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Poldark 2x10

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need a full body massage a margarita 400mg of ibuprofen a plate of brownies at least an hour in a jacuzzi and 20,000 dollars cash

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Yeah, I’d watch Muppets Lord of the Rings

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Imagine Eönwë playing with some Elf children in Valinor and showing them how to hold their toy swords while they reenact epic battles of the First Age. He then offers to be a big bad Balrog they can fight, but one of the children lowers their toy sword despite his encouragement and just pets his wings with their small chubby hand, saying they don't want to accidentally hurt him, and Eönwë is trying so hard not to cry because a tiny incarnate being so determined not to hurt the greatest warrior among the Maiar is the most precious thing he's ever seen

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it's important for xiao hua to have hobbies, like proving hei xiazi wrong

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xyc: 🤨

wx & wp: ? ??? ????!

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everyone stop!!! take a glass of chill water and pass it on :)

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All elves eventually having to come to terms with the fact that no, your parents/ancestors don’t have the experience/wisdom to deal with something bc they’re only a century or 2 older than you, compared to the 3 millennia you are now.

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The fact that Orlando Bloom (Legolas) and Andy Serkis (Gollum) both said that they based their performances in Lord of the Rings off of cat behavior really shows you the sheer range of what cats are like

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Ok, no, but wouldn’t it be hilarious is the feanorians are closer in age to their half aunts/uncles than their cousins?

(Hc obviously)

Like, feanor fell in love, married, and had maitimo pretty much as soon as he turned of age, but finwe kinda waited to have kids with indis untill his first child was grown up bc he felt guilty or smth. Also bc most elves don’t immediately have kids when they get married.

Anyway, it results in:

Findis and Maitimo being the same age.

Nolofinwe and Makalaure being the same age.

Lalwen and Tyelkormo being the same age.

And Arafinwe and Carnister being the same age.

Listen, they’re not doing it on purpose, having them born so close to each other, it just happened.

But imagine how wild it must be! Imagine the feanorians being told to listen to their aunts/uncles and half of them are straight up like “they’re literally my age/younger than me”

Imagine only the twins being in the age range of their cousins, by which i mean that amras, amrod, and Findekano being the same age, and the rest of the cousins are all younger.

Imagine how funny/weird it must be for the cousins to be told to call an elf, that is older than their dad, cousin instead of uncle.

Idk, i just think it’d be fricking hilarious. Just, the family dynamic would be so interesting. Also, it’s make feanor naming maitimo nelyafinwe more understandable bc (depending on whether he’s born before or after findis) he would be the third (male) finwe.

Idk, just thoughts. Just a fun little blorbo. Don’t take it to seriously.

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bro woke up and chose violence

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People used to comment on web comics.

People used to comment on fanfiction.

People used to comment on fanart.

People used to comment on OCs.

I hate "content" culture.

I hate "consuming content" and scrolling immediately to the next thing.

People used to be excited about the art that other people created.

People used to want to share that excitement with creators.

I hate this future.

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*laying down staring at the ceiling* do you ever think about how zhang hailou waited decades for zhang qiling to come back to him, after everything he'd prepared for him so that finally the zhang family would give him the respect and recognition he deserved, and now he has no idea if zhang qiling even remembers him anymore

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i'm not done thinking about hei xiazi in sha hai, and how as the narrative progresses it gradually strips back all his layers and brings out that bright streak of humanity he's got running through him that he's wrapped himself around at heart.

we're first introduced to him through li cu's perspective. this kid knows nothing about hei xiazi, and so he's unsettling, half-unreadable, a reason to be cautious. both of them are tired and someone like hei xiazi who made it through the desert this far while following them has to be dangerous; one of the first shots they cut to once he's taken off his disguise is his blade, after all. and hei xiazi does spend the conversation calculating out loud what it is to him to save li cu's life over prioritizing wu xie's, too casually, like he doesn't care. but at the same time their first interactions as a whole are just hei xiazi sitting down, explaining everything at once, and then letting li cu eat his fried rice.

and then later, in the abandoned base, is where he gets more interesting. hei xiazi isn't nice to li cu by any stretch (honestly their whole dynamic is mostly just them comfortably being bastards to one another) but they fall into a partnership, and even though their whole mission is urgent he still drops it all to do something like give li cu a shoulder massage. sure he's still an enigma who holds a gun to people's heads without hesitation, but when hei xiazi could have used that same gun on the mutant stalking/attacking them, he doesn't. even when killing him would've been a justified reaction.

(his words here when talking to the mutant in particular are fascinating to me. once hei xiazi confirms he can understand him, the first thing he tells him is "你是人". you're human. and he pauses after that before asking about his mutation. that sentence wasn't part of the question, it was a statement. a declaration, to someone warped almost beyond recognition of the living.)

and after all this, after they've gotten the serum, hei xiazi throws li cu all of his supplies and lets him go. the scenario he decided would be the worst option for himself when he was weighing their chances of survival, the first time they met.

the next time we see hei xiazi is when he's talking to wu xie, on their return to gutongjing, and it's a horrifically honest moment from both of them. "我不管怎么说, 还是会痛一痛". no matter how i say it, i'll still be in pain, he tells wu xie. it's not just a testament to deep it runs for hei xiazi to say it so directly but genuinely how much he and wu xie trust each other to say it to him.

later on he's down in the tunnels, and hei xiazi's more playful dynamic with su wan falls into place almost immediately (they might be my favorite duo in sha hai, to be honest). he's so wholly dedicated to keeping li cu and su wan alive. but when things inevitably do go from bad to worse and they're all split up, and then the trio becomes hei xiazi, liang wan, and su wan, to me they're one of the more interesting groupings of the show.

first we have hei xiazi and liang wan's first meeting, in which he's initially as apparently unapproachable to her as he seemed to li cu at first. a few minutes later, though, he says something which @eirenical has also already pointed out from other dmbj media and talked about in this wonderful post: "保护一个人比伤害一个人要难得多". protecting someone is much harder than hurting someone. and yet protecting is how hei xiazi tries to act, so much of the time. he's all sharp edges and he knows how to kill effortlessly, but all he's aimed to do in this story is to save the people around him, with whatever means he must.

hei xiazi will always be in pain because he cares so much about so many people, past and present. we won't ever know how many of them he's lost.

and another brutally direct interaction soon follows, as he shows liang wan where he was bitten by the snake and tells her not to save him. it's one of my favorite moments from both characters. we don't get confirmation that hei xiazi is immortal in sha hai, but here we do get a sense of how truly tired he is. he was ready to ensure the others knew their way out, and then he could rest, and die. but liang wan tells him he's not allowed to do that, she's a doctor and it's her mission to save people and he's not allowed to fade away under her watch, last vial of antidote between them be damned. and hei xiazi does visibly seem to find some spirit to carry on in that, from this mortal who fights for life with so much beautiful determination because she's always had less time left compared to him and always will.

after, when time seems to be up for all three of them- hei xiazi, su wan, and liang wan- above the cliff and below it, they're some of the scenes that haunt me most in this entire show. they're all holding onto each other for sentiment's sake and hei xiazi's smile as he braces himself to die is what gets to me. he's exhausted and it's the end of the road, and there's some comfort in dying with friends by your side. i don't think he's scared of death, not at that moment. but he steps off that rock singing that stupid song about fried rice so the others can die with some laughter and not just fear, too. it's a little, selfless last act.

but none of them die, they all survive and wait to die again, and that long wait is terrifying. laying there with liang wan ripping beetles out of his arm is the first time we see hei xiazi show genuine, unmasked pain, too tired to hide it now despite covering up everything else he's suffered before. and once the hunger and thirst has chipped away at them all is when he tells su wan he's the last of his family, and gives him that pair of glasses to keep safe and remember him by. "没有为什么. 答应我". there's no "why". just promise me. yet with that is a silent admission: maybe hei xiazi has made peace with dying but he's scared of what comes after, of what happens when how you're remembered is out of your hands. who knows how many last images of different people he's kept safe in his memories, who had no one else to acknowledge they once existed. it's a last wish that he'll know who will hold his.

they live again, though, they live to see daylight, and hei xiazi's first words under the sun again are a thank-you-not-thank-you to su wan for believing they could get out. for the most part, when hei xiazi appears it's him and su wan from here on out, and so now it's su wan through whom we see hei xiazi. for the first time we get to see hei xiazi as he is outside of a life or death situation, with their relationship, and what a wonderful relationship it is too. from the first time we see them both outside su wan's door is a new level of how deep their trust goes.

hei xiazi only agreed to take off his glasses in gutongjing to fulfill a terrified last request. but now they're both safe, su wan is going home, and he shows his eyes anyway. in the middle of the street, in broad daylight. this isn't an unlit tunnel, hei xiazi can't see anything while he gifts su wan those glasses. it's such impossibly casual vulnerability just for this kid's wish that was since made void, but really hei xiazi has probably been ride or die for him almost since the beginning.

and after this we get to see even more little things about hei xiazi's everyday life. the street stall he likes to eat at, the banter with su wan when he's more relaxed and amused, the reality that yeah, in the end no matter the adaptation this man is still kind of a broke bitch. we see him as a proper mentor and master at what he does in his own right after taking on su wan as his apprentice, too, and those lessons bring me so much joy.

hei xiazi might still be bullying su wan the entire time, and he's still this side of unhinged, but he's also truly teaching su wan and he's so fucking fond of him. the last we see of hei xiazi and su wan together is hei xiazi taking him to huo daofu's, not because he personally is invested in yang hao's life but he knows su wan is and that's enough for him to go out of his way to see to it that they reconcile. a random errand on his part, but one that makes su wan's entire world. hei xiazi does care. not just in this but about so many things, so many people. for all the hurt it's brought him he's still so emotionally human and he'll never stop or trade that for anything.

i have absolutely no idea how to end this. i just really love sha hai hei xiazi, ok?