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[kejaaj]

He's got his money and she's got her drugs, so they're both happy.

I see plenty of people celebrating Lahan anime day - I hope this contributes a tad bit to that too.

[kejaaj]

WHAT THE- OH MY GOD I'M ABOUT TO CRY THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH! I'LL TREASURE THIS FOREVER!

The details you focused on fit so perfectly! AND THE LYRICS?!

I really want to say something, but there's nothing to add. You pictured Lalaya so well like- I'm speechless

I'm sorry if my answer is not satisfactory but I'm so emotional rn I can't even think straight

Here's the thing I foreshadowed in [Ideas behind Chapter 9]'s extra notes.

@kejaaj

Thank you for always reading my Inazuma Eleven fics and the edit gifts you gave me.

Song used : [edit audio by @JuupitR Edit]

Original song : Ellie Goulding - Lights (Official Video)

Inspired by The Faram Queen by keja

- The font at the beginning of the video is called 'Happiness font'

The lines are from the fic.

- Up to 00:16, I used a filter called 'Fantasy'

Symbolizing Lalaya's happy bubble state

- Tsurugi and King Acrous are always light and /or glowing

- From 00:20, I used a filter called 'Purple Night'

Symbolizing Lalaya's happy bubble filled with unhappiness

- I wanted to edit in a bubble shape with Lalaya but the transition was kind of difficult so I resorted to filters

[Lyrics]

You show the lights that stop me, turn to stone

-> The truth, the 'light' that Tsurugi shows Lalaya, made her break down because that wasn't the kind of light she wanted to see in her kingdom

You shine it when I'm alone

-> King Acrous and Tsurugi both told and/or showed the truth, the 'light'. The difference is that King Acrous couldn't tell Lalalya, but Tsurugi was in a position to show she's not alone.

And so I tell myself that I'll be strong

-> Lalaya trying her best to do her duties despite a literal black hole floating in space.

And dreaming when they're gone

'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home

Calling, calling, calling home

-> Lalaya's lines : But, for some reason... I cannot help but feel troubled. I don't know why...

This entire line was what Lalaya was thinking the moment she became queen. And now the happy bubble is fading away, but at the very least, she got her answers.

[The layers]

[kejaaj]

That's literally ss from one of my tiktoks, which apparently travelled to Facebook only to go back to me here on Tumblr... That's an interesting circle

It would be nice if they at least gave credits to the original art artist (it's @/ Ani_Peng on X)

I found it and I am bringing it here

[kejaaj]

Jinshi, depressed after his go lose: other then my look I'm painful average and even if I cheat I can't beat geniuses. Yet they expect that I would lead

Lahan, completely focused on jinshi's beautiful face: don't worry our child will have your looks and my mind

Jinshi:

Lahan:

[kejaaj]

I was supposed to edit something entirely different, but since this idea wouldn't leave me... Here's another TNOH edit for @observer-exe

(here's the link to my Tiktok acc if y'all are interested)

[kejaaj]

I'M SORRY WHAT?!!!

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[kejaaj]

I love the KNH/TAD community bc in one hand, you have anime onlys watching season 2's second ending song saying "oh wow I love Maomao having friends" and then you have LN readers crying and screaming bc of Maomao's friends.

[kejaaj]

LAHAN FINALLY GOT HIS ANIME DEBIUT (well not really, but who cares) WHEN I SAW HIM MY PHONE LITERALLY FLEW ACROSS THE ROOM

I also was wondering about his eyes, but then I remembered that Luomen also has brown eyes, so I guess it makes sense (but hey, we still don't know what Lakou and his wife look like, so maybe he got that trait after them)

HE IS HERE HE IS HERE BEST BOY LAHAN IN THE NEW OPENINNGGG DID YOU GUYS SEE HIM

I haven't posted in ages because of coursework building up but I saw the new opening and needed to post modern day Lahan and Maomao. I knew he doesn't actually have green hair but yeah the anime confirmed the black hair again (let me dream) BUT WHY DOESN'T HE HAVE BLUE EYES? I always thought the blue eyes was a La clan thing because Lakan has them, so I will continue to believe that Lahan has blue eyes.

But more siblings AU - I had much fun drawing this one. I need more of their interactions.

[kejaaj]

When I saw that April Fools high school au I just had to give my boy his deserved art.

[kejaaj]

Them but modern

[kejaaj]

Glad to be at your service 🤗

You know when you get one of those readers who comments on every chapter of your fic, pointing out their favorite parts and quoting lines that really resonated with them?

Yeah, as a writer, this is an absolute gift. ❤️

[kejaaj]

Why I don’t like people calling Maomao from The Apothecary Diaries Aro/Ace coded.

Writing helps me organize my thoughts so I want to get this down before I attempt to make a video about it. It’s a subject that deserves to be treated with nuance and care so I will do my best express myself correctly.

Let me start this off by being clear, in no way am I disparaging people headcanoning Maomao as aro/ace or any sexuality for that matter. I personally headcanon her as Demi/Bi. I am only and specifically referring to people implying that she is CANONICALLY aro/ace or coded that way.

I find it unfair for people who are genuinely seeking aro/ace rep to be told that Maomao is that, when she is not. I have seen multiple cases of people who are understandably upset after reading the light novels, because they were told going into it that she was aro/ace coded.

I will be discussing things from the light novels in the rest of this post so bear that in mind and here is your spoiler warning.

Maomao is deeply repressed and in denial of her own feelings. This is something extremely obvious in the subtext of her character, and then overtly revealed in light novel 12. She does, at first, believe that she is incapable of love, but we as the readers also know that that is connected to her trauma and upbringing, along with her skewed perception of sex. She believes her feelings could only bring trouble, so she pushes them down for as long as possible.

For a long time there has been an extremely harmful stereotype that aro/ace people are just repressed and can be “fixed” by the right person. And if Maomao was genuinely intended to be aro/ace it would be perpetuating this really awful and untrue stereotype.

Maomao’s feelings realization and acceptance comes from a very important quote in the story. “I know you have your circumstances, Miss Maomao. It’s important not to get carried away by your emotions! But...” Chue brushed Maomao’s cheek again with her bloodstained hand. “You can’t let that be an excuse either.”

I personally would not like aro/ace being reduced to an “excuse”, frankly I would find that really fucking uncomfortable.

Now onto the sexual aspect of it. Maomao’s only frame of reference for sex comes from the verdigris house. I will tell you this as a sex worker, if you were raised adjacent to this industry and had no understanding of sex outside of the context of SW (and pornographic literature), you most likely would have the same skewed perception of sex that Maomao does. She looks at it like work, a performance. Which is the main reason she is so nervous about it in light novel 13. She is scared her “performance” won’t be good. She knows the mechanics of sex and how to give pleasure, but nothing about intimacy. She’s also pretty clinical about it, because there is political reasons why sex between them could be literally dangerous to the safety of the country…. Not really conducive to the relaxed and fun environment that she deserves for her first time.

But in conclusion, it is very understandable that aro/ace people have found comfort in her as a character, ESPECIALLY anime watchers because the romance subplot has barely even scratched the surface of the long LONG development arc it gets. Headcanons are also always okay, do what you want. Read and write whatever fic you want. But telling other people that Maomao is canonically aro/ace or coded that way is not only inaccurate, but could bring disappointment to people wanting rep, or people hating on the author for “perpetuating bad stereotypes” when she never intended Maomao’s character that way in the first place. This ship has already left the port and has sailed to the western capital and back, there’s no turning around now.

[kejaaj]

[kejaaj]

In Google Document. Each chapter has its own doc, and if I decide to translate what I wrote from my native language to English I also make it as a separate doc. I also use the note app to write out random ideas so I wouldn't forget it.

I used to write directly on wattpad, but that's something I left in the past long ago. Same goes with writing on paper.

As for the writing lore, I don't have anything as terrifying as letting my drafts delete on itself. No matter how stupid or how boring the thing is, I keep it safe in my docs. Even if something is only a few words long, I refuse to delete it.

Although I used to have a different opinion on this. In the past I deleted so many fics... I wish I could get them back, even if just to die from cringe while reading them.

Got called a weirdo irl for the way I write my fics sooo

I am the “writes in document tabs” if anyone’s wondering

[kejaaj]

Spreading my Ishido X Sauna master agenda

[kejaaj]

Ohhh ty for the tag!

1. The Apothecary Diaries - Kan Lahan

2. Inazuma Eleven Go - Lalaya Obies

3. Genshin Impact - Xiao

4. Bungou Stray Dogs - Sigma

5. Moriarty the Patriot - William James Moriarty

6. Haikyuu - Akaashi Keiji

7. My Little Pony - Sunset Shimmer

8. Muhteşem Yüzyıl - Mihrimah Sultan

9. That Time I Got Reincarnated as a Slime - Ciel

10. Obey Me - Simeon

I'm not tagging anyone cuz I'm too scared to do so, but if you see this feel free to join

10 FANDOMS, 10 CHARACTERS

list ten favorite characters from 10 different fandoms and tag 10 people!

Love Momozono / Cure Peach (Precure)

Danny Fenton (Danny Phantom)

May (Pokemon)

Satsuki Kiryuin (Kill La Kill)

Elodie (OK KO)

Buttercup (The Powerpuff Girls)

Envy Adams (Scott Pilgrim)

Pinkie Pie (MLP)

Claire Francois (I'm in Love with the Villainess / I Favor the Villainess)

Princess Daisy (Super Mario)

Other than Love being number one, this list is not in order

@mockguffin @wallflower-koharu @vaugarde @moonscape @princess--bongwater @zukoromantic @malewifefirestar @minakosroom @route505 @red-rose-corner and anyone else who wants to participate! Those who've been tagged do not need to participate if they don't want to btw.