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I'm convinced that people just use me.

I'm here for convenience

I offer all my love, affection, time, care, understanding, loyalty,

Myself.

I'm only good for what I have to offer.

Not myself.

No one will ever love me, not for me.

I will only ever be loved for what I can do and offer.

This world is cruel.

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"I love you sir."

You tell me about taking me to see the Rocketts.

You tell me how you are trying to be a better person, for me. That I make you want to be better.

You want to be perfect, but you are.

You said you're going to get me a spare key. To spend my days there whenver I have days off.

You tell me every night how you wish I could stay, always stay.

You hold me when I'm not strong and let me be weak and vulnerable.

You hold me as if I can break at any second.

You tell me how great I'm doing, everyday, you remind me of how hard I'm trying and how far I've gotten.

You are, absolutely, so damn wonderful.

I love you, sir.

And when you look at me, the way you do sometimes before you kiss me, you actually look at Me.

We may not be perfect, but together we just try to be better.

You're so imperfect in all the right ways, it just makes you perfect.

I love you, and I'll let that just fill my heart as much as it can until whenever. Forever is guaranteed, so let's just be until whatever.

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I guess that's just how life goes

It's unexpected and messy

Even when you think you're doing what you're suppose to be

Even when you think you're doing things right

You fall in love

You get married

You have a baby

You graduate college

You have a job in your field

You think you're doing good

You think you're doing it all right and then

You stop.

You realize, it was all a cover

It was you on the outside looking in.

You stop and realize you were lying to yourself and nothing is what it seems.

Life is so wrong

It's unpredictable and messy

It's a storm like no other.

And there's no stopping it

The winds and currents will throw you around and it will mold you no matter how hard you try fighting it.

All you can do? I guess is figure which hits are worth taking to mold you into what you need to become.

But no one ever said it would be easy or painless.

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She's so strong and brave

She's beauty covered in scars and scrapes that tell her story

She fought in wars and battles that no one saw

The voices and thoughts louder than bombs and guns could ever be

She is a light amongst the dark cold war nights

But on her own, she's nothing but the dark void in her own soul.

Alone, she lies in the mud and grime,

And she only gets up to shine for others

But her light is dimming

The light is going out.

She's tired

She's beauty and light, she was.

Now she is fading,

What can I do?

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I'm happier. I'm sadder.

It's unpredictable and I know what to do, but also don't.

How exciting.

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No more.

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Unknown.

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Simple Simon (2010)

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Oh, my heart aches again.

But that's okay. I think.

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I miss you deeply, unfathomably, senselessly, terribly.

— Franz Kafka

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I forget what time is when you're with me.

k.b. // just time flying

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“We suffer more often in imagination than in reality.”

— Seneca

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“A healthy relationship is where two independent people just make a deal that they will help the other person be the best version of themselves.”

— Unknown