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The place where it rained...

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ONE MORE SECOND AND I START CRYING, I SWEAR TO YOU. I NEED A BIG GEN FANFICTION WITH HIM REFERRING TO THESE TWO SOUNDTRACKS!! SOMEBODY PLEASE

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in their defense, your honor, he had it coming

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Being chronically ill is like

“It’s fine”

“It’s fine”

“It’s fine”

*complete mental breakdown because you can’t do this anymore*

“It’s fine”

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Since the Paralympics are happening and I’m seeing all sorts of people saying “See? This person doesn’t let their disability stop them!”

I would like you to remember that Paralympions are OLYMPIC LEVEL ATHLETES.

How would it feel if I compared your output to that of a literal olympic athlete and used that to justify not helping you or giving you what you need?

Oh, well Michael Phelps and Simone Biles can do it - why can’t you?

Thats how you sound.

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i’m gonna hold your hand with a glove on when i say this

when disabled/chronically ill people tell you they can’t do something, then that is not your cue to tell them that they can actually or that they’ll always find an excuse if they’re looking for one.

when a disabled/chronically ill person says they can’t do something, sometimes that doesn’t mean it’s outside the realm of possibility, sometimes it means if they (attempted to) do that, they will seriously hurt themselves.

when a disabled/chronically ill person says they can’t do something, sometimes it’s preventative care, and they refuse to do that thing to prevent a flare up from happening/their symptoms getting worse in the first place.

disabled/chronically ill people are not “looking for excuses”, they are giving you reasons why. something they don’t even have to do! so maybe just accept the reasons they give you.

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my partner said something that kinda rocked my world

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⚠️medical vent ⚠️

Tics, breathing difficulties, medical neglect (?)

I went to the ER Wednesday after suffering through terrible tics and difficulty breathing as a result of said tics for 24 hrs. It got better with sleep but worse again with time. My o2 levels went lower than 72 for three minutes before they were willing to administer medication. My frustration with the medical system/community is a whole other thing right now. They think it was bronchial spasms but refused to diagnose me. And since then, I’ve had tics pretty constantly, and they’re no longer localized to my neck and shoulders. I now also get facial tics and click my tongue pretty often.

And like… I’m having to come to terms with the fact that I probably don’t have just a neurological condition, but a Neurodegenerative condition. A loved one who has MS is no longer being subtle about the suggestion I may have it (“bronchial spasms are the number one killer of people with MS”) and while my MRIs don’t have any glaring signs as of March, that doesn’t inherently mean shit. Especially when your neurologist is eager to dismiss everything. But also in general, it’s not a definitive way to diagnose the disease.

Anyways. It’s been so so hard. I can’t even cry without making my tics worse and needing to stop, so I don’t accidentally trigger anything. I can’t talk about it because I don’t have any super close friends, certainly not any who would get it or even want to hear me get upset about it. “You have a good support network, you can schedule appointments, it’ll get better.” I don’t know that it will, and that’s not the POINT. The point is it sucks NOW. I’m hurting NOW. And my disabled community is small and either doesn’t get it/responds the same way, or doesn’t have the spoons.

I’m mourning. But I have no outlets to mourn. I’m forever stuck in a loop of WANTING to express the terror and loss and grief and pain, and not wanting to be overly negative, overly affected, too much.

“The good people will come out of the woodworks, just be honest and if they don’t support you, they’re not right for you” I need support now. I need to be heard now. I can’t keep cycling through well-meaning friends who end up being unable to take on the burden of witnessing even my physical symptoms, without even going into the mental toll.

I dunno. I feel like I’m screaming to be heard, to be helped- to doctors, to friends, to body. And it’s only scratching my throat.

Six months since my big medical episode. Two years since symptoms started really affecting me. No diagnosis. No effective meds. Just meloxicam and “psychosomatic” labeled everywhere despite the fact that the ONLY thing impacting my mental health anymore is my physical health.

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if you’re not into some dumb embarrassing shit you’re not living your truth

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Happy deltajune

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One of the things that makes the family conflict in Lilo & Stitch work narratively is that Cobra is correct in that Lilo and Nani's current situation is non-sustainable. And yes, Nani is not prepared to handle everything by herself. But losing the custody is not the solution either, and to a degree Cobra seems to believe the same (he legit does not want that to happen), but if Nani can't solve the problem, then from his perspective it's the least harmful solution.

And the conflict is solved because what Lilo and Nani need (what they REALLY needed) is a support net. Someone, anyone to be there to take at least SOME of the burden from Nani and give her breathing room.

Which is why Jumba and Peakley joining the family alongside Stitch, and become a constant pressence who share the burden of the household, makes all the difference.

And this does not solve all the problems, because the movie is not about magically resolving those problems, it's about putting the characters in a situation in which they can move forward as a family. And for their desire to be a family and be together as a family, to be respected.

Anyway, someone told me what the remake did for the ending

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Alien pulling your sleeve to get your attention: and who is this Cunt you all serve

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Production art for Lilo & Stitch by David Wang, Geraldine Kovats, William Silvers, and Peter Moehrle ✗

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Honestly, y'all, I'm begging you. Take the time to think and learn for yourself. Even if it's just something casual like knitting or cooking. Exercise your brain. It's important.

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Just mentioning that Sans is related to science makes me faint.

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some chara doodles :]