jyprincess

[jyprincess]

A MONTH FULL OF TEARS

Journal entry #1 September 2 2024

Today, I felt so upset because I made a big mistake towards someone. It started when I lied to her about someone and decided to not tell her anything. I thought she would never find out about this but I was wrong. She’s very important to me and I don’t want to make her disappointed for what I did, but I didn’t realize that being dishonest will hurt her even more, but there’s no turning back. However, I need to continue with my life with the person that I am currently really in-love with. I know I’m being selfish because I just fell in love with this boy, but the first time I saw him I felt the feeling that I need to continue my life with this new person.

Journal entry #2 September 4

That day it was heavily raining as if the rain could understand my emotions. I never felt this empty in my entire life, as if everything seemed not good and I’m having a bad day ever. I got my period pain and my heart dropped because I lost someone that meant the world to me. I felt really heartbroken that day, everything that I did feels not right. She was my bestfriend in my life, I knew her since high-school but the things that I did will not be forgiven. What have I done?? Why did I do that to her? I couldn’t help but felt guilty everytime I looked at our picture. We spend a lot of time together, she was part of my life but I just ruined everything in just one night!!. I will never forgive myself for the things that I did to her.

Journal entry #3 September 28

I miss her, every time, every minute, every second. Anyone who read this will think that I’m crazy because I’m missing someone this hard. Everything that I did all this time was only to distract myself from the pain of losing her. The boy that I’ve been in the relationship since August 27 made me feel better about myself after I lost someone who was very important for me. He gave me such a wonderful feeling that I thought I already lost. For me, he is something that I want to treasure forever. But during our quarrels, I felt my painful past coming back to haunt me and the empty feeling after I lose my best friend.

[jyprincess]

EXHAUSTED WEEK

Journal Entry #1 August 1 2024

Me and my friends went to IOI CITY MALL to spend time together. When we arrived, the first place that we visited was Sopoong, the Korean restaurant. I ordered jjamppong since that was my favorite Korean dish. After we finished eating, me and Adriana went to Rubi because we wanted to buy sandals and shoes. Meanwhile, Umaiyrah and Izzaty went to Bath and Body Works because they wanted to buy perfumes. As for Nena and Yazie, they went to Pop Mart because Yazie wanted to buy a new Sonny Angel figure. It was such a tiring day because I need to walk in a really big mall. After we went back, I immediately went to sleep.

Journal entry #2 August 11 2024

Today I got a fever after I went back from IOI yesterday. I felt dizzy and my nose is runny. Mimy and Izzaty bought me food and gave me medicines. I just lay on my bed and had a long nap throughout the evening. After feeling better, I did my assignment and continued my Korean drama that I’ve been watching lately called “ Queen Of Tears “. Suddenly Umaiyrah came to my room and asked me to keep her accompany to buy some food because she felt hungry at that time.

Journal entry #3 August 30 2024

I got a lot of assignment to do and It’s been so stressful this week because I had some problem that made me feel annoyed every time I remember it. I didn’t have any appetite to eat so I just drank some water. My mom was angry because I didn’t eat all day. She was weirded out because I used to love to eat. She cooked Tomyam since that was my favorite food but I only ate a little. All day, I just sat in my room listening to music and had a deep thought about what happened in my life…I miss her.

[jyprincess]

A NON-EXCITING WEEK

Journal entry #1 July 13, 2024

Today is the day I registered my first day at college as a Diploma Student in Kolej Poly-Tech Mara Bangi. The registration was opened at 7 am until 4 pm. However, me and my family arrived at 9 am because of the traffic. I was very nervous at that time because I could see many unfamiliar faces around me. After I finished the registration at my college, I took my ID card and got my room number and went to my dorm.  I felt so glad because my cousin and I got the same room. After I finished arranging my stuffs in my room, my parents decided to go back. At first, I felt sad but after I realized that my home only took 30 minutes from here and both of my parents work at Bangi, I don’t feel sad anymore. When the night come, me and my roommates decided to buy food at our hostel’s café. I bought Bihun Tomyam and Teh o Ais for my dinner and it costed 7 ringgit.  For me, it’s not worth it because the taste was not as good as I thought it would be. However, I just ate it because I was so hungry. After I finished eating, I decided to brush my teeth and washed my face before going to sleep because tomorrow is the orientation day and I have to wake up early.

Journal entry #2 July 14, 2024

This morning, I woke up at 5 am for our orientation day. I was so sleepy because during my life after SPM, I woke up at 12 pm everyday. We had to do our Fajr Prayer at the mosque. After we finished Fajr Prayer, we need to walk for 4 km from hostel to college, it didn’t feel really bad because it was still early in the morning, but I just felt so lazy to walk. We were having Nasi Lemak as our breakfast at the college. After finished eating, the facilitators commanded us to go to the Student’s Centre as we needed to do our orientation there. I got my first friend at that day and her name was Airissa. The orientation day was so boring that I felt really sleepy every time and I couldn’t wait to go back. After the orientation was finished, we finally were allowed to go back to our hostel and rest. I hope I won’t experience this again.

Journal Entry #3 July 15 2024

I woke up early because it was my first day to go to the college as a student after I finished my orientation day. I got my first friend in my section named Yasmin Kamilia. During the first day, we just need to introduce ourselves in front of the class. After the class finished, me and Yasmin bought Nasi Ayam Gepuk at the café and we ate it together. After we finished eating and went back to our hostel, me and my cousin chatted about our first day at the college. For me it was a good experience because I got a nice friend and I don’t have a lot of boys in my class which is we only have five of them.