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From This Angle.

Installation Maquette with shadow’s touching - wood and steel

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FLUFFERTON

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Who said all sage-type wizards need to wear weathered robes and have long beards with hair coming out of their ears? I had a character idea I wanted explore about a Gandalf-type wizard who cares about detail and finesse- an idea I found quite charming. Black sued wizard’s hat hand-stitched in Italy.. Wool cape trimmed with velvet mohair.. And a Palisander Rosewood Staff with woven natural leather handle and silver plated shoe. Plus he’s a sass-atronic shade-machine. Might be developing more of him.:)

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this one’s for the space boy

(i)

i told him to take me away because my veins will dry out one day like a river out of time.

he only smiled.

for the universe will never stop stretching; to him this dark shroud of existence is ever expanding, it will forever fill itself with wonders and liveliness

and he will make them fly like he made me ignite the first time my eyes stared into his vortex; how it struck me that i have been  breathing the wrong way  before i met him.

(ii)

one day he fell for a supernova her darkness alluring; he inhaled her ashes like it would absolve his past sins but no one could save him when she exploded inside of his soul leaving fractures of her cutting through his dark gleaming skin,

and they say a wanderer’s soul is immortal but you can stll see flakes of his skin hovering under the giant crucifix after night falls and i guess i’ve spent too much of my life trying to mend the cracks between his broken bones.

(iii)

more than anything he wanted to be the gods and i get him mixed up with all the royals he’d ever dreamt to become. was he a gold lion; or was he a high priest of the moon? falling from space he carved my name upon the sky and for once, i believed that i matter.

all the lives he touched, the holes he teared inside the nebula no matter how hard he tries to tiptoe across the sentient stillness above. and they say he strides like raging storm but every time i caress his hair it was all mortal flesh holding in the bones (they are all falling apart because                          i could not fix him.)

the night sky was his mind but all he’ll ever be is a ripple in my graceful blue. i am still waiting for him to wake up for words can only go so far across empty space.

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Cari Ann Wayman

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am i still me?

.me@ monochrome

I see a monochrome world. World without colours. Can we express something in it? With black and white. I want to live in there, the world without colors. Its like, i want to escape from reality. Too much color in my life. Besides, im a monochrome things, who trapped in wonderful-colourful world. Someone, save.me

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I would choose five more minutes with you, over a lifetime with anyone else.

Joshua Greenaway (via wordsnquotes)

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I need, someone.

MMORPG, how to say this, massively multiplayer online role playing game. Bagaikan kehidupan kedua seseorang. Didalam sebuah dengan berbagai aturan yang telah ditetapkan. Tidak selengkap dunia, tetapi cukup untuk beraktivitas. Apa yang dimaksud aktivitas? Seperti kita makan, minum, bermain bola, jalan jalan. Didunia nyata, melakukan aktivitas bersama adalah syarat untuk pertemanan yang kuat, melihat satu sama lain, melihat ekspresi satu sama lain, mengetahui apa saja yang sedang dia lakukan, bagaimana perasaannya, dan banyak hal lainya yang mempengaruhi. Begitu pula dalam MMORPG. Secara realtime, kita dan orang lain melakukan aktivitas bersama, dimana dalam aktivitas tersebut, akan selalu ada hal-hal yang akan menjadi bahan pembicaraan. Dari berburu monster, dikejar boss monster, keabisan amunisi yang berakhir semua job yang menggunakan senjata jarak jauh ikutan adu bogem sama monster, di PvP party lain, di wipe sama boss monster, dan hal-hal menyenangkan lainnya. Sama seperti dalam aktivitas di dunia biasa, kita baca buku bareng, nonton film bareng, main bola bareng, jalan jalan kesuatu tempat entah sama siapa, dan aktivitas lainnya. Dari aktivitas di dunia nyata juga muncul hal-hal yang ga terduga buat jadi bahan omongan. Dari berbicara, kita saling mengetahui informasi kecil yang bukan hanya apa yang ingin dia sampaikan, tetapi juga makna makna implisit dari interaksi langsung. Sifatnya, tempramennya, apa yang dia suka dan tidak, ketertarikan dia, kebosanannya, dan lain-lain.

Untuk seorang yang tidak bisa menemukan apa yang ia cari dalam kehidupan nyata, seringkali MMORPG adalah pelarian. Dimana dia bisa menemukan interaksi real-time untuk mengisi hasrat sosial dan ingin dimengerti manusia. Ditambah lagi, siapa dia dalam MMORPG tidak ada yang ditentukan oleh roulette nasib. Warna rambut, gender, warna mata, tinggi, warna kulit, suara, sifat, dimana dia dilahirkan, dan untuk apa dia ada, semua sudah ditentukan diawal. Dalam MMORPG, tidak ada penyesalan dan ketidakpuasan tentang "Mengapa kita dilahirkan seperti ini.", "Badanku agak gemuk nih, aku ngga suka", "Waduh, kuping gw gede sebelah".

Kadang, saya merasa kesepian. Merasa ingin bicara kepada seseorang, tetapi entah siapa dia. Kemudian saya login, dan berjalan jalan, mencari percakapan yang sedang berjalan, kemudian ikut nimbrung disitu. Jalanin aktivitas bareng, ketawa ketawa hanya dengan melihat chat dan emocticon. Logout dan, rasanya berat untuk meninggalkan mereka. Gak sabar nunggu besok buat login dan beraktivitas bareng lagi.

In real world, saat malam menerpa, you cant just talk to someone and say, "hey i need to talk about something". saat lu sebenernya gapunya bahan apa yang pengen lu omongin, dan juga dia gapunya interest buat ngomong sama lu. Akhirnya apa, awkward. Karena lu ga beraktivitas, lu cuma ngomong-ngomong-ngomong dan ngomong. Entah apa yang diomongin, bukannya berinteraksi secara spontan, tapi lu mikir "Harus gimana gw ngomongnya", "balesnya gimana ya...". In my opinion, chatting with someone dont cure your loneliness, but, Interacting with someone, would do.

This why, mmorpg, is the new cure for loneliness. Fuck my life.

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How yall been

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It is hard enough to remember my opinions, without also remembering my reasons for them!

Friedrich Nietzsche (via philosophybits)

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Shelter Intro

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This is not the place for me. I really think that I don’t belong here. But I don’t know where I want to go, and I don’t have legs that can carry me somewhere.