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I’m so so ready to be in next level with you. Te amo.💙

Thank you Papa God ♥️😇

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American Ass

oh WOW

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Colombian guy

I did my internship outside of my comfort zone. I went to US, to be exact it was in Hilton Head, South Carolina. I did it for almost a year...

When I started my internship in a restaurant in a small island I never thought it would be the best one year of my life. Yap I met someone. Well I did met everyone who’s working inside the restaurant. First day was like oh okay I liked the ambiance, people seems to be nice and then when the orientation has started I saw this guy pouring a dressing on a small cups that would be use in serving. Yes, he is a server there. From the moment I saw him I didn’t thought I’ll be having a crush on him since it was the first day of that program.

As the days passed by I never had the chance to see him again. Well, maybe because he’s working in front of the house and I’m at the back of the house cause I’m a cook during my intern. But then again as part of working inside the kitchen we had the chance to rotate every each of the station in the restaurant.

I was in Salad bar station. Well basically where  I can see every servers working in there. Then I saw him. Like everyday I can see him working as a server. And one time he approached me without any hesitant on his face. And he introduced himself. “Hi I;m S*****” while offer his hands to me to do a shake hand. Then I replied “I’m Shaira” and I never realized it all started there.. 

So I’m the type of girl will do everything to know a person especially when I liked that person. As a woman I did the first moved, stalked and searched his name all over the social media cause I wanna know him. Well maybe cause I’m only gonna do my intern there for 6 months. So I basically did everything to find him on social media.

We became friends eventually after talking once in awhile in social media. Seeing each at work. Keep teasing each other. Until one time I posted on my social media saying “I liked you. end of story”. He replied “Who’s the lucky guy?” and I responded “YOU” and he replied “ aww I liked you to k k” .. And it all started there.. when my birthday was approaching and he asked me if I wanna celebrate my birthday with him as gift and also our first hangout together. I said YES! 

On our first hangout we went to this Mexican Restaurant he was liked let’s go on a mexican restaurant cause I’m craving and let’s watch a movie that I’m dying to see after this.

So we did it. We ate and watched a movie in a theater. And after that we went to the beach talking and talking about stuffs until we reached to the point of talking about feelings. Yap, I did confessed to him that I liked him but you know what he responded me? well it would be awkward but he turned me down.

Yes he turned down my feelings for him. I was kinda hurt because it’s basically a rejection. He has a valid reason though I get it. Like hello I’m only gonna stay for 6 months there who would you think any guy wants that? Being together for 6 months? That’s totally insane. So yep I did hurt for awhile but then I realized maybe he’s right. Maybe he’s not worth of my 6 moths staying there.

After that we basically became awkward with each other for awhile I think for almost 2 days. lol. And then after that 2 days he approached me again and asked me “ you wanna grab something to drink tonight?” and “I was liked what is wrong with this man? “ but I said yes though. Well, it’s just a drink. When we were at the bar drinking our liquors. I asked him “why did you asked me again to hangout with you after that night at the beach?” and he just replied “I changed my mind.” and I asked “why?” and he responded “I just changed my mind thinking you’re just staying here for 6 months I wanna know you more and fuck it whatever happens in 6 months. No one knows”.

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1 am thoughts

It’s already passed one in the morning here in the Philippines at February 13,2019. Laying on my bed while playing with my phone. Then suddenly I felt like I need to write this thing right now..

Few days ago I encountered one of my most tragic well, maybe not tragic ahm stressful days of my life. I went back to the Philippines to see my mom to think it would be my last good bye to her planning to focus on my career for my future by not returning home anytime soon. So when the time has arrived that I need to go back to the other country I had encountered a problem going back. Yes by the time I was in the airport they didn’t let me get on that plane because there was an issue on my papers.I did everything I could just to leave within that day but eventually it all ended up leaving the airport with my tears falling.I did burst into tears while hugging my Father. From that day, I thought it was end of the world for me. Well, it did for awhile. I was lost. Depressed. Stressed. Devastated. All the worst words you can describe for that feeling. I cannot eat. I cannot sleep. While you’re laying on your bed your pillow is already soaked by your tears. Didn’t really know what to and Didn’t want to do anything at the same time. 

After days days days I talked to him. Yap the one who’s in Heaven. I asked him. Should I still fight? Should I still continue what’ve I started? Should I still try one more time? I asked him those question while bursting out in tears. Then one day when I woke up I felt so relieved. I don’t know why but it felt like I was born again. Then I’ve realized maybe he removed all my burdens inside my heart. All the aches the hatred the negative feelings inside of my heart. Then he gave me an answer. A yes and no answer. A YES from the questions of should I fight? should I continue? and other things. And a NO to the question of should I give up?..

While the day is approaching for the second interview. I was kept on doubting myself if I can make it? If I can pass the interview. Every night while reviewing those papers I was still crying.. crying..and begging for his help for me to get through with this situation. I told him whatever may the result is I’ll be still thankful for it cause I know it will be for my own good. Then after the interview.

I got GRANTED. APPROVED.

And I came back while walking and thanking him for the result. I burst out into tears again not because of the aches but because of joy. 

Thank you would never be enough for the blessings he’s giving me. Also those people who believed in me that I can get through it. My family, friends, my mentors, my other family from the other country and to the person I loved. Their prayers helped me a lot to get through to this situation. 

Whatever may we encounter a long way in our journey we need, I need to trust his plan for me. We all have a plan for us but nothing will be better with his plan for us. Always have FAITH to him. HE IS INDEED THE BEST.

God, I’ll  always gonna thank you and not gonna stop believing in you even though I already lost mine. You will always be my guidance in every way.I will always find my way back to you all over again.

I love you. and you are all I need Papa GOD.

Thank you..

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Alam mo yung masakit? Ang makitang ang taong mahal mo may iba ng mahal. Ang taong mahal mo na masaya na sa piling ng iba. Sakit di’ba? Pero ano pa nga aba magagawa mo. Wala. Dahil ang sama sama mo namang tao para pigilan ang kalpgayahan ng taong mahal mo. Ang sama sama mo naman kung ganyan ka. Pero talagang ang sakit sa pakiramdam na noon ikaw dahilan ng kanyang mga ngiti pero ngayon may iba ng taong nagpapangiti sakanya. Bt ba ganun? Kung kelan nahanap mo n a yung taong mahal mo na alam mo hindi ka kayang ipagpalit saka naman yung tadhana di sumangayon sayo. Pinagtagpo ngunit di itinakda. Sobrang sakit tagos hanggan puso. Oo yung mga panahon na kayo nga pero takot kayong ipagsigawan sa buong mundo na kayo dahil ang mga nakapaligid sainyo ay tutol. Tutol sa relasyon niyo. Pero mas lalong sumakit kung isa lang sainyo ang lumaban para ma isalba ang relasyon niyo na punong puo ng pangarap para sa isa’t-isa.

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I met someone

I met someone few days ago and it really made me happy. I don't know why but I felt really happy because I'm hoping that we may meet again and hopefully accept me for who I am. I'm really looking forward to know him more. Oh God please give us guide. 🙏😊😁 #cee #hope #faith #destiny

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ⓗⓔⓛⓛⓞ ☺😂 Short hair who cares 😂😏👌💇 #chelpi📷 #newstyle 😁

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Fb and IG Display picture. Achuchu 😁😊👄 #smile 💁💄

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Confused

Sabi daw pag nalilito ka sa mga nalalaman mo mas nalilito din ang puso mo. Kung ano nao kase nalalaman di mo alam kung sino paniniwalaan mo. I still don’t know who to believe. My mind.. my heart is confused. I don’t know what to do. Do I still have to wait for the person who left me at the first place? Or just wait for the right time.

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Time to let go

Ohwell. Maybe it’s really the right time for me to let you go. Thanks for staying single for one year before you enter again to a new relationship. I didn’t thought you’ll be the first one who got in a new relationship in both of us. I really thought you’ll wait for me but I guess I’m wrong again. As always, anyway I want you to be happy with her. I promised to try not to be a bitter person anymore. But guess what? I still want to wait for you for the right time, for the Gods right timing. Thank you and farewell my love :)

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#rightweather #tamangpanahon #Godsplan 😊😁❤ #tamanamunangayon 😌 👋👋 (at Upville, San Felipe Naga City)

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Yummmmmmmy 😁💘❤😂 #JamesReid 😍 #lablab

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Yummmmmmmy 😁💘❤😂 #JamesReid 😍 #lablab

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Addicted ❤😊😁 #JamesReid 💘 (at Upville, San Felipe Naga City)

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Flowers for myself! 😄😊💐 I miss you my loves! 😁❤ charooot lang! Hahahaha 💔 #bulaklaksanagiisa 💐💐 (at Upville, San Felipe Naga City)

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I saw him yesterday. Its been really a long time since I saw him. Just wow. Congrats to him. I salute him. Even though I blocked him nothing changed. I think I’m really get over him. Thank you :)