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we’re gonna be ok btw

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fuck ambigat naman

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“"Just give him three days. Wait three days, no texts, no calls, no nothing. Then see if he makes the first move”

Dati wala lang to sakin pero eto talaga tumatak sakin this year, lalo na pag may nakakausap ako tapos kala mo may something na, dito mo talaga malalaman kung bored lang sila or interested sila. kasi wala talagang impossible kung gusto mo yung tao, gagawa at gagawa ka ng paraan. Kahit gano ka pa ka busy gagawa ka ng paraan para lang makausap yung gusto mo.

why would you wanna be with someone that doesn't want you? Why would you wanna be with someone na magaling lang sa simula? 🫣

Pati wag na rin kayo maniwala pag sinabi agad “I’ll stay” tapos ilang araw pa lang kayo naguusap kasi for sure di yun totoo. :))

wala yun lang, last post ko to dito sa pinas

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I have no idea why it is so hard for some people to be understanding of others. To hold back judgements and criticisms and to just think before condemning someone. To understand that all you need to do is to acknowledge what it is to be human.

It is having those thoughts so dark and twisted warp your mind into believing you are nothing and having to pull yourself back up and force yourself to see that you matter. Human is having hope and believing that despite all odds, life will get better; that someday, you will find happiness. Each person is filled with a drive to be better, love more, be more, terrified when rejected, put down, or lashed out at.

To be human is to be full of flaws, covered in scars and bruises, signs of a fight but not of defeat.

To be human is to be imperfect yet perfectly imperfect.

We are all unique but deep down inside, we go through the same struggles. So even when each of us is special, you must understand that below all of our differences is humanity. The struggles, the pain, the laughter and happiness, the fear and pride. We are all human. The struggles should leave us with compassion to give others a chance before striking them down. You have no way of knowing what someone else has been through or what they are thinking.

Acknowledge that we are all human and we make mistakes, and understand what it means to be human.

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i'm just putting this out there, incase, i (who is dumb), will forget what self-love actually is.

to tell you the truth, it's far from what social media has been telling you. it's hard to swallow that, of course, because we have romanticized the idea of self love and we think its all face masks and nice clothes (it can be a part of it tho but that's not all of it.)

self-love is tons of breakdowns and deciding to pick yourself up and thank yourself for letting yourself feel. it's crying in the bathroom floor, thinking you can no longer get through it and choosing afterwards to wash your body well enough to make yourself feel better. bunch of failures. it's skipping that one song in your playlist that made your heartache for the longest time. screaming in your pillow. it's deciding to eat one whole meal after days of not eating well. it's you, getting off your bed in the morning instead of drowning in your social media. it's saying no when you're so use of saying yes.

it's ugly. self-love can start out ugly and uncomfortable.

with so much expectations that you put yourself into, you think love is synonymous with aesthetic. you are wrong. you are a human being who is meant to be imperfect. you are both your flaws and your beauty and what's so wrong with that?

self love is treating yourself the way you deserve to be loved. it's you not looking for it in the arms of a stranger. it's setting your boundaries right in front of those you love because you now know that loving them doesn't give them the right to treat you like shit. it's learning how to make it known for others where they should be in your life and it's not in your personal space. it's communicating what you feel so that you won't have to wait for them to decipher you and disappoint yourself when they don't. it's forgiving yourself. it's letting them walk out of your life and showing them the exit.

self love is looking at the mirror and know that everything you ever needed is right in front of you.

[kaiii26]

For some individuals the thought of going into the unknown can be a very scary thing. When going into the unknown, the individual is unprepared for what could happen. They are scared of the possibility of not liking the unexpected change. I like to think that if I were given the opportunity to go into the unknown, I would take it. I would thrive in the new unknown world, be a better and changed person. Until, I realized the true reason I wanted to go into the unknown. I wanted to be someone else, become a human version of what I would deem as perfect. Because in my mind, perfect meant being society’s definition of pretty. It was at that point of time where I realized that I almost allowed myself to succumb to society’s expectations. For a split second I allowed myself to truly believe that I wasn’t good enough for today’s world.

When I was younger I wish someone would have taught me to love myself more. I won’t say that no one ever told me to love myself, I just wish those who told me had embedded that thought into my mind. Imagine how different my mindset would be today, if I actually knew how to fucking love myself. Maybe I wouldn’t try to hide my beauty marks with make up and shield myself from the mirror. Maybe then It wouldn’t feel like the weight of the world wasn’t suffocating me down to the depths of the sea.

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You romanticized people so much you've created a completely different image of them. Your portrait of them is so different from who they really are, and closer to what you wanted them to be.

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have you ever been so wildly attracted to someone you can actually feel it driving you insane

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Ang lungkot.

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Saddest thing is you are surrounded by people and yet you feel so alone. If I have a friend or a company I will never let them feel that they're out of place, I will always be there for them. I will never leave anyone behind, I never did.

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For you and your internet friends! 💙

Feel free to send these to them but please do not repost

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Nakakamiss din may pagkwentuhan ng nangyayari sa buhay mo sa araw araw. Excited ako mag kwento sa nangyari sa scrim namin kaso wala naman masabihan, meron nga pero parang istorbo ka naman

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please do not yell at me im a nervous dumb girl who is just trying to survive

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What part of your morning routine takes the longest?

Finding the will to live.