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kainis bare minimum enjoyer talaga ko. he could've sent a message himself naguusap naman kami but nooo he chose to say it to jovy pa talaga. hay nako. mahirap ba magchat? but still this put a smile on my face yesterday despite my struggle sa trangkaso and allergies ko 😂

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bro i've been fighting for my life (i have a cough) for almost 4 months now. this always happens every year like meron talaga akong ubo season but then it goes away without treatment. but this time, i need to get checked lol kasi nagpamedical kami sa work last march and meron silang findings that i ignored maybe now's the perfect time to get checked. AND ALSO, nilalagnat ako. lol. i've been throwing up since last night too hay ang panget talaga ng sakit q lagi

so ayun, i called in sick at work which sucks kasi ngayon ako excited pumasok kasi may conference meeting kami cuz someone at work misbehaved yesterday and i was one of the witnesses lol. i love work drama but i hate that my bestfriend is involved here kasi one thing about jhie she will fight anyone if she knows she's right! malas lang nya pumitik sakanya si jhie kahapon lol

well anyway, nagnebulizer na ko kagabi. instant relief pero for a few mins lang and i barely had any sleep kasi malala talaga ubo ko ngayon. feeling ko nahawa ako eh may sakit kasi yung company driver nung nakaraan haysss pagaling na sana ako last time :'(

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i love weddings so much :")

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okami + animals → ryoshima foxes ❀ requested by @bleachrocks28 ♡

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hiiiii :"D i thought i looked super cute in my outfit yesterday but i forgot to take pics so these are the only ones i have lol

anyway, last thursday i was so mad at spongebob (jovy and i call him that so we can freely talk about him without anyone knowing lol) cuz he kept telling everyone "kaaway ko yan" and when jovy brings me up in their conversation he always goes "it's her life" like he really doesn't care. ok ganyan pala atake nya. fine, i don't care too lol

tapos whenever jovy and i were together he'd always greet her and ignore me. like??? what are you doing bro? making me feel out of place for what?

then yesterday afternoon, when jovy and i went to the canteen, he was already there and like the usual, he greeted jovy enthusiastically again, ignored me again. and so i just did my shit in silence. while i was cooking in the kitchen area, spongebob's friends told me "kate napanaginipan ka daw neto kagabi." so i said in response, "oh was that a nightmare? deserve"

they didn't talk about the dream that much so when kuya A came to the office i asked him what happened in his dream and he said spongebob just saw us two together at a beach. he was sitting in a camping chair while watching someone running by the shore. he couldn't see it clearly but when she got a bit closer, he saw my face then he woke up.

now i studied psychology enough to make assumptions about what his dream entails but i wouldn't say that to him. maybe he's thinking too much about me and it's funny to just say that to his face when he's bending over backwards to avoid acknowledging my presence and that dream happens but again i won't.

honestly, i feel like he's too much of a redflag na with everything that's been happening lately. he's giving a lot of mixed signals and when he's around idk how to act anymore cuz i can't keep up with his mood. idk if he's gonna be playful or cold. but it's fine. push and pull is my forte. :-)

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men are so trash 😭

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bro i never realized how fun taking care of yourself is until now. . .

di naman talaga ako high maintenance but sometime in march, my sister pointed out my lack of self care, her exact words pa nga were "te dapat nagaanti aging na skin care ka na". idk but it made me super self conscious especially cuz i'm aging na and ppl are constantly telling me that in a few years lang i'll be 30 na so that made me panic. that same day i bought skincare stuff (na hindi pala made for my skin type so fail! hahahaha) but so far, these are the ones that i find super effective for my dry skin. . . can you believe a few months ago i didn't care about this stuff and now i have a whole routine?!?! shocking. before i used to only fuck with moisturizer and sunscreen and now. . . wow. babae na talaga ko :")

(and pls sori na sa dirty sheet ko sa bottom 2 pics ;_; took those photos before changing my sheets kz and it's mostly my dogs' dirt!)

but yea self care is so fun esp when u find products that actually work for you. and when you're doing it for yourself above all!

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sabi pa ng head nya before going back to japan, "kate may boyfriend ka na?" i just said no and then he said, "paguwi ko meron na yan!"

he's going back to ph this august hahahaha and i just feel like he wouldn't say that for nothing or maybe this is just me overthinking things lol

this all feel so highschool gets na kita taylor

can i just say how so much fun work is when you have an inspiration within the company HAHAHAHA of course the inspiration had always been money naman but now that i have a crush at work it's just more exciting.

it's honestly so funny how i never cared about him before but with our colleagues constantly bringing him up, feeling ko napapalapit din ako sakanya. idk if that makes sense! i feel like i know him kahit we barely have time alone together. like yesterday i was doing my dishes, and then a second later he was next to me na. mauubos nalang lahat ng tubig sa mundo kasi kahit tapos na ko talagang di ako umalis dun. lmao, wala i was just waiting for him to finish doing his dishes din. tapos when noticed he's almost done, dun palang ako umalis. pero he was saying random stuff like ang arte ko daw kasi di ako nakikishare ng sponge sakanila (kasi nga laway conscious ako)

tapos this morning, nasa admin office sya the whole time. may sarili naman silang office pero may inaayos sila kasi kaya andun sya tapos kinuha nya pang seat yung nasa harap ko pa talaga. so u can imagine just how self conscious i was the whole time he was there. tapos kausap nya pa ung head nya na nasa japan, sabi sakanya "tignan mo dun sa baby mo". nahiya pa sya habang lumalapit sakin! ako naman "wtf baby pa yun" expression ~_~ but the fact that he came to me when his head said "baby mo" like what does that meannnnnnnn

the thing is, these things never come out of his mouth. it's always other people teasing him to me, kapag nanjan ung head nya mas malakas loob nya kasi may wing man sya? this is fun and all fun and games until that day when everyone was teasing us and i felt maybe this could be something serious. although now i'm just going with the flow. like whatever happens, happens.

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can i just say how so much fun work is when you have an inspiration within the company HAHAHAHA of course the inspiration had always been money naman but now that i have a crush at work it's just more exciting.

it's honestly so funny how i never cared about him before but with our colleagues constantly bringing him up, feeling ko napapalapit din ako sakanya. idk if that makes sense! i feel like i know him kahit we barely have time alone together. like yesterday i was doing my dishes, and then a second later he was next to me na. mauubos nalang lahat ng tubig sa mundo kasi kahit tapos na ko talagang di ako umalis dun. lmao, wala i was just waiting for him to finish doing his dishes din. tapos when noticed he's almost done, dun palang ako umalis. pero he was saying random stuff like ang arte ko daw kasi di ako nakikishare ng sponge sakanila (kasi nga laway conscious ako)

tapos this morning, nasa admin office sya the whole time. may sarili naman silang office pero may inaayos sila kasi kaya andun sya tapos kinuha nya pang seat yung nasa harap ko pa talaga. so u can imagine just how self conscious i was the whole time he was there. tapos kausap nya pa ung head nya na nasa japan, sabi sakanya "tignan mo dun sa baby mo". nahiya pa sya habang lumalapit sakin! ako naman "wtf baby pa yun" expression ~_~ but the fact that he came to me when his head said "baby mo" like what does that meannnnnnnn

the thing is, these things never come out of his mouth. it's always other people teasing him to me, kapag nanjan ung head nya mas malakas loob nya kasi may wing man sya? this is fun and all fun and games until that day when everyone was teasing us and i felt maybe this could be something serious. although now i'm just going with the flow. like whatever happens, happens.

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more pics from the wedding :")

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went to our hr head's wedding today! 🤍

i was planning not to go anymore bcuz my dress is too tight but i decided to still go and make an appearance. she had been so nice to me and i felt like it's the least i could do.

while seeing her with her family, friends, and husband, i started to think when will it be my turn. . . this is the second wedding i attended this year and sometimes i can't help but feel sooo behind in life. i keep telling the Lord that i'm in no hurry but really i feel a little sad when i realize that not many things have changed in my life the past few years and things are still pretty much the same.

sometimes i wish i mean it when i say i'm okay with being alone but there are moments when the loneliness gets to my head and i couldn't help but wish for just one person to be brave enough to take a risk with me. get pursued finally. feel like i'm worth it.

i guess it'll still take a little while. or maybe it wouldn't happen anymore. idk.

all i know now is even though i'm a bit sad, i'm still extremely happy for my colleague and i wish them a lifetime of happiness 🤍 one thing i'm sure of is when love finally comes in the future, i'll know it's real if i'm as happy as they are 🤍

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jhie's on a diet ngayon and yesterday our workmate saw her pack of chia seeds and he said "wag yan, eto coffee iniinom ko pangpapayat." so then jhie grabbed it and went to look for the ingredients and it said it's for libido increase lmfao jhie immediately said, "kuya sayo na yang kape mo!" 😭😭😭😭😭🤚

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One of my favorite parts of life is adopting new personality traits. Last month I decided to become a person who reads in the morning and goes to the library. This month I'm becoming a person who eats oatmeal and loves linen clothes. If you see something in other people that you like, you can just try it on.

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bro men are so fucking trash. no self awareness, no remorse, no guilt—nothing! i hate them for being such jerks but what does that say about me who keep falling for their trap? please release me from this dear God, i'd hate to spiral over this little thing that's not even worth anything.

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me after rewatching 13 reasons why for the 4th time since its release lol

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MORE UPDATE

otw home kanina jovy was asking about the ganaps last christmas party. tapos she asked if i got anything, her term was "may naipon ka ba kate?" like prizes and stuff. kuya A said "naipon nya tingin ni ***, kaso iba tinitignan nya"

and then i was like, huhhh? kanino ba ko nakatingin non? parang wala naman kasi kinakabahan lang ako non cuz we had to dance in front of everyone hahahahahahahaha hanggang ngayon nga nagccringe pa ko. pero for him to say that, medyo nag-flutter na naman heart ko. I SWEAR HAPPY CRUSH LANG TO. like, i know this is nothing deep. but that was december pa last year, one month palang ako sa company. has it been that long? the teasing i mean. parang hindi ko naman sya napapansin ng ganon dati, recently lang talaga kasi natutuwa na ko sa presence nya lol. pero december last year wala naman sya sa radar ko.

idkkj i just find it cute how he's always been attentive? i like getting attention that i don't need to beg for so that really means a lot to me. but now this has me thinking if i just like the attention or if i'm infatuated or if it's something else. but one thing i'm sure of, this feeling will pass. :-)

another kwento, idk if i'm romanticizing my life lang lately or. . . ewan basta

the day i left work early to see my dog, i didn't know anyone else was aware aside from the people sa office. the morning of jovit's passing, kuya arnel asked why i left early the day before and i said there's been an emergency lang at home and then he asked if it was my dog. then he mentioned our colleague na inaasar nya sakin, sabi daw sakanya, "umiiyak baka yung aso nya yun."

i can't say close ako to him but he's def one of the people na i can make jokes with. i just feel comfy around him kasi may golden retriever energy sya, like all smiles lang sya all the time, ang light ng aura, tapos parang he's just happy to be there. . . tapos sabi ko kay kuya arnel kung bakit nya alam eh i never told him anything naman about my dogs. like, feeling ko wala syang alam sa buhay ng mga aso ko. then he explained na nung first few months ko sa work, lagi daw inaask san ako umuuwi, sabi pa ni kuya arnel parang iba daw tingin sakin ng workmate namin, lagi ko lang sinasabi na malakas lang talaga sya mangbwisit (wc is true, kuha nya pika ko minsan). nashare nya ren na minsan nagrrides sila napapadaan sila sa bahay namin tapos nakita daw nya yung dogs ko.

for some reasons, i felt seen. . . for the first time in my life i didn't need to say much to be understood. he just knew. that's one of the things i struggle with sometimes—sharing my life, my pain, the things that bother me. feeling ko i'm super vulnerable and they'll just use it against me. but after that, he never brought it up. nangbbwiset pa rin sya as usual. still making things feel lighter as usual. walang nagbago. but the fact that i didn't need to say something para malaman nya na it was about my dog felt really special to me.

which is why i feel a little scared. last friday on our way home, i didn't know katabi lang namin sya sa road until he knocked. gulat na gulat pa ko kasi super lapit nya sa window. tapos he sped off rin when the other cars started moving na. inaasar pa kami ulit ni kuya arnel. i don't wanna put malice into his actions just cuz people around us are rooting for us. literally yung iba namin workmates shiniship kami and even have a ship name for us, si jhie pa nagpasimula can you believe that? 😭 i guess what's scary about is that i'm making a genuine connection with someone and i don't wanna lose that. he's okay as a friend i get to make jokes with and i don't want anything deeper than that. pero it felt really nice to be seen by someone, and even though we fight like tom n jerry everyday, i hope he knows he made a mark on me na lol