kekekeyb-tch

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sorry

I don’t know how I can say it

Too many times I make the same mistakes

I have a tendency to overanalyze

I am selfish

I am jealous

I am weak

And I don’t deserve your friendship but I’m so fucking thankful for it

I curse myself and I tell myself I won’t but I do anyways

I know the mistakes I am making but I keep making them

Sorry doesn’t seem to be a good enough word

But it is all I have

I’ve given you everything else already

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i want to sit in an old cafe with you, listening to our favourite music and drinking hot coffee.

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171231 sunmi and hyuna at mbc gayo daejejeon *:･ﾟ✧

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Shine on my heart baby (Shine on me baby)

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I feel like the line between “fluffy uwu self care” and “get your shit together self care” is thinner than people seem to think. Like, sitting in a quiet space with a book and maybe some twinkly fairy lights gives me the spoons to go call my damn doctor like I’ve been meaning to. Bath bombs or shower steamers make me feel content and/or sparkly, which gives me confidence to go out in public. (Plus, I bathed.) I dye my hair funky colors so if I feel like people are staring at me I can say it’s at that instead of whatever my anxiety wants it to be. 

The two are not mutually exclusive, is what I’m getting at, and I never see that mentioned, just either “self care is being nice to yourself” or “self care is kicking yourself in the ass to function for a few hours”. Kick yourself in the ass with niceness.

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Friendly reminder that your sexual history does not dictate your sexual orientation and that it’s okay to have not dated someone from the gender(s) you are attracted to.

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The Only Thing Your Sign Does Well

Aries: destroy

Taurus: sex

Gemini: talk

Cancer: dream

Leo: cry

Virgo: ignore

Libra: sleep

Scorpio: fight

Sagittarius: hide

Capricorn: spend

Aquarius: deceive

Pisces: create

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so funny thing that happened today that made me realise that as a species we do not deserve girls

i was in the bathroom after school and as i’m about to leave i hear this group of girls that i know but i’m not friends with come in and i don’t think they realised i was in there at first

and because Anxiety™ i was waiting until they left so that i could wash my hands and go

but then they start talking about personal stuff and one of them asks if anyone is in the cubicles

and i start freaking out and say nothing

and then they keep asking who’s in there and i am DYING inside wondering if it’s physically possible to flush myself to get out of the situation

so without thinking i just say “i’m waiting for you to fucking leave so that i can go”

and straight after i say it i’m like

ABORT ABORT ABORT BAD IDEA BAD IDEA TIME TO DIE

at this point i am COMPLETELY convinced that if i come out these girls are going to kill me so i start vomiting a load of words about how i have anxiety

but then one of them says

“oh my god i’m so sorry i just didn’t want anyone else to hear what i was about to say, we can stay in a cubicle so we can’t see you if you want”

and a minute later she’s like “ok we’re all behind the door so we won’t be able to see you, you can come out now”

so i come out and they aren’t there

and i wash my hands and i leave

WHAT DID WE DO TO DESERVE GIRLS

I’M GAY BUT GIRLS ARE SO GOOD AND I LOVE YOU ALL????

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“my hands are small”

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the part of adulthood that nobody prepared me for was how some nights you’re like “yknow what? i’m in the mood to cook a full 12-course meal for myself” and other nights you’re like “tortilla chips are basically an entire meal it’s fine”