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Today I learned the word for “loser” in Japanese. “to lose” is 負け (ma-ke) and “person” is 人 (hito), so you would assume that 負け人 (makehito) is the word for loser because it literally translates to “person who loses.” But no. “Loser,” in Japanese, is 負け犬—“makeinu.” 犬 is dog. Not only is calling someone a dog insulting, but you are calling someone a dog who loses. And of course “losing dog.” So when I realized this I looked out the window and thanked Mitski like you would thank the patron saint of air conditioners after one just barely missed you falling on the city sidewalk—with an intense understanding of the paths of life and a smidgen of parasocial affection. Then I went back to losing at Japanese potential-past-negative-tense conjugation tic-tac-toe

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ugh. forget everything i’ve ever said. unless you thought it was smart or funny in which case remember it forever

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“nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”

damn you must suck at cooking. check out some youtube tutorials man. i believe in you.

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I am a grown ass adult and I still get nausea when I feel like I'm in trouble. They're gonna send me to the principals office and take away my toys for a week. Can you just fucking kill me instead of making me stew in my fucking anxiety

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a dead ideal

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ouch

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

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recent realization has been just how much of rgu is based on soviet art. we all know by now how ohtori's warping architecture is inspired by constructivism

but apart from that, the thing that makes rgu's cinematography special—it's usage of esoteric images to create visual new meanings + it's repeated shots of lined up objects—is so clearly Eisenstein

rgu directly utilizes Eisenstein's theory of montage—and it's my favorite usage of it too. it feels like the technique was created ex professo for rgu's cinematography. i could think of no better use for it. that girl sure is revolutionary.

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i don‘t think there is any film, any show, any book, any song, any piece of media ever created that will touch me the same way that revolutionary girl utena did. try to convince me otherwise.

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met my narrative foil & i can’t fucking stand her

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listening to mitski on a cd player changes you

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i love toxic and rancid homoeroticism i hate wholesome gay representation and i think queerbaiting is awesome

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when mitski said “one morning this sadness will fossilise, and i will forget how to cry” and when fiona apple said “i don’t cry when i’m sad anymore no no, tears calcify in my tummy”

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and someday together we'll shine

based on this beautiful art by shirahama kamome!!!!

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i don’t know what is worse: completely separating (contemporary!) art from the artist, or cancelling historical art with modern standards

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whoever decided that “bring me to life” by evanescene (or the fallen album im general) is cringey needs to have a word with me. and why did everyone collectively agree? everyone is so scared of cringe to the point of missing out on amazing music pfffffff

if amy lee has a million fans, i am one of them.

if amy has one fan, it is me.

if amy has no fans, that means i am dead.

i will forever defend evanescene and this album idc