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kadyjuice · 6 years

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Random rant.

I know I should be more thankful but I just can’t today.

I know I should avoid complaining but I can’t.

I know whatever I write after this will sound like I’m a drama queen.

But yeah I’m still going to write just to let it out somehow.

I didn’t know before that waking up to dirty dishes in the sink will instantly give me a bad mood. Yes I know that sounds low but those dishes were left there by three different people and there are four people living in this apartment, including myself. It shouldn’t piss me off because I’m just living pretty much for free with these people but boy it frustrates me that no one gives a shit about cleaning up after themselves. Hey I’m not a saint, I’m guilty for not giving a shit too. But if all four people are alike in this aspect, it is not a pleasant living space to be in.

That was just the start of my day. Of course me and my man’s plan of grabbing food out today was shot down again and that put me in a bad mood because I was looking forward to it. We planned on going to Ike’s Place. Next time. For sure.

If you’re wondering what my current living situation is, well I am living with my boyfriend and his parents. I know that sounds pretty bad and unusual but let me tell ya.. I didn’t think it was going to be this bad during the first month of my stay but now I know I was wrong! I was selfish because all I cared about was the happiness of coming home to him. Just a word of advice. You shouldn’t live with your significant other’s parents by any means. Period. The happiness you should be feeling while living with the one you love will lessen if those folks add stress to your life. When you decide you would want to live with your love, DO NOT do it if the parents will be there. Just wait until the time is right. When it’s just the two of you.

I find that stress and frustration are kind of hard to shake off these days. It must be because it’s been a year. My patience is running low.

You might be thinking the only situation is to move out, right? Yup. I should leave. But I can’t. I can’t leave without my man. It’s not right to take him away from his parents especially when they’re not kicking him out yet. This might sound selfish but I can’t pay for everything if we do move. I don’t want to. He doesn’t have a real job yet so there is no way for him to support me. I love him but I’m using my head on this one. I guess I should be more patient then. Only 2 more weeks until his graduation and a month left for his board exam. He’s interviewing for a job tomorrow and I’m hoping for the best!

Good night.

#rant #thoughts

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