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[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much…

Ernest Hemingway, Men Without Women (via wordsnquotes)

Yeah. Hi. Me.

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

Feeling worthless

Can't help but feel like a piece of shit. I get reminded every day that I am. I get it, I do. I'm a worthless piece of shit and I'm okay with that. What I'm not okay with, is breathing. I don't wanna fucking be here anymore. I've said it multiple times but I really fucking don't. I give up. I give up on friends, relationships, family, everyone and everything. I'm just done. I've lost people who mean the world to me and it's my fault cause all I'm fucking good for is fucking shit up. I'm tired of it. Tired of it all. Just wanna be fucking happy for once in my damn life. Yeah, I've been happy but it never fucking stays. I always fuck something up. I'm just not meant for relationships. I just wanna feel fucking important to someone but that's never gonna happen. So I. Give. The. Fuck. Up.

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

Uhg. Fuck

Uhg. Fuck. I just have so much on my fucking mind. Wish that I could just go to his house, see Avery and watch Netflix with him and just unwind. He always made things better. When I was with him, whatever was upsetting me, wouldn't bother me as much when I was with him. I made a mistake. Now he's leaving for boot camp next summer. Ha, yeah. He told me that and I was acting like I was happy for him, which of course I am, but I'll just miss him so much and it makes me sad. I already miss him so much. Damn. I just want things to be the way they were before. I need to see him again. I need to see him soon.

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

I have to feel what I’m writing, right down to the core.

Steven Erikson (via wordsnquotes)

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

I feel invisible sometimes. I look at myself and there’s nothing there.

Mark Haddon, The Red House (via wordsnquotes)

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

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[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

Every. Fucking. Day. Wish I was prettier. Wish I had bigger boobs. Wish I didn't break out. Wish I had perfect hair. Wish I could just be perfect and confident.

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

You are the night, and the night alone understands you and enfolds you in its arms.

Anne Rice (via wordsnquotes)

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

Always on my mind...

Fuck man. I really fucking miss my ex. Like, after seeing him, he's all that's really on my mind. Life's shitty man. Just miss making bacon, eggs, toast and coffee with him and just chilling and watching Netflix and having our dog irritate the fuck out of us and get in between us when we're cuddling😍 he's such a pain in the ass but I love him. And leaving his house late and hanging out with our friends and smoking, galactic bowling, and just having so damn much fun. Some of the nights were shitty and we argued but we eventually made up and made love or just fell asleep, cuddling with each other. I miss his scent. Falling asleep in his arms. Waking up and seeing him. Damn. He's seriously on my fucking mind. Someone help.

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

Seeing my ex for the first time in a while

Wow. So today I finally worked up the courage to go to my exes house to bring his shit to him. Thought I would be fine doing it. I got there, not a care in the world, just wanted to get it over with. Here's what happened: I walked through the front door, ignored him and went straight to his cats cause I was afraid to look at him. Luckily, the lights were off. But I eventually turned them on because the anticipation to see his face was eating at me. He asked me if I was staying to vent or just leaving, well I wanted to spend more time with him so of course I said I'd stay. I just kinda rambled on about bullshit. I tried taking his phone away and that kinda resulted in me climbing on him. I looked him in his big, bold, beautiful eyes and stared at his lips, wanting to kiss him but I couldn't do it. I wasn't sure how he was gonna react. He probably would have pushed me away and just said it was wrong and being denied would have hurt so I just sat on the other end of the couch. At one point, I got close to him and he goes "you can't be this close" but he couldn't see that being close to him was all that I wanted. I eventually laid down next to him and wrapped his arms around me. He didn't like that very much but to be honest, I didn't give a damn, I just wanted to be in his arms again. I finally got up and said that I had to leave, which of course I didn't want to, but it was killing me by being there. As I went to leave, he wraps me up in his arms and holds me. I tried getting away cause damn, I was about to break down and I couldn't do it in front of him. I finally got him to get up and give me a goodbye hug. That resulted in giving him "our old hug". So he picked me up, and I wrapped my legs around him and for a moment, everything just felt right. Then I realized that it's not and I finally left. Walked out his door awkwardly cause that's just how I am. Ohhhh, what a lovely night it was.

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

I wish that photographs were physical spaces, like tunnels; that you could crawl inside them and go back.

Lauren Oliver, Vanishing Girls (via wordsnquotes)

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

What? @watson6707

Thoughts of an insomniac

It’s sad. I try to be happier but here’s the thing. It’s 3:30 am and I haven’t been able to sleep because you’re still on my mind. Shitty, huh? I was reading the notes I have in my iPod (that you left me) earlier. Damn, there was a lot of fighting but there were some really sweet ones too. Like, the third night I stayed at your house for a few hours after my cheer practice and I fell asleep in your arms and you wrote me that extremely long note saying that I’m beautiful and that you don’t have long because I could have woken up at any minute and my mom was on her way to get me anyway. I almost got through all of them until I just couldn’t do it anymore. I just kinda shut my iPod off for the night, oh then you texted me and didn’t necessarily help the situation so I’ve kinda ignored you all day. Sorry. I know you don’t check tumblr anymore so writing this is pointless but it still feels good to get things out. I just use tumblr as my venting buddy I guess.

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

I'm not saying it does Cahner. I can not put myself up to see you. Oh and I found your clothes and I washed them for you at like 5 am cause I didn't sleep and was cleaning my room but yeah. I have everything, when I get home I'll just put it all in the bag and have my mom take it with her tomorrow if she can. watson6707

Thoughts of an insomniac

It’s sad. I try to be happier but here’s the thing. It’s 3:30 am and I haven’t been able to sleep because you’re still on my mind. Shitty, huh? I was reading the notes I have in my iPod (that you left me) earlier. Damn, there was a lot of fighting but there were some really sweet ones too. Like, the third night I stayed at your house for a few hours after my cheer practice and I fell asleep in your arms and you wrote me that extremely long note saying that I’m beautiful and that you don’t have long because I could have woken up at any minute and my mom was on her way to get me anyway. I almost got through all of them until I just couldn’t do it anymore. I just kinda shut my iPod off for the night, oh then you texted me and didn’t necessarily help the situation so I’ve kinda ignored you all day. Sorry. I know you don’t check tumblr anymore so writing this is pointless but it still feels good to get things out. I just use tumblr as my venting buddy I guess.

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

Tired.

I'm just so damn fucked up and I can't do this anymore. I'm tired of crying, I'm tired of feeling like I wanna die every fucking day. I'm tired of feeling like a fuck up. I'm just so tired. I'm done. Goodbye✌️

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

I'm not gonna do that Cahner. I can't. It would be difficult for me. watson6707

Thoughts of an insomniac

It’s sad. I try to be happier but here’s the thing. It’s 3:30 am and I haven’t been able to sleep because you’re still on my mind. Shitty, huh? I was reading the notes I have in my iPod (that you left me) earlier. Damn, there was a lot of fighting but there were some really sweet ones too. Like, the third night I stayed at your house for a few hours after my cheer practice and I fell asleep in your arms and you wrote me that extremely long note saying that I’m beautiful and that you don’t have long because I could have woken up at any minute and my mom was on her way to get me anyway. I almost got through all of them until I just couldn’t do it anymore. I just kinda shut my iPod off for the night, oh then you texted me and didn’t necessarily help the situation so I’ve kinda ignored you all day. Sorry. I know you don’t check tumblr anymore so writing this is pointless but it still feels good to get things out. I just use tumblr as my venting buddy I guess.

[justanotherfckedupteenagegirl]

Wish I could work up the fucking courage to text you.