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Do you think Goku has autism?

Ya know.... that would make a lot of sense actually

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More power to you!

💖

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Looking back on some of the shit I've typed out here literally makes me cringe lol its absolutely dripping with pure pathetic desperation. I absolutely regret so much shit I've spilled out here over stuff that wasn't even worth it just being dramatic with my own feelings for no reason. Just because i knew i had multiple exes checking my shit on here. Over things/people that 100% aren't worth it. I just 🤢 if I could go back and punch myself in the face, I would. and thats not to say I dont wish them all the best because i do! Just.. over there. Waaayyy over there. Literally laughing now😂 im good bb, im just trying to T H R I V E 👌🥰

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Are you sad? You seemed depressed

How would you know? I dont even post on here anymore lol but im good? Haha I mean, I have

d e p r e s s i o n

And anxiety. So im not always great but for the most part yeah, im good(:

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I love you but you make me so sad

I dont even know how to respond to this.

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Just found out sleeping does not erase all my problems. Shocked and upset

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Basically lol

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I know it’s stupid and I know its unfair. I also know this is fucking pointless and I’m screaming into the void since my tumblr is blocked from people seeing it. But FUCK. I did so many stupid things and ruined so many good things for myself. It’s been so hard to admit to myself that I have been so fucking toxic to people that absolutely did not deserve it. I’ve been toxic trying to get a reign on my own emotions and handle things in a healthy way because I’ve never been good at it and I’ve been taking my own pain out on other people for too long. I’m so sorry for everything I’ve ever done to hurt you. I’m sorry I kept you around waiting and hurt your feelings over and over again. I didn’t want to admit it to anyone much less myself, but I got my hopes up sunday because I finally felt like I could let myself feel what I’ve been wanting to feel for you. I wanted to tell you I had feelings for you still and I wanted to tell you to be with me. I wanted to tell you to choose me. Choose me a million times over and please love me through my toxic traits and help me get past them. But... I never got the chance. And now I never will. And maybe that’s for the best... maybe now we can both finally move on and get past this onto something better and break this cycle. It would be unfair of me to put those feelings on you after everything I’ve put you through. And I can’t stand the thought of being unfair to you for even one more second. I want nothing but the best for you. And I know not a lot of people will believe it, but that really is what I want for anyone I’ve ever cared about. I want you to find all the happiness in the world and I hope it chooses you over and over again. 

Also,

I'm pretty sure I love you.. and if the world ends I hope that info gets to you somehow.

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Struggling depression

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You ever just wanna kiss someone with all the passion left in your body and then just punch them as hard as you can in the face??

Yep...

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alien

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alien

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Me to myself when I do literally anything

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