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LIZA.

      ❝ i don’t —— the definition of fun is subjective. a lot of people’s doesn’t include substance abuse for the greater good. i don’t like new things. UNLESS they’re exactly like the old things. same with, with halloween. a-artemis actually is known as the goddess of the hunt and is one of the most respected of all the ancient greek deities. though it is thought that her name, and even the goddess herself, may even be pre-greek. that’s . . not entirely true. she had a hunting com-companion! orion. and they fell in love. p-possibly. but not, not in front of children, i think. seems . . inappropriate, or is it not. ❞

‘  fiiine----- you’re not drinking if you don’t want to; not gonna force you to. but, y’know, give it a try! it’ll only be the two of us. we’ll put away any flammable objects and matches---- safety measures. ------- and she also had a bow. i don’t know---- maybe being artemis for halloween will be the first step to worshipping her for years to come. ‘sides, it’s much better to believe my lover became a constellation than fearing your girlfriend’s gonna break up with you any second now. details. yeah, i don’t think to exhibit your kinks in a public setting, especially with tons of kids around, would be best. but, you can pretend it’s for educational purposes! like, “ kids, if you don’t do your homework, this’ gonna happen to you ” and then mickey rips your neck off. it sends a message.  ’ 

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LIZA.

    ❝ REALLY? i-i’ve heard it makes you really dizzy. and what if my cells don’t respond well to ethanol. lots of things could happen, kay. but i mean ; i guess, we could. the candy’s good, though. but i don’t really think children are about to . . to knock on our door. i d-don’t think i can handle them all too well without you. if you’re going as a goddess, which one? you really need some mythological accuracy! i don’t know yet. maybe, i’ll get — back to you! i think he’d be a hot vampire. he got the teeth for it. the everything. ❞

‘  ---- that’s the fun part! even if we mess up, think about the MEMORIES. nobody’s dying, and you get to play doctor if one of us forgets how to use the scissors----- wouldn’t it be IRONIC if it were me? y’know, ‘cause i’m GAY. ----- fret not, bud. if tiny zombies and batmans try to take you down under the premise of trick n’ treating, i’ll handle them---- basically, we’re doing this together. artemis, maybe? she hated men---- and had a bow. i’m a sagittarius, represented by a bow, and i, too, hate men, so---- i did the math. cool, cool. maybe you can be a vampire too----- OR the one who gets bitten? either way, lots of biting would be going on.  ’

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BEATRICE.

          She ruined things. It’d been her speciality since birth. Beatrice Cheung was known to wreck things, previously in perfect condition. It was a curse, rarely considered a gift, that she’d acquired the moment she’d began breathing. And her relationship with Kaylee had been no different. She wasn’t sure what it was that drove her to a reckless behaviour; desiring to distance herself, destroying any shot at redemption once she’d come to her senses.   ❛  Wait,  ❜  Pushing herself off of the bed, feet were planted onto the floor. It was as if she was giving herself an out: saving herself from pushing the other further away. She was, in a way. Yet, she chose the path she’d always chosen. Arm stretched to grab ahold of fabric resting on a nearby chair, offering it to the other.  ❛  Since you’re, uh – picking up stuff.  ❜

hope shatters as fast as it builds, and kaylee is right in the epicenter of its collapse----- not even the debris has mercy on her, and she wonders if it’s supposed to hurt like this. is she overreacting? too sensitive? does being ignored for over a week, with no reason whatsoever, to then being dismissed so effortlessly warrant a reaction of this magnitude? she can’t tell, but does feel it regardless. 

despondent eyes linger on the forgotten jacket longer than she intends, and when her gaze comes back to her girlfriend’s, she laughs----- laughs as she makes her exit.  ‘  fuck you.  ’  and it’s a laugh that exceeds dullness & lacks humor, because there’s nothing funny about it----- of watching your relationship go down the sewer unable to do something.

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LIZA.

     ❝ not an expert on tequila —– - i’ve NEVER had that. but i sure do like . . the first one! if we start now, we might even make it perfect just in time for halloween. or october. why spend a day celebrating when, when you can have a month! i’m talking different themes of movie genres, scary poems and old but ques-questionably well written tales. i’m . . not too sure he’d love that, but he’s so cute. we can give the bat wings a shot. what about yourself, any ideas for a costume: no, no let me guess: frankenstein’s bride. ❞

‘  well, the first order of business: TEQUILA. i can easily get this done within the next few days, but since we have time------ you’re gonna help me, and we’re doing tequila shots while we’re at it. it’ll be fun! now, gotta add the most smallest bat wings ever created to the list.... aaaand we’re ready! i’ll get everything after my shift tonight, plus some halloweeny candy. uh---- i don’t know yet? so many options, so little time. i almost go with selena again, y’know, RETRO, but also----- ABBA. and also! lola bunny from space jam; a goddess amongst men. or someone from TLC. it’s hard. and you? lovebirds matching costumes this year?  ’

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BEATRICE.

          Tris stops herself from almost blurting out yet another excuse to cold behaviour. Instead she fell back against the wall, pulling legs up on the bed with her.  ❛  I’ve just been busy ! What can I say, –– I’m on high demand.  ❜  The brunette spoke, attempting to make the conversation into one more light-hearted.  ❛  Yup, busy as a bee …  ❜  

hand grips at her bag’s strap, sight cast downwards. there’s an urge, a need and just a desire to lie down next to her that she fights----- it doesn’t feel right nor does it feel wrong, but it’s different. something’s different and the only one she can put the blame on is herself.  

‘  okay.  ’  pressing her lips together, she nods.  ‘  i’ll just-----  ’  thumbs point at the door, and feet step backward in its direction.  ‘  call me. if you feel better---- or if you don’t. or---- ---- not... ------- whatever.  ’     

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LIZA.

    ❝  —– - then show me! i was thinking since you, you really like arts & craft, we should let you try to come up with some decorations. no worries, i’ll help. i was kind of thinking along the lines of, of edgar allan poe: there is no exquisite beauty without some strangeness in the proportion. and we definitely need fake blood. realistic looking one, the one from the store usually doesn’t cover it. hitchcock nights! and we could interpret some of stephen king’s lesser known work. you’d be, be surprised by how big of a topic the underworld is in ancient literature, too … dry leaves? okay. s-sure, maybe. — not to mention they’re kind of a collection point for aphids. ❞

‘   that i did! okay, here’s one----- then i thought maybe something like this, or alternatively: this. i did have to consider our budget so these won’t cost us any of our pretty limbs---- i think. ‘course we can add GALLONS of fake blood, too. just consider these our basic layouts. ANCIENT LITERATURE, right------ nothing shots can’t fix! tequila makes me smarter, you’ll see. ALSO! i’ll learn how to knit and sew real fast so peanuts can have his own halloween costume. i mean, how hard can it be? or just----- buy some bat wings--- maybe some horns, too! gotta make him feel included, y’know?  ’  

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BEATRICE.

          She wanted to avoid the altercation altogether, though she caved – entering her dorm with uncertain movements. The alcohol, not nerves. But both could easily be equal to blame. and without second thought, sweater was thrown over the nightstand, hiding the unplugged telephone. ❛ Are you –– sure its in here ? I  think would’ve seen it. ❜ Sinking down onto her unmade bed, Tris leaned back as her girlfriend entered. 

warm tones skim through her girlfriend’s room, scanning the place for an item she fails to care about in the moment. still, she ambles toward tris’ desk, and the nagging feeling in the pit of her stomach lets extended palms press against mahogany for a couple seconds before she turns around and her eyes focus on her girlfriend.

‘  ------- is something wrong?  ’  she inquires briskly, and the bitterness in her mouth lingers.  ‘  'cause it’s not you just being wiped out---- i know what that looks like.  ’

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❖ it's 3am, dark, at night. you wake up in your bed. it's fall weather. you hear a noise: what is it?

“  liza waking me up ‘cause she’s bored outta her ass.  ”

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❖ does peanuts like you the moist

“  you know that saying  ‘ you are what you eat ’ ?  yeah. and i’m a lesbian, so peanuts and i understand each other on a whole other level, one neither liza nor jaerd can ever dream of reaching. peanuts LOVES me the most.  ”

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do you make goofy sounds during sex?

“ ... no? hate that guy.  ”

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❖ wld u rather be straight or die

“  i’d hold myself at gunpoint and pull the trigger myself.  ”

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❖ when do you think tris is gonna dump you for some DICK

“  i don’t think she would just for some skin flute—- just… in general—- kinda thing? PRETTY SOON. probably.  ”

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send me a ❖ + a question and my muse will be forced to tell the truth.

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LIZA.

@kavlees ;

    ❝ i was —- i was just saying now that summer’s over, we could . . look forward to halloween! more spooky movies, fall weather, darker nights . . maybe we could do a little more than last year. you got ANY ideas? i got some! there’s lots of, lots of places to go. ❞

‘  me, gay? no, i’m ECSTATIC! so much so, that i’ve already come up with three different outdoor designs for you to pick from! the rest will sort itself out. i do wanna hear your ideas, though; where do you think we should go? heard of any attractions that’s gonna leave us SHITLESS? i also do think we should hold our own fall contest--- stompin’ on dry leaves. whoever crunches more leaves without having an orgasm wins!  ’

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BEATRICE.

beatrice doesn’t understand her own reluctance, though it persists nevertheless. gaze locked on keys within her grasp, and she continues to avoid direct eye contact with the person who she considers her closest. 

    ❛   no ! i mean  … i didn’t say that. i’m just TIRED. i’ll probably pass out the second i get inside. but you can stay, if you want. or we could talk tomorrow ?   ❜

impatience bubbles underneath her skin and she doesn’t quite know what to do with the restive disquiet she’s left with ; the sole of dirt-covered white converses tap against the floor without rest, fingertips scrabble nonsense on her thumbs as she has yet to decide whether to fold her arms or just let them drop to her sides. EXHAUSTION has never stopped them from spending time together, and she didn’t understand what had changed.

‘  no, it’s fine!  ’  it wasn’t, her voice is living proof of that.  ‘  don’t wanna disturb your beauty sleep. left one of my sketchbook on your desk, so once i get that---- i’ll be on my merry way.  ’

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BEATRICE.

she didn’t mean to be stalling. it wasn’t a deliberate move to be fidgeting with the keys to her room, nor was it a conscious decision to refrain from guiding them towards the lock. but she remained hovering outside the door, leaning against its frame as her she listened to the other. 

     ❛   i’m not changing … i’ve been GOOD. just been studying, a lot. in the library, without my phone. did you–– want anything, or ? ‘cause i’m pretty BEAT.   ❜

exasperation begins to brew in, and it fuses in par with the sardonic expression cast onto defined features. kaylee wasn’t known to be the brightest person in the room, but she knew HER. in the past, they hadn’t needed as much as a glance to know what the other was thinking ; it was a connection they began sharing even long before they started DATING, and tris’ wishes were deafening. the brunette knew how to take a hint---- didn’t mean she WANTED to or that she was going to take it just like that, though.

‘  so... i just... leave?  ’ 

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ARIZONA.

             “ okay —- so lie? wonderful, and what am i supposed to say after i state the other guy should be seen? guidance, woman — i need guidance before i turn around and start another mental break down for stuttering and them being fully aware that i’m lying. ”

‘  realistically, no one ever CARES for the other guy ‘cause he’s supposed to be FUCKED UP  beyond recognition. and if they do? CREATIVITY, woman��; learn how to LIE.  ’