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[LYRICS] IU (아이유) - Celebrity

Chorus by IU Lyrics by IU Composed by Ryan S. Jhun, Jeppe London Bilsby, Lauritz Emil Christiansen, IU, Chloe Latimer, Celine Svanback Arranged by Jeppe London Bilsby, Lauritz Emil Christiansen, Ryan S. Jhun

Living at the edges of society, Grown up with a slouch in your shoulders, An outsider that is a nuisance to everyone

From your walk, to your clothes, to the music playlist in your earphones, everything is *minor.

I bet you have no idea Above your lowered head Where the bright lights  Are shining towards

It’s alright to take your time I just hope you’ll know in the end The one and only You are my celebrity

Don’t forget, between the clouded darkness You’re a star painted with the left hand Can’t you see it? I mean how beautiful that one and only is You are my celebrity

Celebrity You are my celebrity

Your weary face looks as though Someone had powered you off The sound of your heartbeat, too quiet

The glow you possess, Imagination, identity They’re all on a diet

I bet you have no idea Written for you,  who hasn’t fully bloomed, A bygone love poem

It’s alright to wander around I just hope you’ll smile in the end The one and only You are my celebrity

Don’t forget, between the clouded darkness, You’re a star painted with the left hand Can’t you see it? I mean how beautiful that one and only is You are my celebrity

A constellation followed by each footprint A rough sketch engraved by those clumsy steps It’s a path to meet you only Just take that path, trace the dotted line

Don’t forget, amidst this long winter A flower will bloom through the frozen cracks Can’t you see it? I mean how beautiful spring will be tomorrow You are my celebrity

Celebrity You are my celebrity

*t/n: minor (in konglish context means niche/ not popular)

Source: Melon Translated by IUteamstarcandy

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I am really into this song at the moment.. Love it 

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Dear Diary

Hello again, my friend. Been long since I have written a diary but I really want to start this habit again even though it kind of a little late to form a new habit at my current age. But hey! We always have to take the first step to start something new and a habit is form only if we continue to make an effort in repeating what we want to do to form that habit. I am sure we are able to make it right? I mean mostly me but I just need more encouragement. 555555

Been watching a lot of Thai drama recently since I first watched Girl From Nowhere from Netflix. It was my very first Thai drama. Before I watch it, my view of Thai drama was not very good as I always was not fond in watching anything in Thai. But I kept seeing Girl From Nowhere on Netflix and was like telling myself, “ Hey, why not right? Maybe it was a sign.” And boom, I fell in love with Thai Drama. I love it because of their language, culture and also their storyline? I have to admit some are quite mainstream but there is always something unexpected I get from the series! I am always in awe to be honest and I always have this open mind and heart when I start every new series because am sure I would enjoy it to be honest.

One thing I love about Thai drama is their Actors. I don’t know where to start, they are handsome and beautiful! And they are very professional. Sometime when I watch a drama from my country, I would cringe a little on their acting but I don’t feel that way when I watch Thai drama. They really portray each characters so nicely... And what shocks me even more is their personalities. Most of the actors are studying while filming. like?.... I can’t even focus on my studies during school days yet they are working and trying so hard?.. I am really in awe and I really salute them.. I really hope that I would have their determination in life too.. Yet it is kind of impossible in this first world country I am living in. I would really want to go visit Thailand if possible. I wonder if it would happen...

But for now.. at this point, I would really want to focus more on myself. Like less on other people because I usually get myself hurt when I care for others. Mel, you can do it... Would love to study Thai language but it is so difficult!!! 

Anyway just a small update, have decided to take charge in planning for a mini xmas gathering at my place for my aunt and my family to enjoy the festive. I hope everything goes smoothly! Finally gotten some fairy lights and I can’t wait to start decorating :) Going to get xmas tree tomorrow with my sister. Hoping tomorrow would be a nice day too. On a side note, why do I have such a big pimple on my forehead? Oh my gosh! Hoping that it would be gone too. And omg? I kind of forgot that I need to meet my friends tomorrow as well.. I need to remember to take care of myself when am outside too due to the covid situration. I don’t want to risk anything at this point in time. 

For now let me go back to my emotional side and binge watch Thai drama. 

Would update tomorrow again...

Love, 

Mel

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Dear B,

Its been 7 months plus since you left this world and left us. I did not want to count the days as it hurts me even more if I do that. I hope you are well wherever you are. Thank you. 

Things changed, obviously and sadly. Not sure if it is for the best though but am trying to live it as much as I could without you by my side. It is tough, it’s been tough. Some days I really could not continue living on my own, I really wanted to go to you ASAP. But maybe I did not have the courage to end my life and of course my closed ones will feel sad. No one could understand.

As long as you are no longer suffering... It is fine with me. This ending. Our ending.

Please continue to look after us, look after me. Till we meet again, I wish I could tell you face to face that I made it. I made it till the end. See you. 

xoxo,

M

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To whoever is reading this, I’m sending you oceans of love and light to help you with all the hardships you are facing in life and come out stronger.

✨💜✨☯️✨🕉️✨

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<3

Actual conversation between me and my boufriend watching supersize vs super skinny

Show: It takes 6 years to fully recover from an eating disorder.

Boyfriend: *looks at me*

Me: I don’t have an eating disorder

Boyf: When is the last time you had 3 meals a day?

Me:

Me: like 10 years ago lol

Boyf: I dOnT hAvE aN eAtInG dIsOrDeR

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“Do you know what it is you have to do?”

“Yes.”

“So you understand your purpose in life?”

“No.”

“Why not?”

“Because I don’t have one.”

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Hurting yourself on the outside feels so good when you’re hurting on the inside.

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Me: doesn’t drink any actual water for long periods of time

Me at 2am: chugs an obscene amount of water, gets physically sick

Me: wow

self-care

fucking

suuuuucks

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Some old wounds never truly heal, and bleed again at the slightest word.

George R.R. Martin (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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“If you need me, wanna see me

You better hurry, cause I’m leaving soon.”

— Listen Before I Go // Billie Eilish

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