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My weekend is going to be PACKED because three movies are playing this week at AMC and trust I’ll be seated for every single one in one day

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2nd day college fit because it’s a lot better than the last one.

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Crashing out and I got a day and a half

Classes start for me on Tuesday, and I'm still cleaning my room. I also need to wash a lot of clothes, and I'm unsure what to wear for the first week of college. I'm crashing out so badly, and I won't be able to find an outfit on Monday since I have work. :(

I want to do either a '60s fit, or '70s, or '80s, or '90s, not really earthy right now, maybe hippie.

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And so, Bandcamp begins

Today, my Spotify finally ran out, and with the new AI thing they've done, I will no longer be supporting them. Still, I will always have bandcamp by my side, only issue is, it's going to be a bitch only listening to a few songs I own, since I don't have the money to just blow it all on music on that app, and if I do want to blow it, I want to have some form of physical media of that said album if I'm going to buy it. But this will also help me sit through (drive) all of an album without skipping it. So, my challenge begins now.

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Road trips at night

Recently, I've been seeing the love of my life at night, so I randomly turned on Radiohead a few nights ago as I drove to his house, and I don't know why, but something struck a chord with me when I listened to them at night. My body wants to feel sad, but it's also very calming. So now, every night I go for a drive, I can't help but turn on some Radiohead.

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I'm still sick and I'm sad

ITS BEENA. WHOLE WEEK, and I'm still sick :(

I really want to listen to new music or just sit down and watch films all day, I feel like I have that energy, but I'm scared that when I actually do it, I won't be able to keep my word to it. I hope I feel good tomorrow because I want to see my sister this weekend so bad :(

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Hours before my crashout

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Well, with me getting this hairstyle for graduation, I’m starting to really like this style on me, maybe it’s because of the curls. I had this style once without it, and it made my forehead look weird, but this style makes me really cute :)

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Middle school days weren't the best, but...

(Rant)

Nothing will ever beat me being a kid in middle school, in a deep depression, coming home every day after school, tired, drained, suicidal, and all of the above. But I would always come home and hop on my Xbox at the time, let Spotify show me new discoveries in music when they actually knew what new discoveries meant, and I would play Overwatch nonstop till it was time for me to go to bed. While that wasn't the best for my mental health, there's some nostalgia to that, surprisingly, but I'm happy that I'm able to turn a scary time in my life into something positive. If it wasn't for _crustbag _'s new video (I'll link at the end of this rant), I probably would have completely forgotten about that time because not only was I experiencing that, I was also bonding closer to the metal scene, which also helped me through my middle-high school years. I don't listen to metal as much, but I do attend their concerts from time to time, so I will always have respect for that genre no matter what, and I just learned so much more about that scene today because of this video.

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Bad luck, I guess...

(Rant)

This week is not a good week for me. Not only did I get sick on the day of my graduation, but the graduation was uneventful as fuck, and I also missed the opportunity to go to the Belcourt Theater to see two films I wanted to review. I also wanted to either binge-watch and review films all day since I got a big ass collection of physical media that I feel like is going to waste, and I'm not using it to its potential to start revamping my room. I'm not excited to go back to work, but I need to make money somehow. But I may have to call out due to how sick I've become. This is all my brother's fault; I accidentally drank from him, and I knew he was ill. I don't know why I did that, but here we are...

It's also really tough for me to get up and do stuff unless it's a mission to the bathroom or to refill my drink for my sore throat. My legs feel like they are going to give out, and I've been craving On The Rice really badly. I planned on going today, but again, I felt like I was going to pass out if I walked long enough. Even right now, I'm in so much pain just from sitting up and scrolling on my computer, but if I lie down, everything is somehow okay. I hate that I'm also gaining weight, my chubbs are literally showing when I sit a certain way, I'm crashing out so bad, anyways, support indie cinema. I also found out that my local theater was indie all along. I feel stupid now for not doing the simple research.

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Underground is a weird place

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It was the most uneventful graduation I've ever had, but I MADE IT! Now I'm onto becoming a film director :)

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i love when girls wear boxers

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daily walks to keep from going crazy

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Shells

21 x 29,7cm, ink on paper, Kevin Lucbert, 2025