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LAIOS NO SÃO JOÃO 🎉🎇

This year i felt like drawing Laios enjoing a bit of São João's food!

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Midsummer Night’s Dream

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shawn spencer: president of the juliet o’hara fanclub

“andre is not real. follow us. you smell nice.”

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new trope just dropped

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Hot take, but the werewolf design in Van Helsing is the best interpretation of a lycanthrope.

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collab collab . pochacco & tuxedo sam ❤️ . 💙

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Julian🧓

okay maybe it's not as fun a surprise as anyone would have expected, but when he gets older julian (with an older feliks cameo) turns into a proper dad, with the bod and everything...not that he loses the stuff that makes him scary lol (a...bearwolf, if you will haha)

ask me something about my ocs so i can draw it?

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Finally, fic finished, but I'm doing that one push to edit some bits, because I use original characters due to it being a post-canon fic and logically the MCs' classmates do not make an appearance, lol, so I need to check out who was who in some descriptions to double check. Sorry if that is going to be your experience with my post canon fic to a kinda forgotten but niche fandom, lmao.

And then, I can finally return to that other thing I was doing :)

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GOD, my relationship with FB is annoying me, lmao. It's been almost 24 hours since I did all that stuff and my profile is unavailable to logged off users and I should be feeling AMAZING about it to a certain extent?

But, at the same time... I dunno.

I feel certainly weird about it, since I... do hate FB and it certainly bittered my relationship with other social media sites.

Backing up the little stuff I have there, I remembered I tried to be active there. I suppose 10-ish years ago I thought it was a cool idea to open up about my online persona, but at the same time... who cared of my few friends and/or acquaintances? It DOES not help that the UI, the dominant algorhythm were already bad (and they are atrocious these days) and whatever the fuck Zuckerberg is doing with Meta in general (I retired many old photos with faces of my old classmates because... being THOSE fed to AI? no, I will not make these people a favor) is also incredibly fucking awful. Certainly all of this turned down my stupid idea and THANK GOD I did not fall into that shit.

Deleting my account would always be the best option... but I am assuming that it would require me to do all that "Whatsapp old number I cannot access anymore" shit, and frankly, there's the stuff of old acquaintances I do not feel too comfortable of getting rid of their contacts.

FB made me feel miserable, and it's a very toxic place since pretty much I finished college.

I should have deleted my account back then and/or perhaps made another one with another email account, with a new number... but I never assumed my old SIM card/number would last a few years more and so, and so. I should have changed all that info before Zuckerberg integrated/centralized everything under his empire and made everything FAR worse than it was. Then again, who expected that move, I guess. The pandemic was a fucking thing and everything went to hell since with tech bros and their stupid we/b 3.0 ideals.

I don't get me at all. I know it's better if I deleted it... but there's stuff that I cannot save easily and all that (also dumb stuff like "hey, if you want to sell your stuff, marketplace or the groups is the easier way" mentality all of us latinos for some reason share in Latam, as if there weren't other websites and the like to do so, but "fb is your reach!" like, give me a fucking break :///)

The plan I do have is that... if I ever do another account JUST for that, I could be potentially going by my same name and pfp and just... follow ppl of my interest that still remember my face or smth along those lines. And just... that.

But, I frankly want to be a fucking hermit, because I feel like every day that passes, I feel more miserable in thinking about social media other than Tumblr (with its own share of issues, each year getting bigger because stupid decisions) and the like.

One thing I hate about "the internet centralizing itself into a few places to go" and the monopolic practices of Meta and Google, is that everything they get, once it's integrated to their "network", becomes a fucking mess. Things like changing pws should be EASY, not overcomplicated stuff that is close to "give us your ID to see if this is you" (I GET IT if it's stuff like Paypal or your bank account... Whatsapp to a degree... but FUCKING FACEBOOK? FOR REAL?... and don't let me go to what the US congress WANTS to do in relation to IDs and user accounts?...) or getting to finicky in details that I am not sure why they are thinking are a potential problem and the like.

I'm pretty sure no one close to me would get this better. I always assumed abandoning an account was a good idea, and not doing anything as long as you had your pw to login in any emergency, was... fine. But each single year, and cybersecurity stuff happening? I had to motivate myself in making changes to my pws and other related info. Sadly, not everyone plays the same games and I LOATHE IT.

I wish it was easier.

I wish it was easier to abandon an account. I wish I shouldn't be worried each time a new data breach is announced. I should be more worried about my present (gm/ail, for example and gdrive), but my old email accounts that are still up, my old social media interactions (that haven't been deleted into the ether)... I am not sure why I cannot let go that easily.

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even if it kills me

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if you're writing and find yourself thinking 'this is too weird/gross/offputting/esoteric/ambitious/catered to my specific interests + sure to push away a broader audience' that is the devil speaking and it is a lie. you are already firmly on the right path and you need to double down

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Mahou ga tsukaenakutemo

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Feliks🪞

draw character with a mask or mirror used to represent an aspect of themselves.

anastacia never found selena's body when she found feliks gravely injured decades ago.

he doesn't want to talk about it.

she's still out there.

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Amalia being the hard carry 💪

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posted this for dialga day last week. silly time god <3

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queue -Kanna Kii artbook-

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May 1989. 'This summer we're singing the blues...and not just your ordinary babies and navies.'