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This is literally amazing

i dont get offended at white people jokes even though im white because: 

i can recognize white people as a whole have systemically oppressed POC in america, which is where i live 

most people when they make white people jokes only mean the shitty white people and i am not a shitty white person 

im not a pissbaby

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Things my friends have said

"I could kill you, but I'd have to kill you."

"Am I in possession of a giant rat dick?"

"I'm class K fire K for Ka-CHOW!"

"We have guests coming over, don't screw the pillows."

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Words/Phrases I used ironically and then became part of my vocabulary

"Rude"

"Big mood"

"Well turn me over and fuck me sideways"

"Same, hoe"

"Wow, actually me"

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Oof

Damn I wish that I would actually take some more of my own goddamn advice, haha.

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And a half finished depressing poem by moi

Disconnect. Disconnect. Say nothing. Not a word. Not a whisper. "You okay?" "I'm great! Thanks for asking." A smile here, a smile there. A smile to mask what I feel. Disconnect. Disconnect. Report me. I know you will. I don't care. One step closer to death. Disconnect. Disconnect. Go away, emotions. You always ruin my plans. Get away from me! You're filthy! Disconnect. Disconnect. Vivid dreams of what happens after. I'm not depressed, I swear. I'm just lying under the covers at six a.m. Talking to you. Disconnect. Disconnect.

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And another depressing poem by moi

Kill me. Kill me. Actually kill me. It saves me the trouble. I know you don't care. So just, kill me. Do it. The gun's right there. We have knives in the kitchen. Just, kill me. Can't do it? Why not? Are you afraid of the consequences? Ha, they don't exsist were we're going. So just, kill me. Your innocence is frightening. Just kill me. You talk to me all the time. One might say that I'm brain-dead. That's not true. You talk to me all the time. You scare me. You toy with my emotions. Just kill me. Save me the trouble. Just kill me. Get it done and over with. Just kill me. It only takes a second. It only takes a note. Just kill me. Its simple, really. A stab here, straight through the heart. Just kill me. Do it now. Do it. DO IT! Finally, I'm free.

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Just another depressing poem by moi

Not one day goes by when I don't think of you. Your depression. The way you tried to commit suicide. It all happens again, and again. To four of my closest friends. They try to die. When will it be my turn? My canvas is my wrist. My paint is a razor blade. But, I don't dare touch the brush, for I know I will depress everyone, in doing so. I lay awake at four a.m. I contemplate why I'm still here. Then, I remember. I remember all the good times I had. I remember why people love me. I remember why I don't have scars. I remember how I felt so helpless. Trying to fix you. I knew for a while that you were broken. I just couldn't bring myself to return you. And when I read your poems, I sense the ache. I sense the pain. I have it, too. We all do. I hope. I hope that when I go to school, day after day, that I won't hear your name on the announcements. A constant struggle. A tug of war. Battling between what I feel, and what I know. One day, I will be gone. And you will feel just as helpless as I do.

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This speaks to me on a personal level....

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"I am now a potato. You may call me lady potato."

Me

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Weird adventures part 1

I woke up and my brain was trying to convince itself that today was christmas......

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I was looking at things on pinterest, and I decided to search up “Leo” ( the star sign). While I was scrolling through the posts, I found something that made me smile. That was when I got to thinking…. Why do us humans need validation for us to feel beautiful, smart, loved, or cherished? It’s because we, as a species, are social creatures. If we are rejected by society, it makes us feel like we aren’t good enough. So, we try to meet the standards of the internet, because we trust it, and because we know that society controls it. I know that the internet and social media can make you feel loved and appreciated, but get off your phone, try talking to your friends, go hang out with them. Do something that makes you feel good about yourself, because you are awesome, and you have a beautiful heart. I love you all… bye for now…. ^_^

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I hope that this is how everybody's hearts work... I guess the rude people's flowers just wilted long ago....

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This is how my friends and I will fabulously flip people off.

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my mom and me....

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Keep calm and watch these two adorable baby sloths..... ^_^

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I am Jeremy the lion, consoling my friends all the days.

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This is why I can't do stuff...