. Maybe every strange noise was less terrifying when it was light outside…

The sound of her phone vibrating next to her pillow startled her, made her flinch and freeze up for a moment before she reached out to unlock the screen, squinting against the light. She blindly reached for her glasses on her nightstand so she could read the message, sitting up a bit straighter once she did.

Her head was spinning for a moment as she swallowed back a wave of panic. This was… weird. It was new and therefore it was terrifying. It took a good minute or two of her just staring at the message before she clumsily typed her reply – her texting skills not the greatest with her trembling hands.

‘Hi. It’s late. Are you okay?’ 

She groaned softly. Such a lame response.

Juju hadn’t expected any sort of response. In fact, he had all but expected that he wouldn’t get one at all because of how late it was. Why did Nova care if he was okay? Was it irregular to text someone to just talk when you couldn’t sleep? Did there need to be some underlying reason that he just wanted some sort of human interaction? He supposed that it was strange for him of all people to seek that sort contact with someone else. Sometimes he just got lonely.

‘I just wanted to talk. I didn’t realize how late it was and that most people were probably sleeping.’ He admitted, a small frown on his lips as he rolled onto his back, ruffling his hair. Why was he bothering Nova? She seemed nice and yet here he was, making it hard for her to sleep. His next message came off bossier than he would have liked, causing him to groan outwardly. ‘go back to sleep’. How did one come back from that? Now he just sounded rude. He hated socializing. It bugged him to no end. He just kind of wanted to talk to Nova. She seemed so nice and didn’t think anything of his general weirdness. He liked that.

He pulled a pillow over his head as he tossed his cell phone to the side. Maybe if he were in college like a normal person he wouldn’t be having this hard of a time just speaking to another person. The two weren’t directly connected, but he would find a way where they were. It was absolutely his own fault that he was like this. He could have been normal, he just hadn’t tried hard enough.

[juju-beee]

Maybe he was a little drunk when he stumbled into the flower shop. Juju wouldn’t admit that he’d lost himself in a bottle of tequila as he attempted to get the petals this damn plant perfect. It was the only way he could calm the anger that had started to pool in his stomach as each brush stroke came out far too thick and nowhere near clean enough. He blamed the lack of references. Fuck google images. He couldn’t move the flower the way he needed to see close enough into it to know how the patterns met. At the first glimpse of human movement, the tall individual waved a hand. “I need an Oxalis Versicolor, like, stat,” he said in an overly enthused tone almost as if he actually knew how to pronounce the name of the infuriating fauna. One might think that he actually liked leaving his apartment and having to talk to other people. He didn’t.

@evildelights

[juju-beee]

Juju found himself staring at the ceiling. Much like every other night, he hadn’t had a single urge to sleep, nor did he really feel like forcing himself. What did people do at times like this? It wasn’t like he usually had anything to do, and his hands were really starting to ache. It seemed like he had painted for days but when you didn’t like talking to anyone, you didn’t like going outside, and you didn’t like tv or music that’s really all you can do. Stull. He just needed a distraction. Things could get painfully lonely. Juju had been looking at the same walls for a little over a week without leaving and his head had started to hurt from all of the monotony.

Teeth dug into his chapped lower lip as he reached for his phone. Maybe he could try socializing again, right? Nova was nice. She was nervous, yeah, but no more than he was. Their awkward nature was something that they had in common, right? It wasn’t something that he could really talk about with her or anything, but since they were on a common ground, maybe she wouldn’t mind talking to him too?

As the far too “hello, how are you? It’s Juju” sent, he didn’t take into account that it was four in the morning. His face formed into a small frown a moment after it sent as his eyes found the time at the top of his screen. “Oh, she’s probably sleeping.” He sighed, realizing that the attempt had failed. Darn.

@xrednova

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