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is there a word for “i was instantly good at a lot of things as a quote-unquote gifted child, and, as a result, i was able to skate by without ever being taught how to actually learn a new skill, and now that i’m an adult trying to learn new things that i can’t be good at instantaneously, i don’t have the patience or knowledge to improve on them, because skills that don’t come naturally to me just make me angry because i lived off instant gratification my whole childhood due to not ever being challenged intellectually or taught basic learning skills?” asking for a friend

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god, imagine sharing a bed with the person you love. chatting about dumb things! just sleeping! it’s like a sleepover but every night how sweet is that!!!!

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“Healing is layers. Healing is time. Healing is excruciating. Once you think it’s done, it’s not.”

— Mary DeMuth

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tiny little turn ons:

   - people leaning against walls with one shoulder while they talk

   - catching somebody turning away smiling at a joke you made

   - people who linger on a hug for just a second after you let go

   - somebody glancing at your lips while you’re talking

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Your Graduation // Modern Baseball

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From stardust we come. To stardust we return.

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but have u ever felt homesick for a person

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Little 10 year old me was so fucking brave and strong. Goddamn. My little hero. You deserved so much better.

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when i was depressed those “reasons not to kill yourself” lists never helped.. maybe they do for some people but for me they actually made me feel worse. it was like….here’s a reminder that there are all these things other people find joy in that you can’t. with a sprinkle of guilt because “your family/friends will miss you.”

what i needed to hear, and so what i’ll tell any of you reading this who are in the same situation, was: a lot of people recover from mental illness and go on to live full lives. it’s quite likely that with treatment, a time will come when you won’t want to die anymore and you’ll find joy in everyday life. yes, you. stay alive for that possibility.

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lately i have really been longing for the moments between kisses when our faces would be squished together like no matter how close we were we could never be close enough. and now you’re a million miles away and all i wonder is if you’re doing well and if you’re happy and if your new friends make you feel safe and known. if you tell them what you’re thinking and if you laugh until your stomach hurts and if you feel loved. you deserve the world and i hope you find someone who loves you and knows that you’re not a burden because life happened to you